Hurt-Emotionally

anonymous asked:

Have you all figured out the storyline before you develop? Or do your whole team collaborate on progressing/changing it as you develop the game?

It’s got a SOLID general idea, and as the game is developed I mold it constantly and see how I can change things to make more sense or hurt people more emotionally. I believe Studio Ghibli does the same thing with their stories. I’m sure @lynxgriffin would disagree, though.

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anonymous asked:

Are you actually trying to protect Wisely or are you just jealous that he has someone who actually likes him back?

truth serum

“I…”

“It’s both I guess…I really am worried that Wisely’s going to hurt by that CROW, emotionally at the very least but maybe even physically. He might get killed to and maybe I’m being selfish for this but I can’t stand the thought of having to feel one us die again..

But, you’re right that I am somewhat jealous. I don’t know that Allen will ever return my feelings, I don’t think he hates me but that doesn’t mean he loves or ever will love me.  I’m a Noah and while being the 14th’s host means he’s technically one as well, he’s also an exorcist; we’re on different sides.

And yet here Wisely’s just recently met this CROW, someone whose still not on our side even if he has left the order, and they’ve developed feelings for each other. It’s not fair! 

He was the first to die all those years ago, he never had to feel the pain of everyone else dying, he never had to spend years alone trying to keep the Earl sane. He hasn’t had to keep painful and dangerous secrets! He hasn’t had to deal with all the memories of the incident all by himself, he hasn’t had to just push things down because there was no one there to help them deal with things!  He was the last to wake, for him it’s like no time has really passed at all.

Why should he get to be happy? Why should he get to be in love and have that love returned? Why him and not me? Don’t I deserve it more? Don’t I deserve to be happy?

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Insecure!Sam fic recs

hi there friend! Sorry for the late reply but like I said, I am in a little summer break, hope you can find something to enjoy there!

Scars  At first he wondered how he could’ve possibly missed it. How he never even had an inkling. All those crappy hotel rooms and run down abandoned houses, fumbling in the darkness, in the back seat of the impala, wherever they could find a quiet corner and go at it undisturbed.

The Oak and the Dragon  After everything, Sam and Dean decided to stay in the bunker. And then Sam discovered an artifact in a secret room that would show each of them something about themselves they’d never known.

With Spit and a Prayer  The real tragedy is not the act itself, but the mess it leaves behind. (Sequel to Passenger, read first please)

Riot Gear Shortly before they ganked Dick Roman Sam became pregnant. He either knew and didn’t tell Dean because he didn’t want to give Dean any more pressure or he had no idea at all. The stress and trauma of seeing Dean and Cas disappear along with Crowley taking off with Kevin sends Sam into a downward spiral. The added stress from hitting Riot causes Sam to have a miscarriage. Sam spends time recovering physically, but not emotionally, with Amelia who knows not to ask about the baby.

When Dean gets back and reams Sam out for not looking for him, Sam can’t bring himself to tell Dean what happened. He thinks Dean will blame him for losing their kid and that it’ll be the final straw. Maybe Sam sneaks out to visit the grave and Dean follows, but up to the author how Dean finds out. Cue guilty!Dean and hurt!Sam who has to relive the painful memories from the last year.

The Whole Truth And Nothing But   After being hit with a truth spell Sam’s forced to reveal some shattering things about himself, including that he was raped and that he loves Dean like no brother should love his sibling, he runs away. Dean manages to find him almost a year later and now his younger brother is addicted to heroin and is into self-harm. Sam can’t believe that Dean feels the same about him and feels like Dean only pities him. Dean has to use a spell on Sam before Sam realizes Dean feels the same and with time and love Dean convinces Sam that they share a special bond.

Recall  Sam’s having a hard time telling what’s real and what isn’t, especially when it comes to some voicemails from Dean.

Skin Like Fear   It’s not that Dean doesn’t get that Sam doesn’t want to talk about whatever Hell did to him; Dean practically wrote the book on that particular brand of avoidance. Except that Sam doesn’t do this. Dean is supposed to clam up and Sam is supposed to pry and bleat about how “communication is good for the soul” or some shit. Sam is supposed to cry on his shoulder and Dean is supposed to stoically hold him and let him get it out, maybe shedding a manful tear or two in solidarity.

