Hello, everyone. Can you imagine that it’s been already a whole year since I’ve started playing this fox shaman who has no chill and is honestly one of the worst vixens you’ll ever see? On this day, August 13th I first posted & created this girl’s blog.
To be honest, I didn’t expect to hang out on Tamamo longer than several weeks but…? I’m so happy I was wrong. This Fox just took over my whole life and soul, I sacrificed myself to write her. But seriously, guys, it wouldn’t have been possible without you all here to support me. I’m grateful to all of you and cannot express how happy I am to see every one of you on my dash, to read your threads and see your portrayals. I mean, how in the freaking world there are 1100+ of you here??? HOW.
Tamamo helped me meet important to my heart people, she helped me overcome some of my insecurities and fears as well. She became a very important muse to me. I remember how scared I was at first to play her because there was a person who was playing her just amazingly. I actually got the inspiration from that one person. And honestly, I’ve met them again in the same fandom and they said that they like my portrayal of Tamamo! You don’t know how it warmed up my heart, and it still does. Plus, all of you, my dears, are saying that you like my outlook on this kitsune, so I can easily say that I’m downright lucky to be here today and still play this Court Lady.
You know, Fate fandom was my ‘home’ for more than a year. I played as Scathach at first (first indie one / ofscathach), then I was playing as Jeanne D’Arc (ofsacredmaiden) for a long time. My beginning was not the best one, I have to say. I was still learning a lot of things, getting into Fate and stuff. But now it’s easier than before. Far easier. And, once again, it’s all thanks to the people who surrounded me. I was always lucky with you all, you know that? I learn English while reading your threads, I learn more about characters when I see you on my dash, I improve my writing when I’m playing with you. You’re doing so much for me and you don’t even know half of it, guys! Just telling ‘thank you’ is not enough!
So, through the year many people came into this fox hell and stayed. You have my biggest respect and love, guys. Seriously, how in the world you stayed here? This place is a bad combination of furriness, bad jokes, ridiculous memes and heartbreaking angst! This is some spicy stuff pffft.
Well, now off to the bias list, right? I won’t be talking a lot anymore because I already did. <3
These are four people who have been dealing with my idiotic ass for more thna a year and became my besties on this website. Girls, I cannot express how grateful I am to you four and how happy I am to talk to you whenever I can. I’m sorry for rarely messaging you but I just want to say that I never forget about you and that you are taking a special place in my heart. I love you, I wish you all the best and I want you to be happy.
These people have been with me through lows and highs, honestly. I cannot express how important they are to me and how much they taught through these months of playing, talking, memeing, destroying each other’s lives, etc. etc. I am not the best talker OOC, which saddens me even though I’m easy-going but damn… Still, you are my sunshines. I’m ready to create temples for you in my room and pray for your health and success, fam. You are really important to me and you are those who I cannot thank enough for sticking with this fox fangirl like me. Most of you know both my good and my bad sides ‘cause you know… We’ve been furendos for some time. Though, I would love to improve and talk to you all more and more to drag you down into the abyss and make your life even worse. Let’s be honest, knowing me, you will either love me more or you will want to throw me into a trashcan like always. I don’t mind either. Lmfao, for these people I always that I’m either gay or straight for them. I’m ready to bring stars down for them and just squeeze the life outta them because of how strong my adoration, affection, and love for these people run.
We met this year and you’re still here, dealing with my shit and awful lines. Thank you. You are my dear friends who I haven’t known for long, but damn you are important, guys. You are so precious and full of life that I envy you a little. You’re talented, amazing, magnificent! You are just kings and queens of your muses, guys! Teach me how to do cool stuff like you do. I cannot stop saying this but… Thank you, thank you, thank you for coming into my life and thank you for staying here. You deserve the world. I would send hugs and kisses to you all if I could. Well, I can *sends kisses and hugs*. There.
