From one extreme to the next: I’ve been paper thin at 103lbs thinking I could get my “dream body” with a dangerously low amount of cals/nutrients, an hour of cardio and an ab circuit every day. I hated myself 24/7. I could never be skinny enough, do enough cardio and would beat myself up by eating just 1cal over my dangerous deficit. I’ve been 130lbs with little exercise and unhealthy food/drink habits because I would give up. No matter what I did to try to be “healthy” and exercise, it never gave me results so I just stopped until I would decide to go through the cycle of under eating then gaining weight all over again. Eventually, I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, a disease that causes your body to immediately reject food so no calories or nutrients can be absorbed. I was having “flare ups” every couple of months which would cause me to drop weight immensely until my flare ups calmed down then I would gain weight all over again. It took me a couple of years to get to the point of balancing my food/drink choices and maintaining a healthy weight. This came from finally taking control of what I was putting in my body, tracking my calories/macros to ensure I was eating enough to be healthy and learning how specific workouts affected my results. I have slowly healed my metabolic damage, have less flare ups due to healthier habits and changed my negative body image views and am now 117lbs full of muscle and eating 2,000+ healthy calories daily to fuel my body. I do cardio no more than 30min, 1-2x per week and lift weights 4-5x. I truly wish I had people in my life to educate me on health and fitness rather than Cosmo or Pinterest.. I would have gotten to where I am now so much sooner. Educate yourself to learn what the definition of “healthy” really is because it is not the number on the scale or how you look in your favorite top. By treating your body right you’ll have more energy, feel better and be less likely to get discouraged.

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My yummy breakfast this morning! Finally made a trip to whole foods and trader joe’s to pick up some smoothie bowl essentials I ran out of.
-Frozen bananas, acai, peaches, pineapple, mixed berries, chocolate protein powder, peanut butter, and almond milk + topped with strawberries, coconut flakes, chia seeds and cacao nibs.
-I also added some grape nuts cereal on tip for a lil crunch and it was soooo good.
I know it may seem like an odd combination of ingredient but I promise it is so delicious and creamy and good for the soul! 🍌🌸😋