Staying Strong  Sam feels responsible for John’s death. It should have been him…

Askew   Dean and Sam end up back “home” again – they never imagined the trip would change everything.

In The Dark, In The Pain, On The Run   After Sam’s wall breaks, Dean decides they need some time out of the life. They rent a rundown house in a small town, and during the renovations, everything changes between them.

Appreciation   Demon’s lie. It’s what they do. So why can’t Sam stop thinking about what the shapeshifter said?

Only One He Wants   Sam sees how close Dean and Cas are growing, and he wonders how long it will be before Cas usurps his place. Dean just wants Sam to know that will never, ever happen.

You Have One Saved Message   Sam gets a new smart phone.

All That Matters   Sam doesn’t understand why his dad hates him so much.

Two pieces of the same whole   Dean has a surprise for his little brother and Sam has some issues.

Lost Time Verse Sam Burton has an average life, a foul-mouthed sister, and a dream of putting his past behind him. All of that changes when Dean Winchester comes to stay.

Remove all the Pieces One by One Sam Winchester has never been clean.

His brother, the Band Aid   Sam’s broken, and Dean hurts along with him, until they devise a plan on how to be okay.

Say It’s Possible    Sam thought screwing around with Dean would be easy - he was finally getting what he wanted, and if Dean didn’t feel the same way? Well, that didn’t matter. He’d play his part and everything would be fine. Except Dean seems dead set on messing with his head, and Sam isn’t so sure this was worth all the trouble, after all.

Second Chances and New Beginnings   Cas has disappeared, an ancient form of being called Leviathan are freed from Purgatory, Sam’s wall is down, sending him into horrific flashbacks of what he suffered for over a century. With no idea how to evade or fight the latest Apocalypse, Dean concentrates on what’s most important to him. Putting his brother back together. But a shocking turn of events put the Winchesters on another journey. What does their father and an archangel have in common with stopping the end of the world?

Every Inch   In which Sam is really insecure and Dean’s oblivious until he really has to pee.

What better way to show Sam what to love than Dean, cause who knows how to love Sam better than Dean?

Spoilers for anyone who only watches the anime

u remember when Mob went 100% gratitude? BRO that shit ….. Tore me apart …. I could cry thinking abt it like. Teru and ritsu were both basically begging mob to go 100% to save them all and Reigen is the only one telling mob not to because he knows how much him using all his power hurts him mentally, emotionally, and sometimes physically. Like Reigen takes mob by the face and looks him in the eyes and is like “it’s ok to run. I got this.” Like. For all the bullshit that Reigen does he’s 100% there for Mob and his wellbeing and knowing he’s weaker against his opponent, Reigen still has Mobs best interest at heart and says he’ll do this, he’ll take care of it all and it’ll be ok and like ??? As soon as Reigen faces a life threatening situation (like immediately lmao) Mob goes 100% but he’s not angry and he’s not sad or ??? He goes 100% gratitude for Reigen and idk man.
I go pretty hard on Reigen sometimes because he’s a greasy uncle but. He’s so good to mob and I love him so much and I love their dynamic

The first week after we broke up, I felt like I couldn’t breathe on my own, I needed you. The first month, I still cried at the thought of us. The first couple of months, I had to fight myself to not text or call you. No matter what I did, I couldn’t get you out of my head until one morning, I decided that was it. I wasn’t going to miss you anymore because after all the times you’ve hurt me emotionally, that’s the last thing you deserve. I was so blinded and couldn’t see that all of your games outweighed the happy times. It took so much to get to where I am emotionally. And now that I’m finally here, you want to come back into my life. You’re trying to get me back by playing games. I won’t be a victim of your mind games this time. I don’t deserve to be played over and over and you’re failing to realize that. I still care about you and my heart wants to give us another chance but I’m smart enough to know that that’s not the best thing for me.

