The hallmark result of emotional abuse is confused and fractured communication. The victim is being fed many different, conflicting messages- positive/grandiose messages are mixed with erratic reactions to victim’s appropriate responses and it becomes genuinely confusing. Verbal Abuse makes you feel like you cannot speak at all- Emotional Abuse makes you feel like you didn’t communicate correctly enough, and that if you could just talk it out, more clearly perhaps…some resolution could be found. It is the victim’s job to FIX the situation.
Right after the episode where they tried to “empower“ Fluttershy only to shame her afterwards for being too empowered. As you see, everything is OK for Pinkie now. This is what children are fed: you can be a doormat if your friends expect you to be so.
So one of my “best friends”. I can’t stand her. All she does is copy me and everything I do. My style, everything I’ve worked for, she just throws it in my face that she can do the exact same thing. She doesn’t even care about it the same way I do. She doesn’t realize this is a way of life for me, not a way to be popular. I’m not even popular at all, so why try to like the same things as me and expect attention from other people for it?!?!? WTF. Please, just be yourself. Your own freaking self. Stop taking everything that is important to me. asdfghjkl;
Weather is a bit cooler today. We had light rain overnite. Extremely light. Maybe rain on monday.
Yesterday was my Swedish group. We seem to get fewer all the time. Only 11 there. How much longer can we go on? Used to have 30 every week. All the ones who enjoyed have either died or gotten too sick to come. And no one younger can be bothered. They say good things about us but truly do not care or several of them would show up once in a while. Ha.
I met Naomi, Betty, Keo, and Linda in Assaria for lunch. Several local women cook the noon meals and it is great food. Great farm cooking!! Yesterday they had chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes, gravy, green beans, and pie. I had coconut pie. Mmmm.
Today I worked at the Red Barn in Lindsborg. Quiet day. Several people were in but none for tours. And Mary came in to have me help with a computer problem. Well, really a software problem. No problem. An easy fix. Nice to see her. We had time for a little chat also.
On the way home I drove past some neighbours farm who raise goats. They have many kids now. Sooo cute. I opened my window to take some photos and they were sure talking to me. So fun to hear!!
Tonite it was steak nite in Marquette at Rusty’s. The. Best. Steak. Ever. None of Willie’s friends were there so it was a quiet evening meal. But sooo gooood.