I AM MILES FROM BEING OKAY

Hey guys. 

First, let me get this out of the way — I’m okay. But I am recovering from surgery and it’s been a little harder than expected or promised. Nothing too major so again so don’t worry because, I repeat: I’m okay — but the lead up to this has been a lot of pain that’s been difficult to manage for the better part of a year.

And that’s slowed me down, way, way down… on so many things.

Couple my health issues with a cross-country move to a new city and being separated from the cast and my primary creative team by about 2500 miles and you have an EOS 10 hiatus that’s become much longer than I’d really hoped. You guys are so patient, and so awesome. I appreciate it.

Here’s what I can tell you right now. Since moving to LA, I’ve connected with a bunch of audio drama creators, particularly the teams behind the wonderful @arsparadoxica and @thebrightsessions. They’re great people, and if you’re not listening to their fantastic shows, you should be. I’m working on some of them with, what I’ll just say right now is a collaborative EOS 10 project that you’re going to get this fall, if it means I have to give up sleeping to see that it’s completed. I also have large swaths of season three written and they’re shaping up to be my favorites of everything we’ve done so far. It’s a more daring story line than we’ve attempted before and I’m fully prepared for most of you to hate me as it unfolds :) But in a good way. And hopefully the hate will only be temporary.

In the meantime, thank you so much for your support. Thank you for listening and sharing and creating (the artistic skill some of you have never ceases to amaze me). It really all means the world to me. It really does. 

A BIG FAMILY THAT I NEVER KNEW I HAD.

THIS FANDOM CAN LITERALLY DO ANYTHING.

WE CAN TREND THINGS

WE CAN WIN AWARDS

WE BEAT ANYTHING.

I LOVE THIS FANDOM.

I LOVE THIS FAMILY.

I was here for a few months already and my life has changed big time. I learned that its okay to be myself, that being beautiful is from within and what I learned the most is even if they’re miles away one click and they’re here for you,

I know a lot of you can relate on what I’m talking about. YouTubers can make me happy, they can make me cry, they can make me feel that I’m not alone. I feel loved when they say they love me, I feel I am not worthless when they Thank us for everything. I can be who I am when I watch their videos. When I feel like no one is there for me, they’re here. Even if we can’t see, hear or talk to each other I can feel their love for me.

It may sound cheesy, but you know yourself that it’s true. So if you’re one of the people who met them you are really lucky. For those people who haven’t met them ( includes self) we are still lucky to have them as a family. Same to the viewers/fans who are here to support them all through out, I am lucky to have all of you. I love you guys so much.

// SO THAT WAS A BIT DIFFERENT. I JUST WANT TO EXPRESS ALL MY LOVE FOR YOU. EVEN IF YOU HATE ME I LOVE YOU :)//

//P.S I CRIED TYPING THIS.//