Fun fact. My sister gave me this shirt as a Christmas present, this is also the very shirt I was wearing the first time a woman called me handsome. She said “You ma'am, are handsome… But your shirt is annoying. It looks like it should be burned with fiery glitter. The vibrant colors hurt me emotionally. Your torso deserves better.” But all I could think about is how robust and comfortable she made me feel by calling me handsome… Even though she down right obliterated my choice of upper body attire .^__^.

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ok a small thing I was thinking of today.. its not much but I felt like revisiting it again. 

I was thinking about the look on his face here.. and the tone of his voice..

Its the tone he always uses when he talks to her, that softening of the voice that we’ve all come to know so well it comes to Carol. But its also just the concern on his face because he really doesn’t know. what was done to her and it worries and concerns him like it does with no one else. 

Because not knowing is worse than knowing. If you don’t know you  can think of all all kinds of horrible things. Things that happened when you are not there to protect someone Was she hurt? Physically, emotionally? Both maybe. Just how bad did they mess with her. He dosen’t know what happened to her. Just like before, he suspects but he dosen’t know.. 

And she won’t tell him.. even though she’s close to doing it..

I was thinking of this because the concern he shows for her is visible on his face and in his voice when he talks to her. Dosen’t have to say much to prove that to me or anyone else.

He loves her that’s why he’s worried. Even though he can’t quite get her to talk and won’t force her to, every thing in his body language around her in this scene shows it. 

(gifs by @hypernovadust)

Its the concern on his face and voice that always gets me here the most and that seems to be a lovely exlusive for her. And a beautiful example of just how lovely these two are on screen together and just how precious little of it we’ve gotten lately. 

I want more of it. Because by god its so beautiful to see it onscreen like this. 

Anyways just my thoughts for the day :)

Our Doubts Make Us Traitors

Finally cross-posting my first foray into the Star Trek fanfic after being struck by post-Beyond feels. It’s Spones, because it didn’t take a scientist to see the chemistry between these two in the movie.

Summary: Dealing with what did and didn’t occur on Altamid leaves McCoy incapable of sleeping. Paying his most recent patient a visit seems to be the only cure.

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At dusk, the nebulous cluster surrounding Altamid shone bright with wisps of stars blotting ink-black streaks. Beautiful, sure, in the same way a blazin’ wildfire looked pretty from a distance, not so much with it licking at your heels.

Like a shroud, the evening had swallowed the sun whole, and in its absence, the temperature plummeted. Which wouldn’t have made their predicament so critical, mused McCoy, if not for the injured Spock lying aside of him, shivering with full-body convulsions.

McCoy’s habit of calling him “cold-blooded” had bitten them both in the ass; Vulcans had a higher core temperature than humans, and cooped up in the oh-so-fascinating cave Spock had insisted on exploring, warmth was a necessity they sorely lacked. That unfortunate development, coupled with acute blood loss, had Spock borderline hypothermic.

Half-shielding the Vulcan from brisk winds pouring through the cavern’s gaping mouth, McCoy curled himself around Spock, sharing what heat he could muster. Currently, the normally vocal first officer was too compliant (and unconscious) to complain about the contact.

“Fickle Vulcan biology,” McCoy huffed irascibly. “One minute it’s saving your ass, the next it’s your downfall.”

No retort. No comment on preferring Vulcan biology over anything resembling the doctor’s. Evading an argument had never left McCoy so disappointed.

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Dear Ex,
You hurt me. Mentally and emotionally. I lost myself to you.
But, you know what?
Thank you for hurting me. If we never went through the things we did, then I never would have learned. I never would have grown. I never would’ve found myself. Yes, it is still a struggle. But, I don’t regret meeting you. Even though it caused me immense pain. You were a lesson that I needed to learn. So, thanks for treating me like shit. Ironically, you helped me learn my value. You helped me realize that I am worth so much more than the way you treated me. I deserve better. But, I will say that I made mistakes too. And I’m sure I’ve hurt you too. I’m sorry for making you promise to be my friend forever when I was the one that ended our friendship. I needed time. At the time, I didn’t know how to control my emotions. I was not the right one for you. I understand that now. I hope you’ll find someone you truly love some day. You deserve someone better too.
I don’t know if we’ll ever be friends again or talk again. I don’t plan on being friends again. But, whatever happens, happens.
I think we were put into that class together for a reason. I’m glad to have gotten to talk to you again. Though it was awkward at times, I think it was a true step of growing up. I learned to still love you, and not in that way. But, in a way that I can love you just as a person. I think that’s why that happened. I hope that’ll be the way our relationship ends, where we both know we’ve moved on.
Thanks again.

