GOD HELP ME IM SCARED

Okay guys this is really important like this isnt another DMMd rant like this is serious, okay?

This was just shared on my facebook newsfeed and I’m more than a little terrified.

Basically, its a bill that says in the state of Tennessee (heehaw thats my state btw) religious freedom can go so far as to allow bullying of LGBT+ students. It also will force students to partake in different religions despite their own beliefs. No, not ‘accept and understand’ different religiouns - I said partake. As in I, an agnostic, will be forced DURING SCHOOL HOURS, to pray to God.

 “Conversely, if a student of a minority religious faith (e.g., a Buddhist, a Wiccan, etc.) or a non-believer were to obtain a ‘position of honor,’ as defined under this bill, that student would be permitted to subject all classmates to prayer and proselytizing specific to his or her faith tradition in connection with school events. In both cases, parents would have no recourse to ensure that their children were not coerced into such religious exercise.”

Keep in mind, popular religions are not stated that they need to obtain a ‘position of honor.’

It went on to state that this means ‘God’ can actually become the answer to anything. This was supposed to be geared towards, putting your religion into your homework, artwork, and classwork (as if thats something thats already outlawed…oh wait, it is, just none of the schools here in TN actually follow it.) So basically, if youre a Chirstian, here’s your get out of jail free card for basically anything you’ve ever wanted to do at school ever! You can LEGALLY beat me up and torture me in the school bathroom and when questioned just say “It’s a sinner!!!” and poof - youre a perfect angel again, hurry on to third period!!!

In case you’re wondering, since this is all about ~*~RELIGIOUS FREEDOM~*~ that means if, say, a Buddist did the same thing and tried to pull the same response, the teachers can always turn around and say “But I’m a Christian and that’s wrong so you still can’t do that.” WOW, AIN’T THAT COOL? So it’s more-so just religious freedom to CHRISTIANS and an extremely high possibility of a brand new hospital bill for any Muslims, Buddists, Wiccans, athiests/agnostics, other non-Christian religions, and LGBT+ students as well!

But hey, good ol’ Bill Hasslam won’t ACTUALLY let that pass, right?

Too bad the senate already passed it 32-0 and the house at 90-2 a few days ago.

I did some more digging, read more here, here, here, and here.

My petition is here.

Please sign, signal boost, and help, this bill could, AND WILL, make school a terrifyingly dangerous and uncomfortable place for many, many students throughout this state!

guess who’s ready to see Cas’s reaction to finding out Dean is a demon now?

guess who’s ready to listen to him chuckle weakly, “that’s not very funny, Sam.”

guess who’s ready to cry their eyes out when they see the heartbroken look on their face as he realizes it’s true

guess who’s ready to see the look of defeat in his eyes when he realizes the man he loves is no longer himself

NOT ME. IM NOT READY FOR THIS. I WILL NEVER BE FUCKIN READY

I may have accidentally started calling him mon cheri…

You know what? I am never ever letting myself get stepped on again. I am never letting myself get stuck in an abusive and manipulative relationship again. I am never letting myself get used again. 

Because I’m great and I deserve nothing less. I’m done with all the bullshit I’ve had to deal with in life. I’m done with it. I am living this life for me and me alone. No one is above me and I will never act like anyone else is the center of the universe. 

I’m not letting anything like that ever happen again. I’m going to be happy and I’m going to be happy for me. Genuinely happy. 

x

tired

im so tired. i havent slept properly in two weeks and i keep on getting the same nightmare over and over again. i can only sleep for about 3 hours before im woken up and im too scared to take the sleeping pills. im pretty sure i failed the precalc, chemistry, and the french test, and the science fair is on the 21st. my parents yelled at me today and told me that i cant do anything and that im stupid. i’ve only eaten a bowl of ice cream today and i need more food. THE SCIENCE FAIR IS ON TH E 21ST AND IM SO TERRIFIED AND I DONT WANNA DO IT ANYMORE GOD HELP ME SAVE ME OH MY GOD IM SO SCARED I DONT WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE and i have too much work to do. i have an AP bio, and chem quiz tomorrow and i have to redo my notes on the AP physics (1) thingy. i have so much to do and so little time and im so tired and cold and i just want a hug. :/

I deactivated my account on Twitter and Facebook. I cant believe This is happening. If only I knew this would happen I shouldve not done it. Im regretting and I really dont know what to do. I dont have the guts to go out anymore and to fight for myself. I know I was wrong. Im hopeless. Im scared. God please help me. I just want to have a peace of mind its been years..