Feels good to be back

anonymous asked:

Could you write about Neil just looking at Andrew and his eyes soften and is just really gay ? I love your writing ❤️❤️

Neil pauses by the door. It’s rare that he can walk into the apartment without Andrew being alerted by simply the sound of the key in the lock, but some nights, now, he sleeps more heavily than he used to. That’s good, Neil thinks. He feels safe.

Andrew lies with his back to the wall, blankets bunched around his waist, and arms placed so casually around the pillow that it doesn’t quite look like he’s hugging the blanket.  It’s a habit left over from when knives were kept under Andrew’s pillow, Neil knows, but the arm placement is now pure comfort. With his blonde hair out of place, falling over his forehead and the pillow, Andrew almost looks soft. He never looks this unguarded awake.

Neil drops his bag to the floor with a light thud, and Andrew stirs. Neil’s shirt follows, then his jeans, and by the time he’s lifting up the covers to slide into Andrew’s bed, hazel eyes are watching his every moment, alert. “Good morning,” Neil mutters, acknowledging the sunlight that’s streaming through the slightly open curtains.

“Too early,” Andrew responds. It’s not even 5am - Neil’s flight was a later one, and he didn’t manage to get on it until midnight, from an away game. He hasn’t managed to sleep yet. He nods in response.

Andrew traces a finger in an abstract shape on Neil’s shoulder; a ball caught him there earlier, and a bruise must be starting to form. Neil lets out a breath he hadn’t realised he was holding and closes his eyes. He lets himself be lulled to sleep by Andrew’s breath and the heat of his body, mere inches away, finally, finally.

listen… that’s cute and all, but you couldn’t pay me to believe that allen’s scared of bugs
like, i mean, come on, mr. pacifist who’s lived on the streets all his life? he probably thinks bugs are nice and harmless and doesn’t understand why they freak people out so much. allen’s the kinda asshole to see a bug and pick it up and bring it over to u clueless like “isn’t he adorable? why are you screaming?” like he ain’t gonna kill a bug, he’s gonna go put it outside like “be free, my child” and come back in feeling good abt himself
…he may have something against butterflies tho. hard to say :P

When Sam and Tim have their sleepover at his house, Tim wanted to find a way to make Sam feel happy about her hair and herself. He walks around a store and suddenly find a glow in the dark moon and tiny stars. At night Tim shows her the glow in the dark stars and they both decorate the room together. Tim asks her to make her hair glow and puts a star on her face. The scene plays out and Tim tells her that he will always protect her and she should never feel insecure about her hair or her eyes because the guys that bully her just don’t see the good things in Sam.

Man it has been a while since I have been able to finish a piece. I have been pretty busy from work and was moving my stuff around. So yeah feels good to be back!

anonymous asked:

I am desperate and don't know what to do. Since goind vegan I had 10 cavities and 1 root canal (when I was a "carnist" I had none) - I'm seriously considering going back, but I don't feel good about it. It's just that the cavities are expensive and stressfull, and I'm losing hope of ever getting better with my diet. Do you know what could be the cause? Any tips to avoid any more tooth decay?

I had 4 teeth removed for cavities and decay in my life even before I was a vegetarian. Many people on this planet will have some sort of dental surgery in their lifetime without ever being vegan or vegetarian. So it’s important to remember that dental health issues are not a problem disproportionately experienced by those who refuse to eat animal products, and that it’s entirely possible for your plant-based diet to be completely irrelevant to your recent dental health issues. Hear me out on this!

Correlation does not imply causation. I know this is hard to accept for some people - “I went vegan around the same time x started happening, so it CAN’T be a coincidence!” but coincidences DO happen. More frequently than we even perceive. There are a lot of coincidences in our lives that don’t catch our attention simply because we have no inclination to believe they are related in any way. 

For example, here are some graphs that show two completely unrelated factors following an eerily identical pattern, like the rise and fall of per capita consumption of margarine lining up perfectly with the divorce rate in Maine. It would be funny at best to suggest that margarine consumption has anything to do with divorce. And we have no reason to suspect it does, especially when major news sites and corporations aren’t churning out stories like “Could margarine be the reason your marriage fell apart?” or Best-Selling authors writing books like “I Gave Up Margarine for My Marriage!”

In contrast, there are many who have invested political, economic, and social interest in suggesting that plant-based diets are overall less healthy and sustainable than animal-based diets. They rely on rogue correlation in order to fuel their beliefs. These factors surround us every day and make us more likely to suspect that veganism itself is the cause of our problems, rather than poor diet choices or neglecting our health in non-dietary ways.