I think the worst thing any person can do is purposefully hurt others.
Physically or emotionally. A lot of people seem to think it’s okay to be hurtful just because its not physical.
I never understood why some people choose to live their lives hurting others by choice.

I dunno. This isnt about anything in particular. Just kinda thinking about it.

it’s so disgusting that a man would hurt a woman, his wife, & not give a shit about how much it hurts her, emotionally and physically. i mean, the fact that depp threw an iphone at his wife (amber) & it gave her a black eye… how the fuck can you just throw things at your partner? I accidentally threw a fucking PILLOW CASE at my boyfriend & I felt bad about it & ran over & kissed him all over. it’s just so sad / disgusting to me that someone can literally throw things at their significant other like that. why would you want to hurt someone like that 

People always say how family is so important. Then they make you feel guilty for not being close with yours, like your the one to blame. “Maybe if you just tried harder” or “You need to just forgive them and leave the past in the past”, or “they seemed really nice when I met them, they can’t be that bad”. It hurts. It hurts a lot. Not all relationships are fixable. Please don’t tell me to forgive and forget, unless you have walked in my shoes. Why would I want a relationship with someone who has hurt me physically and emotionally over and over again? Why should i pretend like I’ve never been hurt? The pain doesn’t go away, ever. It’s not like this man hurt me one time and then apologized for his mistake. No, he did it once, and then again, and then 100 times more, without even recognizing it as a problem. I’m sorry, but we have the choice to choose our family. And I’ve chosen mine. I’ve forgiven my abusers. But that doesn’t mean I’m going to stick around and endure more pain, because “it’s the right thing to do”.

anonymous asked:

How do you know your relationship is toxic?

if your significant other is taking more than they’re giving, your relationship is toxic.

if your significant other EVER lays a hand on you, your relationship is toxic no matter how many times they apologize or tell you they’ll never do it again.

if your significant other hurts you emotionally, physically, or mentally, your relationship is toxic.

if your significant other and you tend to fight a lot, many small issues that cause huge fights that never get solved fully, your relationship is toxic.

if your significant other pressures you into doing anything you don’t want to do, your relationship is toxic. they should respect your wishes and desires and never force themselves on you.

if your significant other treats you terribly and takes you for granted, your relationship is toxic.

and if you’re in a toxic relationship, please get out as soon as possible. they’re draining your potential to be happy and you’re so much better than that, my darlings. 💖

anonymous asked:

Su im super mad at my boyfriend right now cause hes being a huge asshole and Idk what to do I dont wanna do something I regret ... what do you do when your angry/upset at someone?

ok so what I do is I immediately stop talking to that person if they really hurt me

cause 

1, if im really upset it makes me mad because I feel like I allowed that person to do that to me, and when im angry, im (lets say) outspoken, and the last thing I normally wanna do is hurt someone I care about

2, if it is an argument/discourse where im the one mistreated, I try to get out of that environment before I get more emotionally hurt

so thats why I just bye out of there and it has worked great for me so far anon, you get to clear your mind and maybe a chance to look at things from both sides and get a better way to decide on what you want to do next

Let’s talk about Rey, Kylo, archenemies, and redemption arcs.

There is no doubt that Rey is our hero, and every hero should have their archenemy. So, who is Rey’s archenemy? There were quite a few villains introduced in TFA, but by the rules of storytelling only one of them can be Rey’s principal enemy. Obviously, they all are still meant to be dealt with, but which one of them was set up as Rey’s archenemy, and which could be handled by Finn, Luke, Leia, or anyone else without damaging the story? 

Snoke, Kylo, Hux, and Phasma, the First Order in general - all of them oppose our heroes. But only ever met one of these villains. 