These people may or may not follow me, but I appreciate their portrayals and their dedication to their muses. I haven’t talked to you OOC but I want to mention you because of how important you are. They brighten up my dash and I cannot explain how much I love you all for everything you’re doing. I want to say that even though we haven’t talked, I can see how hard you work on improving your own portrayal and ways of exploring your own character. You are someone who I greatly admire from afar; I’m shy when it comes to talking to such amazing people like you, so I just hope that your day is going great and I pray for your well-being, sweets!
I want to say one thing: if I forgot to mention someone, I apologize, I usually do that a lot ahaha. But! That doesn’t mean that you’re less important. I want to say that evry follower of mine has my respect and love! The way you put your soul into writing your muse is fascinating! I learn from each and every one of you. So, I want to hank you for being here. I hope your day will go amazing, dear!
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A/N: Hello cupcakes! I hope you all enjoy this! I’m in the process of finishing up a few other pieces so please stay tuned! Thank you, as always, for your patience!
You froze when you saw her. Little goosebumps even covered you skin as her eyes met yours.
She smiled. You smiled back.
You felt…nothing. Which was better, you supposed, from wanting to fall apart right then and there.
She began walking towards you, slowly. You’d thought about this day for a while, imagining how your first reunion would be. Maybe you’d run into her at the museum you both frequented. Maybe at a grocery store or in a crowded street. Maybe you’d see her with someone new, laughing at her jokes the way she used to laugh at yours.
She still looked beautiful. Her hair moved weightlessly in the breeze and you’d almost forgotten the particular way the sun would hit her face, highlighting her features.
She finally reached you and the faint smell of her perfume wafted towards you.
“Hi.” she said. It had been so long since you heard her voice. It sounded sweet, like a soft song you used to love.
“Hi.” you responded.
A silence fell between you. Not uncomfortably, but it made the space between you seem larger.
“It’s good to see you.” you added. “How have you been?”
“I’ve been good.” she said. “Busy, but good. How are you?”
“I’m okay.” you said. “Nothing much to report…just working.” She smiled.
“You’re probably running that company by now.” she commented, smiling affectionately. You chuckled, remembering how many emotional rants she sat through when you first started your job.
“I’m handling a few major projects now.” you said sheepishly.
“That’s amazing!” she said. “I knew they’d put your talent to good use sooner or later.”
“I, um, I read that you opened a new restaurant.” you offered, not wanting the conversation to end just yet. She smiled proudly.
“I did. It’s kind of a handful, juggling two places, but I love it.” she said. “You’ll have to stop by sometime! I’ve got a new menu and everything.”
“Definitely!” you said.
Another silence; this time a quiet, nostalgic atmosphere enveloped you. There was a time when you truly loved her, when the idea of being without her was like being without air to breathe. You shared a tiny studio that was constantly cluttered with her cookbooks and your portfolios. She’d always play her music too loud for your tastes and she would complain about how you’d leave empty coffee mugs around the place. But you were happy. You were both struggling to find your place in this world.
She turned back and waved at a girl standing outside of a store. You looked over her shoulder, curiosity biting at you. She was pretty. You waited for the pang of jealousy to hit, but it never did. Instead, you felt a warm sense of peace, a happiness for her.
“I’ve got to go.” she said, looking at you with a smile.
“It was really great to see you.” you said. You reached for her first and, when she didn’t object, embraced you.
You often had muddled feeling about what could have been. That maybe…if you’d tried harder to make it work…if you stopped worrying so much about your career and put a little more effort into your personal life…if you’d fought for her…then maybe she’d still be yours.
“Let’s keep in touch, okay?” she said as she pulled away. You nodded and watched as she made her way back.
People, you’d once heard someone say, come into your lives for a reason. Maybe to teach you something about yourself or about life or about love. And when they’re gone, it’s for a reason as well.
You knew that everything had worked out. You were happy. She seemed happy. You were both successful. You were both better versions of yourselves than you were before. You wouldn’t change a thing.