This song is literally Hinata singing it for Komaeda!
“Save You” by Simple Plan:
Take a breath I pull myself together Just another step till I reach the door You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you I wish that I could tell you something To take it all away
Hinata takes a breath to pull himself together. He takes another step to reach the door, leaving behind the comatose body at the end of the day after a long visit. Looking one last time behind, telling himself that Komaeda will never know how it tears him inside to see him like this and wishes he could take away all of his pain.
Sometimes I wish I could save you And there’re so many things that I want you to know I won’t give up till it’s over If it takes you forever I want you to know
Hinata sometimes recalls their times together and wished he could have saved Komaeda sooner. There are still so many things he wanted Komaeda to know. He still has hope that one day he’ll wake up so he won’t give up until it’s over. Even if it takes him forever, he wanted Komaeda to know that…
When I hear your voice Its drowning in a whisper It’s just skin and bones There’s nothing left to take And no matter what I do I can’t make you feel better If only I could find the answer To help me understand
…when Hinata hears his voice in his mind, it’s drowning in a whisper, fading away into nothing, into total void and darkness, where Komaeda now lies in. Komaeda got reduced to skin and bones, his luck and illness sweeping him of everything until there was nothing left to take. And the sad truth is that no matter what Hinata does, he can’t make Komaeda feel better, not now, not then. If you only Hinata can find the answer to help him understand. Maybe if he did, he could have done something before it was too late.
Sometimes I wish I could save you And there’re so many things that I want you to know I wont give up till it’s over If it takes you forever I want you to know
Another visit to his bedside, Hinata’s thoughts take him back to how much he wished he could have saved him. Filled with regret, there are still so many things he wants to ask Komaeda, to talk to him once more. He doesn’t want to give up until it’s over, because even if it’ll take him forever, he wanted Komaeda to know that…
That if you fall, stumble down I’ll pick you up off the ground If you lose faith in you I’ll give you strength to pull through Tell me you won’t give up cause I’ll be waiting if you fall Oh you know I’ll be there for you
If Komaeda falls, stumbles down, he’ll pick him up from the ground. If Komaeda loses faith in himself, he’ll give give him the strength to pull through. So he begs Komaeda to not give up because he’ll be waiting for him, this time he’ll be there for him.
(Ohh, Ohhh…) If only I could find the answer To take it all away
If only Hinata could find the answer, to help Komaeda wake up from his comatose state, to see his smile once again, to take away all of his burdens because…
Sometimes i wish i could save you And there’re so many things that I want you to know I wont give up till it’s over If it takes you forever I want you to know (Oh) I wish I could save you I want you to know (Ohohh) I wish I could save you (oh)
…sometimes he wished he could have saved Komaeda, and there are still so many things left unsaid. Hinata reminds himself daily that he’ll never give up until it’s over, until Komaeda breathes his last. Even if it’ll take him a lifetime, he’ll never forget and will always carry the burden of not being able to be there, for not reaching in time, for not being able to save Komaeda.
“I wish I could have saved you, Komaeda. I wish I could save you now.” Hinata whispered.
Hinata sobbed softly and quietly as he held onto Komaeda’s frail hand. His sleeping face was calm and serene that Hinata had to give a sorrowful, hearty smile through his tears. He wondered if Komaeda was finally at peace in his solemn, blissful sleep.
I’m obsessed w/Merman!KomaedaxHinata! Komaeda, an outcast among his fellow Mermans, seeks the forbidden surface. With luck, he meets a boy by the shore who took a great interest in him. Slowly, Hinata finds himself falling in love.
Hinata finds beauty in him even when Komaeda doesn’t see it himself.
He gives him love, something the other Mermans never gave him.
“So if you’re bisexual, why aren’t you with a girl?”
And it had been going so well. A cascade of ink splotches all over Hajime’s notes when he clenches his fist, snapping his pen clean in half. The other members of his group project are staring, but not at him, their eyes are at the guy who’d asked without any shame and loud enough for the rest of the tiny study room inside the library to hear.
Hajime knows that the question is directed at him. He could just sock the guy in the jaw, never liked him anyways, he’s the kind of person who leeches onto a group for the assignment and all he contributes is his name on the final presentation they’re handing in. The room is silent. Nobody says a word.
The guy snorts and leans closer. “C’mon. You got the choice, after all. Aren’t you making it harder for yourself? Nothing against gays, they’re great and all, but you don’t have to go the hard way. And isn’t your boyfriend gay anyways - “
“It’s not a choice.”
They all watch him when Hajime rises out of his chair. Midnight-blue ink falls from his hands and smears on the floor when he takes a step, another, slowly rounding the table past his group members until he’s in front of the guy.
On the other side of the study room, sitting with some psychology post-grads even though he’s only in his bachelor yet, Tooru looks at him with soft eyes of amber and fire.
“I said,” Hajime looks down at the guy, and speaks, “that this isn’t a choice. You should know better than to say that attraction and love are something we have control over. But if you really want to be that asshole, I’ll tell you. And then you’re going to get your stuff and leave, because the only thing that annoys me more than your disgusting attitude is your inability to remember a single law that we’ve discussed in the sixteen hours we’ve been working on this project and you’ve been sitting there like moss on a rock.”
Someone whistles behind Hajime’s back, sharp and impressed. He ignores it, but a grin slips over his mouth when a group member mumbles “Thank fuck, someone said it, the bloodsucker’s getting wrecked.”
Hajime clears his throat, and fuck it, he allows himself to grin in a way that Tooru likes to tease him about because he looks like something with fangs and claws that hasn’t hunted down a decent prey in a long, long time.
“You could give me the world and everything on it to choose from and I’d still only want him.”
The silence breaks with a shout across the room. “I love you too, but it’s still your turn to cook tonight!”