Kylo is the only villain, who was set up as Rey’s personal antagonist, her archenemy. He hurt Rey physically and emotionally, killed her father figure, almost killed her only friend and possible love interest, he also tried to turn Rey to the Dark Side. And it’s possible that Kylo somehow harmed Rey in the past through her connection to Luke. Oh, and again, he is literally the only villain Rey ever interacted with. All of that makes Rey’s conflict with Kylo very personal, and sets him up as her archenemy. 

But what about Rey and Snoke? Could he be her archenemy? 

Let’s talk about their connection, or, rather, the lack of it. In TFA Snoke wasn’t set up as Rey’s personal enemy. The two had no interactions, and the worst Snoke ever did to Rey was ordering Kylo to bring her to him. Literally every other atrocious thing Kylo did to Rey was not on Snoke’s order. Rey has very little reasons to fight Snoke outside of it being another step in her hero journey. There is nothing that makes Rey’s conflict with him any more personal than that with Hux, Phasma, or any random trooper.

Now, it may be later revealed that Snoke was somehow connected to Rey being abandoned on Jakku, that would give her a good reason to fight him. But why that doesn’t make Snoke her archenemy? It has everything to do with TFA not establishing him as such. What was the purpose of the first out of three movies, if it failed to set up the following two? Any (good) trilogy has a three-act structure with every movie being an act. That makes TFA the first act that establishes characters and their relationships, and raises the dramatic question that IX will have to answer. 

How likely it is that out hero spend the first act without her archenemy being introduced and established, and instead will have to discover him in VIII?

It’s also worth noting that TFA has not one, but two heroes. Finn also have a personal conflict with Ren. And regarding other villains, he already had his triumph over Phasma, Finn and Hux never met, and Snoke is probably not even aware of his existence. Personally I would make an argument the the First Order in general is Finn’s archenemy, but for Finn Kylo is the personification of it.

Now, why are we even talking about these seemingly obvious things?

Well, it has everything to do with people insisting that Kylo will switch sides (again) and join Rey on her quest to defeat Snoke. But there are two very big problems with that. 

First of all, that scenario robs Rey of her archenemy. Again, Snoke was not established as such, and the most effective way to make him one will be to make him the reason why Rey was abandoned by her family. But not only will that be too little too late, the fact that this conflict was already partially resolved does not help the case. How was it resolved? Well, Rey was left alone and had no one, that obviously caused her great pain. However, Rey is not alone anymore, she found her family, whether it’s biological or not. It doesn’t change the fact that she was so lonely for so long, but it changes her prerogative from “fighting for” to “avenging”. 

Again, Snoke was not established as Rey’s personal antagonist in TFA. But then who’s antagonist he is? Because Snoke is not the friendliest guy in the neighborhood, and he is the antagonist to quite a few characters. These characters are:

  1. Leia - because she blames him for corrupting her son
  2. Hux - because he gets in the way of his imperial ambitions
  3. Kylo - because Snoke is using him, and will dispose of him eventually 

And that’s the second reason why making Rey and Kylo to fight Snoke together is such a bad idea. Maybe TFA did not established Snoke as Rey’s antagonist, but it established him as Kylo’s. If Rey and Kylo will fight Snoke together, it would be way more personal for Kylo. If Rey’s reason to fight Snoke is him (maybe) separating her from her family, Kylo can blame him for (maybe) mentally abusing him for decades, destroying his family, making him kill his father, etc. In these scenario Kylo has more valid, more dramatic reasons, while Rey’s pale in comparison. 

Also consider that while Rey’s conflict was already partially resolved in TFA, Kylo’s conflict with him could only be resolved in this fight. Killing Snoke wouldn’t be just an act of vengeance, it would finally free Kylo from Snoke and help him to reestablish himself as Ben Solo. 

Why is it so mindblowingly bad? Why can’t Ben have his vengeance?

(x)

The problem is that it makes EVERYTHING about Kylo!

Okay, let’s take a closer look at three-act-structure, it consists of the Setup, the Confrontation and the Resolution. The thing about good storytelling is that you can’t pull your climax out of nowhere, in fact, the first act raises a dramatic question that will be answered in the climax. Does it works in our case? Hell yeah! TFA established that Kylo is “being torn apart” and that killing Han did not squished the Light in him. 

