HOW DID HE EVEN DIE

@gifsourcefed made a little post detailing about how she felt about all the hosts and I thought it would be a good way to show my appreciation as well! 

My story is pretty much like every others, I started way back in 2012, right around the time of the fall, and from then on my life was forever changed. SourceFed has always been my home, some place I could leave for a bit and then come back and things were a little different, like the furniture had changed around and maybe we got some new members, but it was still home, it still had the heart and the love that I always remembered.

Lee Newton, the sweetest, funniest, dinosaur loving woman I’ve ever seen. I connected with her Make-A-Wish story and being sick and having surgeries all the time as a kid with my own past being similar, and from then on she felt like a new mom, one complete with hilarious voices and a bright smile.

Joe Bereta, the dad I wish I had, so athletic and fearless, and Joe knew how to tell a story like nobody else, I always wanted to learn how to tell a story like Joe Bereta, even if he did almost die in half of them.

Elliott Morgan, the dry humored, silly guy who had the tendency to go a little dark, Elliott was filled with endless talent and entertainment, there truly was nobody like Elliott Morgan, and never will be. 

Steve Zaragoza, this silly, joyous, funny, fantastic man. I love Stee, even when I disagree with him, because Steve is so magical, so special in the way he exudes happiness. Zabagoobler has always been the kind of guy I wanted to be friends with.

Trisha Hershberger, this small, dramatic, tech loving woman. I love Trisha Hershberger. Trisha reminded me of myself, in drama and wanting to be an actress, and so very tiny and optimistic and loved games and technology. Trisha is the sweetest little lady, and I know she’s going to be a fantastic mother.

Meg Turney, this red haired force of nature. Meg was hot and quick and full of life, so casually cool and fun it almost hurt. Meg seemed so effortless in everything, like that being that amazing was just easy. She made being a nerd girl in a t-shirt be hot.

Ross Everett, although far from a favorite of mine personally, always added a little spice. I actually did come to miss him when brought up the last few days, missing the dynamic he had, and I think that’s how Ross shined: he was good with people, good with bouncing off of them, good at creating a fun energy and a good time. I could only hope to have that much energy as Ross.

And then came our first round of newbies. Admittedly, these are probably my favorite hosts, ones I connected with the most.

William Haynes, the unpredictable, creative, wild Naruto Shippuden loving boy. I had a crush on Will when he first popped up on Anime Club. Will was awkward, but well spoken and characteristic, and funny? Will was so funny. And he changed, right before our own eyes, Will went from this awkward boy, to this amazing, cool, funny man. Will showed me that even in the void, you can always find the light at the of the Tunnel (Vision). Speaking of Anime Club…

Reina Scully, this small, beautiful Asian woman. God do I love Reina Scully. Reina was small, just like me, and loved anime, and was actually pretty disgusting and lewd, in the best of ways, things that I was afraid of showing, but Reina brought me out of my shell. Reina is by far my favorite host, coming into her own from sitting quietly at TableTalks to yelling to my favorite soft chicken boy. Never did I have to think about liking Reina, because she was so likeable right from the moment she popped up. Somebody else that brought me out of my shell?

Sam Bashor, meek and sweet in the beginning, now a still sweet, but amazing man who is so full of ideas and passion that he seems like he’s going to burst. Sam was also somebody I had a crush on, the old Doctor Who outfits were so charming, and the privilege of seeing Sam (and Will) grow from boys my age to these incredibly talented men who are living their dreams and their passions, has always given me hope and something to strive for, that you can change but still be yourself at heart, especially if deep down you’re actually just the Flash.

Matthew Lieberman, this boy! God I love Matt. It was so popular to dislike Matt, but I loved him. I love the crazy stories Matt always brought to the table, and he always knew how to tell them, the details and specifics, and in story reactions almost unbelievable and amazing. And cooking! The man can cook. Amazingly so. I’m so upset we never got to see more of Matt’s skills, and that SourceFeed is never going to happen now. And on top of that, an actor and a writer? Matt is so talented, and I especially loved him on Nuclear Family.

