I LOVED YOU

You once looked at me with these widened eyes that seemed so excited to hear what I had to say to you. Other times, they crinkled at the sides when you smiled and lit up when you talked about things you liked. Then over time, your eyes became softer when you looked directly at me and they had this warm, comforting look to them. I miss those eyes. Somehow, I miss the eyes that now look past me and through me when we run into each other. I miss the eyes that now shine when you tell other people things happening in your life. I miss the eyes that will soon enough look softly at someone else.
—  i鈥檓 sugarcoating. i just miss you.

“If I date you, the goal is to marry you. Build with you. Grow with you. I’m not dating you just to pass time, I see potential in you. I don’t fear commitment. I fear wasting my time.”

-anonymous

i am doing a terrible job
at forgetting you
because i dreamt
about you last night
and your facial features
appeared so聽neatly.
especially a year after i last saw you.
—  i’m pretty bad at moving on, i guess.

Pouring your heart and soul into someone and then they decide they don’t want you anymore is the worst possible feeling in the world. And when they seem to just move on to someone else like they never even cared about you it hurts more than anything. I am tired of being hurt. I am tired of being used. This is why I have trust issues. When I love I love with all my heart. I don’t have anymore feeling to give anymore. I’m just exhausted and empty. I’m sorry.