The second act which, in our case is VIII, traditionally should be divided in two parts: at first the hero isn’t able to resolve the problem established in the first act, so he first must arrive at a higher sense of awareness of who he is and what he’s capable of, which in turn changes him. In other words, killing Han makes Kylo’s internal conflict even worse, so he eventually realizes that he needs to go back to the Light Side, and may be aided by Rey and/or Luke. 

The third act is the climax, where, as we already discussed, is Kylo facing Snoke and finally answering the dramatic question set up in the TFA, which is “What Side will win withing Kylo?” 

If plot is the cause-and-effect relationship between events in a story, then here we have a pretty sold one: Kiling Han on Snokes order brings Kylo’s inner turmoil to the new level SO he betrays Snoke and turns side SO he kills his former master to avenge Han and reestablish himself as Ben Solo. Not only is it solid storytelling, it’s also a plot full of dramatic turns, where viewers were initially tricked into thinking that Kylo is the villain when he actually always was the hero!

Wait, why again Kylo can’t be the hero, if it’s good storytelling? 

Except that we already have our heroes, and there is no spots left on the Main Trio. Kylo’s redemption arc would be so inevitably huge, it will dominate the plot. But in this story is no place for Finn, one of our leads. Here is barely even place for Rey, who is reduced to Kylo’s co-protagonists. Kylo’s redemption arc effectively made everything about him, and kicked Rey and Finn out of what was supposed to be their story. Actually, it kicked them out of what was established as their story. There is a contradiction here, Finn and Rey can’t be co-leads if Kylo is the lead. We were lied too? 

Anyway, if Kylo’s redemption arc can’t happen without him becoming the main character, and that can’t be true because Finn and Rey are the main characters, does this not mean that the redemption arc can’t happen?

Now, I’m pretty sure that a lot of people would gladly take Kylo over Finn and Rey. But the thing is, Rey is our female lead, and Finn is her black co-lead - that is a bold statement that makes SW relevant outside of it’s fandom. But making everything about a white man? Well, it the opposite of that.

Let’s go back to where it all started.

I kinda majorly side tracked here, but the thing is, not only Snoke wasn’t set up to be Rey’s archenemy, he absolutely can’t become one. If Kylo’s redemption arc happens, he will take Rey’s place as the protagonist and Snoke will be his archenemy. And that is not what TFA promised us. So, where it leaves Kylo? In a place where he either becomes too narratively important and overshadows out protagonists, or where he is narratively important as our protagonists’ archenemy.  

It’s not surprising that people are so invested in Kylo’s redemption arc, but as long as Finn and Rey are our heroes it simply can’t happen. And, really, if Kylo isn’t Rey’s archenemy, who is here for her to fight?

Please be with someone who loves you, who actually truly loves you. Don’t settle for someone who doesn’t respect you, who says one thing but does another. Be with someone you know cares about you and fucking shows that they do, be with someone who looks after you not materialistically but physically and mentally.

Do not stay with someone who puts you down all the time, treats you like you’re below them and tells you what to do. Be with someone who flowers you in compliments, treats you like you’re a queen/king and lets you be a free spirit.

And most importantly if they hurt you, mentally, emotionally or physically over and over again and each time you get the whole “I love you, I’ll never do it again” thing, for the love of god, leave them, throw them in the bin. You are worth so much more than them and you deserve so much better.

You may love someone, but that doesn’t mean they love you in the same way.

They may say they love you, but really what they love is having control over someone who won’t tell them they’re in the wrong.

Don’t let anyone change you, make you weak or scared to do things.

if you’re with someone who constantly manipulates/controls/abuses you then get out of there, you may not think so at the time but trust me you will find someone better, someone who deserves your love and loves you back the same way.

So like..

- Peridot was over-protective of Amethyst during Earthlings. Like seriously. She was so worried about her, more than Steven was. (Didn’t she like risk herself once during the episode? Like she kinda knew Jasper was going to attack but she still spoke anyways)

- Peridot had NO reason to be angry with Jasper. Sure she annoyed her a little. But Jasper never hurt her or anything. But she still was. She was angry with her because she hurt Amethyst, emotionally and physically.