I think it was exactly the way Cas said it this season - I love you as my adopted FAMILY. Even if Dean HAD said “I love you” instead of “I need you,” he would still have said it in the same breath as “We’re family.” And what upsets me most about all this is that THIS episode was, in CANON, about the tragic end of the romance between Cas and MEG, yet to hear hellers talk about it, Meg wasn’t even IN it.
Exactly, THEY just want to talk about the crypt scene, but Megstiel was blossoming all over the place. (x)(x)
I may have issues with Castiel and Meg2, but I will defend the canon of their love and to this day I want to know IF Castiel is aware that Meg2 was killed by Crowley.
He might have not said it out loud, but I believe that, when Sammy started these trials, Dean had faith in Castiel. Faith in Sammy receiving some healing. You can actually pinpoint the exact second when that faith is shot to shit. He’s so damn scared of losing his little brother. Again.
“I laughed, I cried, I threw up in my mouth a little…” - say what you want about Meg. Of course she has done incredibly horrible horrible things, but this moment here is one of my favourite Meg moments, because I feel for the first time she is completely real. Not wearing any mask, but showing her true self. And also showing that she may be a demon, but that it doesn’t need a cure to remind a demon of its humanity. I truly think this is is one of the strongest scenes of Meg. And the small but important word about “her unicorn” - something commonly associated with something pure and innocent (therefore also the unicorn in S11 in the episode “Just My Imagination”) really kind of drives that home. Because while Castiel of course is far from a saint and also did horrible messy things, I suppose in comparison to something like Meg, for her Castiel, a fallen angel of the lord would have to count as one of the purest and most innocent beings she ever met and on top also was taken care of. I suppose in a way and even though of course Meg did what she did in S7 to save her own hide, she looked after Cas and Castiel when tending to her wounds earlier in the episode repays the favour.
“I don’t know what is left other than cross-dressing Cas. He’s been crazy, he’s been megalomaniacal, he’s been contrite, he’s been self-loathing, he’s been whimsical, he’s been human, he’s been a leviathan.” ~Misha Collins
I know the Meg and Cas scenes aren’t very well liked within the fandom, but I personally loved their interactions in this episode. I have always enjoyed Meg as a character. From her baddest evil days to this moment just hours before her death, where she identifies as leaning more towards “being good” rather than bad. And of course in the end, her horrible actions aren’t excused, but she died to save the Winchesters, so I suppose you could say Meg had her redemption arc (wrote more in depth about her here). And this small dialogue here that paves so much in terms of big overarching themes for S8 about choices and how feeling makes things more complicated, how living in a world that’s not just black and white makes things more complex and difficult also in terms of your own identity. Yes, this conversation connects directly with Dean’s and Benny’s experience of purgatory, which felt “pure” and had a simplicity to it: Kill or be killed. Easy as that.