Around late 2014 early 2015 I fell off SF, but not for long. I came back home, just like always, and there were even more new hosts. 

Bree Essrig, this feminist fireball, Bree is everything I wish I could be. Talented, outspoken, funny, beautiful. Bree is the complete package, topped with hair just as fiery as she is. Bree’s skills were brought to the forefront on Nuclear Family, and not getting to see those anymore makes me so sad. God damn do I love Bree Essrig. Know who else I love?

Maude Garrett. Maude. Fucking. Garrett. When Maude Garrett enters a video, enters a single frame, this is Maude’s show now. Maude brings the light to the room, draws all the attention in with that tall blonde Australianness that only she could exude, somehow contained in a Star Wars dress. Maude is so ridiculously funny, you might as well just sit back and let her go at it. The dynamic with Sam is so amazing, so perfect, lightning in a bottle that could never be recreated. I can’t wait for the Smaudecast.

Steven Suptic. This soft chicken boy. This boy grew on me. I watched SPF for Reina, she’d always been my favorite, and now she did games? Full time? Hell fucking yeah I was in. But then this boy came in. This weird white boy with greasy hair who said all the wrong things. I don’t know how long I wouldn’t watch a video that didn’t feature somebody else that involved Suptic. But somewhere along that way, that boy got a haircut, and I’m pretty sure some new glasses, and eventually found his voice and his stride, and GOD do I love Steven Suptic. Suppy is a grower, somebody that’s so bombastic you’re off-put by him. But then you watch more, and you realize that boy that jokes around all the time? Is sentimental, and kinda sweet, even if he still says the wrong things sometimes, but now it’s a little bit endearing, especially if his dick is just, y’know. Out.

I was pretty consistent with keeping up from now until the end, and luckily, I’d already been keeping up with a few of the new hosts.

Ava Gordy, a sweet, funny, short haired lady with legs more bendable than I thought possible. Ava’s been somebody I knew since 2012 as well, I saw a video she did for Taylor’s Swift’s “RED” album reviewing it, and had been watching “HALT, I am Ava.” ever since. Seeing Ava here was a surprise, a good one, Ava’s talents finally having the coolest of platforms I could think of to be shown off. Ava is funny, her timing and storytelling impeccable. Ava Gordy is a masterpiece.

Mike Falzone, this sweet, funny man was also somebody I knew, having been around the YouTube block, knowing of Tonjes and Gunnarolla. Mike was like Steve, hilariously funny, always doing something to get a laugh, and this man is so genuine it seems almost impossible. Mike is so sweet, so good to this world, and so funny on top of it all. The world does not deserve the Calzone, but we get to enjoy him anyways.

Candace Carrizales. Oh Candy. Candace is someone that took the most to grow on me. Her humor is so different from the others, her demeanor so unexpected from this office that’s known to be out of this world loud and exuberant. Not Candy. Candy’s just hear to be here, and have a good time, and to give a laugh. I wish I could’ve appreciated Candace sooner, seeing her grown more comfortable and more into her voice and comedy has been amazing, and I wanted nothing but to see her more, considering she’s made me laugh so much in the last few months than I ever expected.

Yessica Hernandez-Cruz, God damn do I love this lady. Yessica and Will were dynamite, bouncing off each other, feeling like the PBL duo to SFN’s Maude and Sam, it was impossible to not smile seeing these two do magic together. Yessica on her own, is even more magical, proud of who she is and unapologetic, and holy shit can Yessica make me laugh. I’m going to miss Yessica, but I have hope for the PBL trio, considering John’s promises. Speaking of…

John Ross, I love this man. John is somebody I want to hang out with, to teach me all that he knows about food and camera work and everything he’s familiar with. John has such an aura about him, so friendly and positive, John is the calming member of this amazing trio, just wanting to spend time with his friends and have a good time and make amazing content. John Ross is a gift.