That’s not to say that your diet definitely isn’t affecting your dental health. It’s just a statement to remind you that you shouldn’t jump to conclusions, or more specifically, instead of saying “veganism is the reason I’m having cavities, so I should stop being vegan”, you might want to say “I am not eating properly for my health, and I should change my dietary habits”. Your health declining does not make meat, milk, or eggs miracle foods that will fix all your problems. Here’s a list of things you may be doing or neglecting to do that are not directly related to your lack of animal product consumption:

  • You are eating more sugar. If you’re drinking soda or fruit juices, that would be the first thing to reduce or eliminate from your diet. Other drinks, such as non-dairy milks, can also come packed with more sugar than necessary. If you drink non-dairy milk regularly, you may want to switch to unsweetened varieties, or choose a brand that has less added sugar than your current choice. Other sources of added sugar are baked goods, cereals, alcoholic drinks, and even non-sweets like condiments and frozen dinners. If you drink coffee or tea, you might want to switch to a sugar free sweetener.
  • You are eating a lot of carbs. Carbohydrates break down into simple sugars. When these get stuck in your teeth, they attract bacteria eventually causing tooth decay. Some people, when switching to a vegetarian or fully plant-based diet, begin to eat more carbs in substitute of animal products, either knowingly or unknowingly. But being vegan doesn’t mean you have to eat a high-carb diet, and there are plenty of vegan recipes that can help you reduce how many carbs you’re eating.
  • You are eating a highly acidic diet. When our body’s pH levels become too acidic, it uses its own stores of calcium in order to balance it out, so eating a highly acidic diet may be a contributing factor in dental decay. It’s hard to maintain a pH balanced diet since this isn’t something we normally think about - outside of acidic fruits such as citrus - and acid can come from surprising parts of our diet. Examples of non-vegan, highly acidic foods are beef, processed cheese (and other processed dairy products), seafood, pasteurized honey, egg whites, pork, and veal. Whether or not you stay vegan, while I hope you do, is ultimately up to you - but I want you to be informed regardless. There are just as many non-vegan high acidity foods as there are vegan ones, so whether or not you eat animals will not have a bearing on whether or not you can control the acidity in your diet. Beans, dried fruits, spinach, zucchini, coconut, and brown rice are some low acidity and high nutrient foods you may want to consider adding in higher quantity to your diet.
  • You refuse to eat high sources of plant-based calcium. Lots of great vegan sources of calcium also happen to be foods that some people absolutely hate. Number one? Dark green, leafy vegetables. If you can’t remember the last time you had any dark green leafy vegetable - like spinach, kale, bok choy, okra, or even broccoli - you’ve been avoiding the number one dietary source of calcium. Take a look at some other vegan sources of calcium and see if you’ve been neglecting them in your diet overall.
  • You are eating a lot of sodium. Sodium increases the amount of calcium lost in urine  and higher dietary sodium is associated with lower bone density. People eating plant-based diets do not tend to have higher sodium levels than others, simply because the predominant sources of excess sodium in the average diet are prepared meats, cheeses, and frozen or prepared meals containing those ingredients. If you suspect that you might be eating more sodium than you should, here are some guidelines for a low-sodium diet.

An ideal plant-based diet for bones and teeth is one high in leafy greens, beans, nuts and seeds, with adequate sources of vitamin C for calcium absorption (so moderate consumption of fruits), as well as being low in added sugars, salt, processed carbohydrates, highly acidic foods, and alcohol. This diet is not only healthy for bone density but provides an overall healthful framework to base your dietary routine on.

Outside of your diet, brushing regularly, getting a new toothbrush every few months, flossing, drinking plenty of water, rinsing, and chewing sugar free gum can help aid in dental hygiene.

Being vegan won’t automatically make you healthy or ill, and neither will being non-vegan. We need to remember that our health is much more complex than these dietary boundaries, and that sometimes health complications can arise even in the most conscientious of people.

As a disclaimer, I’m not a dental hygienist or trained nutritionist. I’m not even the most health-conscientious person out there, and there are plenty of times where I’ll do something or eat something that isn’t healthy for me. I have a huge sweet tooth! But I firmly believe that everyone should have access to information that can keep our bodies healthy and happy, whether or not we use that information all the time. It’s up to every individual how much they decide to adhere to health recommendations. 

And as a final note, neglecting to eat healthy or exercise every once in a while doesn’t make you a bad person. Getting sick doesn’t make you a bad vegan. Sometimes we need mental health days. Sometimes we are mentally suffering in ways that makes us neglect our physical health. Sometimes we get sick in ways we couldn’t have possibly predicted. We are only human, and are as flawed as we are unique.

