I’m watching an old episode of a french tv show, “L’instit” (the teacher), and it feels… super relatable. It’s the story of a young girl, Aurélie, who has troubles to fit in her school and to have an “acceptable” behavior. She was fired from a lot of schools and basically, most of the adults around her are treating her like shit.
She is canonically hyperactive, but she might also be autistic. She has a special interest in animals in general (and probably in words too, since she’s using a very advanced vocabulary for her age).
While we’re quite different, she’s experiencing a lot of situations that I used to be familiar with. Her classmates are bullying her and she tries her best to be liked by them. She’s even ready to obey to her classmates, even when they’re humiliating her.
She has a terrible opinion of herself and she dreams of “vanishing and being reborn”, to be a “good girl” and to be liked by her parents and everyone else. She knows that she has difficulties, but she can’t help it and she tries to explain it, but until the end of episode, no one really gets it.
The way she’s trying, so hard… Her deep consciousness about her own difference… and the others’ reaction… I’m brought back to my own childhood and it’s painful, but, at the same time, it feels nice. I feel like I’m on screen and it’s a very rare feeling.
This episode was released in the early 2000s and it’s impressive how accurate it is. I’m just a bit sad that, except for the main character and her father, Aurélie didn’t have any allies or at least some kind of friend. But, at the same time, I didn’t have any friends when I was her age…Only classmates or people who were exploiting me…
Aurélie is a cute autistic/hyperactive girl and I hope we’ll get more characters like her, especially in french movies/tv shows, where autistic characters, GOOD autistic characters, are especially lacking.
[picture of Aurélie and her father. She’s a white blond girl with her hair unkempt. She’s wearing a denim jumpsuit and she has put her arms in dirty boots.]
Nota Bene : I’m impressed by the fact that they mentioned how France is totally ignorant about neurological disorders, in 2000. And now… It’s not really better, unfortunately.