im your sister
am i younger or older than you ? are you watching me grow from the standpoint of a conscientious older sibling / role model, or are you witnessing me grow from the standpoint of an awestruck younger sibling ? i treat you well, but how involved in your life am i ? do i have my own life, a life that only ever touches yours occasionally but that has a deeper impact on you than youre willing to admit, or do we have a bond so deep that itd be impossible to root each other out of our lives even if we wanted to ? is there a large enough gap between us so that we dont understand each other, or do we work past that gap and unite under our shared experiences, whether they be familial or not ? do i support you ? do we take care of each other, or do we just nudge each other in a certain direction occasionally ? do we share secrets ? do we need to share secrets, or do we have a deep enough connection that our intuition makes up for lack of detailed knowledge ? am i a passive agent in your personal development, or can you see where when and how ive had significant impacts on who you are ? are we willing to sacrifice things for each other ? how deep does the love go ? am i wise ? do you trust me, do you trust my advice ? do you need me ? do i need you ? am i your only genuine emotional connection, or do you wish that i could be counted among your many established connections ? are you sad ? do you want to talk ? are you angry ? do you want to scream ? do you wish that what i am to you would never die, or am i just another impermanent relation ?