Whitney Moore, another gift, was the perfect person for Nerd. Whitney was a slightly familiar face, and she felt just so right to be there. Whitney brought a cool meal edge to the channel, her slightly darker tones of interest so contrasted with her bright and bubbly personality. I always smiled when Whit was on screen, so funny and cool, ready to take on the world. 

Filup Molina, the biggest surprise for me, was just on Nerd one day. Just hanging out. And I’m glad that he did, that hat wearing, funny boy. Filup’s always been slightly out of place for me, in the best way, his references falling on deaf ears because they didn’t make sense to others, jokes that the viewer caught going unnoticed by others, I loved him. Filup was a breath of fresh air for the channel, a sparkling gem that I feel not many noticed.

Aside from the hosts, I wanted to note a few BTS staff:

Rickey Mizuno, handsome, talented Rickey boy, beautiful behind the camera and in front of it. This man exudes charisma, and we didn’t get to see him nearly enough. Dani Rosenberg, the HBIC, funny and badass, Dani was one of my favorites to see. She really made SF what it was, and I want to see her do more awesome shit. Sophia Lorena, that curly haired beauty, dealing with Will’s shit every day was truly a lot for her to deal with, and I think for that alone we should be praising her. Also, have you seen her blog? Sophia’s amazing. Starline Hodge, the beautiful, talented graphic designer, Star’s vlogs and art have never not caused me to smile. Star was always subtle in things, but I always wanted more of her. And Audrey Davy, hearing Reina scream her name in SPF videos was always hilarious, and seeing her in Phil’s vlogs and in the Drunk Co-Workers series confirmed that Audrey is a dime a dozen, hardworking and sweet, Audrey was one of my favorites always.

To all of those in this list, and on staff, thank you for these 5 years. They were wonderful, and funny, and God, I will never forget them or the people that made them. And I will never forget the amazing community that thrived from it. I love every single one of you. 

See you, you hot little daddy’s.

Me on the outside: I’m fine

Me on the inside: How do Shiro and Keith know each other? Was Keith part of a foster family? Was Shiro his foster brother, or just a neighbourhood friend? Did Keith’s discipline issues go out of control after Shiro supposedly died, resulting in his expulsion from the Garrison? Does Keith still have a foster family, if he even had one in the first place? Where did Keith live before the Garrison? What about Shiro’s family? Where are they? Are they worried about him? Did Shiro’s return to earth get covered up? Who exactly is Keith’s father? How did he die? Is he even dead? We saw him in the freaky dreamscape, but what else is there to him? What about Keith’s Galra parent? Are there female Galra? Is his Galra relative a grandparent? An ancestor? It’s most likely a member of the Blade of Marmora, since Keith’s father held the the knife in the dream. Did the Galra ever come to Earth? How did Keith’s parents (or ancestors) meet? Speaking of families, how is Pidge’s mom holding up? Is her father still in the worker camps or wherever he was when Shiro heard of him last? Let’s also acknowledge for a moment that the last time Shiro and Matt saw each other was when Shiro injured Matt and was dragged into the gladiator arena. Does Matt have doubts that Shiro is alive? It’s not unreasonable to think that Shiro is dead, since Matt did see him getting dragged toward what everyone thought was certain doom. Or, does Matt know that Shiro escaped? Matt was rescued by rebels, what sort of intel do they have? Has Matt been searching for Shiro and his father? What sort of rebel alliance took Matt? What about that mysterious figure in the Weblum? Was that Matt? Or one of the rebels? Or Lotor? Or Keith’s Galra parent? What is Hunk’s family like? Does he have siblings? Does Lance have siblings, or was that large family photo in the ‘head-hole’ scene comprised of cousins, aunts, and other extended family? In what battle did Shiro lose his arm? Was it the same time as his scar? Did he even lose his arm, or did the druids just want to ‘experiment’? Did they see him as a useful weapon because of his gladiator skills and tried to ‘upgrade’ him? Are the rest of the druids (besides Haggar) Altean? If not, who are they? What role does Prince Lotor play in all this? What kind of magical powers does Allura possess? Does Keith take over as Black Paladin after Shiro disappears? Is Lance the new Red Paladin? Does Allura fill in as a paladin? Do they gain an ally that fills a paladin spot? Finally, WHERE THE  H E C K  IS SHIRO?