I wish you the best of luck with your health, and hope this helps!

Hiatus Update.

I wish this was happier news. 

Because I miss you guys so much, I do.

The thing is this, though: when I come on here, and scroll though my dash, the predominant feelings I have aren’t happiness or community or fun, but rather worry over what I may stumble over unprepared, and sadness that a place that used to be an enjoyable social outlet now brings me anxiety and a feeling of disconnection. 

I want this feeling to go away. God, I do, so much. But I don’t think I can make myself feel better about tumblr or fandom. It has to happen organically. Or, I guess, maybe not happen. Whichever the case may be. The reality that the good feelings might not come back, that I may continue to feel this disconnected and hollow from the things I used to love–that possibility makes me terribly sad, but I can’t make myself feel ways I just don’t right now.

I still love Sherlock and John and all the wonderful things they mean to me. I am still trying to write fic, though it’s hard to work past this kind of hollowed-out feeling to the good place where the words flow naturally.

I’m not leaving. I keep saying that. But I don’t know what’s here for me, anymore, either, and I am so sorry for that.

Time will tell, I suppose.

i!!!! love my guy friends they gave me the courage to use the boy’s bathroom today and they stayed in there with me and this one guy gave me a weird look but they gave him a fighting look back and it made me feel so good every trans person should have friends like that

anonymous asked:

AHHHH FIRST I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and how do you think Harry would give you a back rub? Like you're in a bad mood and he's trying to help so he rubs your back and keeps asking if it feels good or whatever, like how do youu think he would act in that situation?


I think he’d be so cute. Like he’d sit on your hips and rub your back– a little too hard, and frown. “You’ve got so many knots, love.” He’d work through your painful spots and make sure to press kisses to your spine or your shoulder whenever you winced. He’d ask, “Too hard baby? M'just trying to work the kinks out. You’ll feel good when I’m all done.”
And the way his hands are traveling lower and lower, you realize it’s not just your back he’s referring to.


i….had a really strong urge to draw my headcanon Aldini mama. her name’s Aurora Aldini and she’s a pâtissier!! she’s got weak health (and got weaker after giving birth) so she can’t be in the kitchen much anymore, though she used to run a top notch bakery back in her day. whenever she feels Good tho she makes desserts for the customers in the Trattoria and Everyone throws their money at her feet for them. there’s even a secret special order menu for her cakes!! and obvs, she loves Takumi and Isami very, very much uvu

i had a huge breakfast and an equally huge lunch, my room is f i n a l l y almost totally pieced together, its fuckin FRIIIIIDAAAAAAAAY and i have two brand new video games to play, a novel to finish writing, and a dont starve mod that is almost done

feels good to finally feel like i’m getting back onto an even keel

Today we had three big breakthroughs: Abba worked and even jumped whilst other horses were being ridden in the ring, she went on a walking trail ride with a group of horses and did not lose her cool, and for the first time in eighteen months we picked up the canter in the ring and she did not explode. Sure, she rushed into it, flung her head around and gave a few half-hearted kicks, but she cantered. It feels so good to have the canter back - tomorrow we’ll work on her right lead canter, which is the one she exploded on all that time ago, and oh my gosh, I am just so excited, because now that we can pick up a canter, however awkwardly, we can finally start to work on it again. And this time, I won’t fix the transition until she’s used to the canter as a routine part of her ring rides.

She was agitated at having others in the ring with her - she shook her head a lot, flinging it up and down and side to side - but after a little she began to settle, and once we’d jumped all the fences I felt comfortable taking her over in her slightly excited state, the other riders encouraged me to try the canter - and we got it three times on the left lead. I have the best fellow boarders I could hope for - sweet, encouraging, and understanding - and they were as happy as I was that I’d finally got her to canter again.

Our trail ride after the schooling session was wonderful as well. Abba ambled at the back; I could drop the reins entirely and she kept on plodding. She had a few moments where she suggested that maybe we could possibly jig because the beautiful TB mare was getting excited on the way back home, but came down at a touch on the reins. And even when the tractor drove past and swung its massive watering apparatus around in front of us, the horses did nothing more than prick their ears.

Oddly enough, Abba did end the ride with an attempted bolt, when we got back to the ring. She followed the other three past the car, and when I turned her back towards the car, she flung her head in the air and tried to make a break for the trail again - going away from her friends, her food, and her guaranteed relaxation. Which was strange, but short-lived.

And she’s eating her apples again. Slowly and with relish, and a great deal of slobbering. So all is well with Abba’s world today.