A fun short chapter :-) I will provide a warning at the beginning of Chapter 44, but there will be sex and fluff to be prepared. My sister and I got Voltron Season 4 out of our system (SO MANY EMOTIONS), so I’m finally back in the writing groove.
Have some sad Lotor because I got feels from Season 4 Thank you, everyone, for being so patient. I’ll be posting the requests soon, I just need to finish up my Keith cosplay for my photoshoot. Very sorry!
Firstly, just so you know where I’m coming from, I’m a
writer of fantasy/crime/thriller/romance fiction. World building a subtle
development of characters is part of what I do.
I watch crime dramas – I’m horrible to watch them with
because I ALWAYS work them out – because I PAY ATTENTION to what is on screen,
both textually and sub-textually. I also believe that TV is an expensive media
and what screen time there is is short. So if something has made it to screen,
no matter how small, it is of significance. Writers, directors, actors, editors
all felt this was MEANT to be seen. I also believe that just because two characters
have great chemistry doesn’t mean they have to be a canon couple. (Morgan and
Garica from Criminal Minds is one of the best one screen platonic friendships
on screen, I’m glad the writers were brave enough to keep them that way and not
push them into a relationship.)
I’m a whoivan so I am no stranger to fandom and there is no
way you can be in ANY fandom and not know of Destiel.
Now, until last year I had not seen Supernatural. It was one
on my watch list but never got around to it. So I decided to start with series
one DVD and see how I got on. And ok, some of series one was a bit shakey, some
of the stories not great… but the premise, the backbone of Sam and Dean, their relationship
– THAT was great from the start and kept me watching. It still keeps me
As I got to season 4, I wondered if everything I’d heard
about Destiel was real. It wasn’t why I was watching, it was the brother’s
journey that kept me going. Shippers are passionate, GIFS can be created to emphasize
a point, but when those GIFS are out of context of the episode – did they still
stand up as “Destiel”? So I went into season 4 open minded. (PS I’ve also had
no issue accepting that Dean is a repressed bisexual – hints have been made all
along, character building)
Oh.Dear. Lord. It’s real.
But let me take a step back. When watching S4 most of the
time I was watching Cas on screen, his intensity with Dean appears to be him
trying to work out the man he saved. His orders were to pull him out of hell,
put him back together again. He did that, and in doing so he knew EVERYTHING
about Dean until that point. He returned him to Earth the same bright souled,
flawed human that he was, along with all his loves, fears, hopes and dreams.
Everything he was, and everything he hid. His self loathing. Castiel KNEW
everything about Dean.
But knowing someone and understanding them are different
things. What I see in most of S4 is Cas trying to understand Dean. Because the man
he put back together is not the man he sees and knows is really there. (He sees
performing Dean before the other important people in his life do.)
Dean for his part mostly looks like his every hidden fantasy
walked into the barn that day. And because it’s not a door he’s even prepared
to peek through, it’s all unsubtle looks at Cas, his body language screams
attraction when his actions say otherwise. (And “The Rapture” was fantastic as
showing that he is drawn to CAS not JIMMY.)
S5 was seemed to build more on above, but if their plan was
to end at S5 then you could say that they are brothers-in-arms. Castiel the
angel that can’t quite figure out the human he saved and Dean the human who
never felt worthy of this new friendship/crush, which also left him bemused.
S6, Dean with Lisa. Well this was where I was wondering if
Destiel would be ticked to the curb. But no. Dean needed to experience what he
thought he had wanted. What he believed his parents had before that November
night. He tells Lisa in S5 that when he
pictured himself happy, if was with her – but the reality wasn’t what he
wanted. He cared about them, loved them. But when he walked away from them
after Cas took their memories, he wasn’t broken.
Cas in this season is clearly falling for Dean. He goes from
intrigue and mild jealousy (Anna) in S4/5 to full on heart eyes by the end (The
Man Who Would Be King) is just epic.
S7 – despite the reduced role of Cas, it was great for
setting up grieving Dean for later seasons. When Cas is lost to the Leviathans,
Dean is equal parts upset and angry for Cas’ actions. But in the end he still
carried that trenchcoat around for months, in various cars. But he did the same
with Bobby and the flask, and there is no ambiguity as to his feelings towards
Bobby. For me he grieved the loss of family in both cases and in similar ways –
that was until they both return. Dean’s reactions are different to the return
of Bobby and Cas. Subtly different, but different never-the-less. (Then you
compare the loss of Cas and Bobby in this series to S13? There is NO
comparison. He hasn’t lost a friend/crush or father figure, he’s lost the
absolute love of his life).
And Cas/Meg? Well there is a great relationship. Two great
actors and chemistry, with an obvious set up for a possible “impossible romance”
(which could have been enthralling in its own right if Destiel wasn’t pushed in
my face 😉 ) but their chemistry worked so much better
in the platonic sense.
I’m only half way through S8, Cas is out of purgatory and
this is for me when Destiel the ‘romance’ is going canon. Benny’s reaction
alone when Dean and Cas reunite is telling. You can see his brain going ‘friend
For the most part, what I’ve seen is subtle acting by all
parties, a slow progression from strangers to comrades, to friends and now
friends who are clearly falling for each other - it could have stayed platonic
with some odd but explainable behavior between Cas and Dean. It is all there,
on screen if you look. Now, I may be a few seasons behind but I know what is
happening currently and I’m highly encouraged they are showing a deeply
complex, touching and enduring love story where the characters have gone on an epic
journey to find that love. The genders of those characters means fuck all.
I know for many of you what I’m saying is old news. But I
wanted you to know that someone who has only recently started watching Supernatural
and went in with an open mind, I can clearly see what is in front of me.The show made me do it. I ship Destiel. They are one of the greatest OTP’s of all time. It isn’t imagined. It isn’t exaggerated by GIFS.
For those of you who have studied this series into the
minutest of details (and not just for Destiel) and those of us who are
observant and see these small things as we have watched – we are being
rewarded. For those who choose not to see, or have their own petty reasons for not
wanting see such a powerful love story,
well they are the ones losing out on something spectacular.
Wow, this ended up being longer than expected (a theme in my
writing, haha!) and it didn’t go into any real detail!
Keep on meta writing and being awesome in this fandom - your blogs make me smile.
He took us in, He fed us and you-Aye, he took us in. He’s a good man and his daughter makes a nice stew. And they’ll both be dead come winter.You don’t know that. I do know it. He’s weak. He can’t protect himself. They’ll both be dead come winter. Dead men don’t need silver. •
She awoke all at once, every nerve atingle. For a moment she did not remember where she was. She had dreamt that she was little, still sharing a bedchamber with her sister Arya. But it was her maid she heard tossing in her sleep, not her sister, and this was not Winterfell, but the Eyrie. And I am Alayne Stone, a bastard girl. The room was cold and black, though she was warm beneath the blankets. Dawn had not yet come. Sometimes she dreamed of Ser Ilyn Payne, and woke with her heart thumping, but this dream had not been like that. Home, it was a dream of home. The Eyrie was no home.