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Blood On My Hands (Part 3)

A/n: I am so so so sorry for the long wait! And I’m sorry it’s so short. Please for give me! Also I had a URL change. My pervious one was rapmontrashqueen so I’m sorry if anyone gets confused. As usual, let me know what you guys think and enjoy!! ~Cel

Love is a dangerous thing. Especially when you know the things he knows.

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Word Count: 2159

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  • what she means: How did Neah know Past!Allen? Who even was Past!Allen and what kind of connection did he have to Neah and possibly Mana? Why does Past!Allen have a striking resemblance to Cross Marian? How did Allen even de-age? Did he die and become reincarnated into a different body like the Noah? Where did Cross' body go? Is he really dead or is he simply hiding all traces of his presence using the Grave of Maria, biding his time until he recovers and can strike back and/or help Neah/Allen? Is there any way for Allen to not disappear while still taking the Noah gene, or is it an all or nothing type of deal? Why was Road protecting Mana from Neah in that flashback, and what did Mana do that was so bad as to earn the Earl's seemingly eternal scorn? Speaking of the Earl, why does his human form look like Mana? Is Allen going to be okay? Are Lavi and Bookman okay? Will Tim recover? Honestly I'm really worried about everyone and I want the 219th Night to answer every question I have.
Someone Was Completely Missing In LOK

All right kids, grab some food, some snacks, use the bathroom if need be, because this is gonna be a long ass rant.

Legend of Korra- while WONDERFUL and a truly incredible show, it only mentioned and answered a few questions about Aang, Toph, Katara, Sokka, and Zuko. We learned that Aang and Katara got married and had kids. Zuko was a great firelord and had a daughter and a grandson.Toph had two daughters ( though the baby daddies are not known) and has a few grandkids. Sokka became part of the council . Okay, that’s cool. BUT SUKI WAS IGNORED COMPLETELY. ZUKO’S WIFE IS UNKNOWN. ( we assume it’s Mai) AZULA IS NOT MENTIONED ONCE.

AND I AM FURIOUS OVER THIS.

Remember Suki? The Kyoshi Warrior? The girl who SINGLE-FUCKING-HANDEDLY trained other girls on her island to be warriors, defending their home from the Fire Nation? THE GIRL WHO BRAVELY FOUGHT TRAINED FIRE NATION TROOPS, JOINED THE AVATAR AND TRAVELED A WAR TORN DANGEROUS WORLD, WHO FOUGHT ON TOP OF FUCKING AIRSHIPS,HELD HER OWN IN PRISON, AND HELPED SAVE THE WORLD?

I remember her! APPARENTLY BRYKE DOESN’T.
Suki was so damn important to me, and she is totally left out .
AZULA WAS A MAIN FUCKING CHARACTER, A POWERFUL ENEMY, DANGEROUS AND BEAUTIFUL AND BADASS.

DID SHE HAVE KIDS? Did she eventually recover from insanity? DO SHE AND ZUKO HAVE AWKWARD REUNIONS EVERY YEAR WITH THEIR KIDS?

I just…. She was SUCH a great character and she’s left out like she didn’t matter?

And they don’t even tell us how Sokka died, if he did die.
SOKKA, SWORDSMAN, BOOMERRANG MASTER, IDEA GUY.

I’m just really mad.

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A/N: for day four of soma week 2014, prompt “loyalty.”

At first, the glowing irritated him, but when he realized no one else could see it, he got over it. In fact, he began to rely on his newfound luminescence to guide him in the dark (since night vision didn’t come with being dead, unfortunately). Sometimes, when he had nothing better to do, he would lie on his back at the bottom of rivers and streams and swimming pools at night and admire the way the water shimmered in his pale light. 

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