You’re entitled to your anger. You’re entitled to your bitterness.
It doesn’t make you as bad as the people who hurt you.
It doesn’t make you abusive to finally lash out and snap at your abusers.
It’s a recognized and common tactic for abusers to accuse their victims of being the perpetrator of the toxicity and abuse.
It’s not your fault though.
You aren’t as bad as them just because they finally pushed you to the breaking point.

You aren’t a bad person or a “bad victim” for your justified anger.
You don’t have to carry any guilt if the final straw ended in you telling someone how they hurt you. 
You aren’t the bad guy for resenting the way you were treated.
You aren’t deserving of it because you raised your voice or said harsh words.

You get to be upset. You get to be human.

I just want to become an art under his hands, to be made up of ripped colors and lines. I only want to be whispered like an old, forgotten spell, to be sighed and murmured in his darkest nights. I want to be the song that plays over and over in his mind, to be the watch on his wrist that does not tell time.

But I’m only a spilled ink smeared across his desk—dried up, cracked, a poem left unsaid.

—  hanzelwrites

irrevocably-illogical  asked:

Concept: I trust my friends implicitly and don't become enraged when their story doesn't add up & I am capable of asking for further information before I am overcome with intense emotions. My personality disorder doesn't cause employers to dismiss me after I exhibit one symptom & I am not so terrified of their potentially life-destroying critique that I haven't looked for a job in two years. I do not feel like a fake borderline for not feeling morbidly desperate in the calm periods of my life.

anonymous asked:

I'm an autistic adult and my T always ask me how i feel (many times during a session) Is it easier for you to describe how you feel if there are options written down on a piece of paper or charts with emoticons then just trying to explain it without it...i know i struggle with just explaining

Yeah. I have an easier time figuring out my emotions if I can look at a list of emotions than trying to identify it on my own. This can be an aspect of alexithymia (the inability or difficulty identifying and describing emotions).


anonymous asked:

Sometimes I'll get a strong emotion, but I'm not sure what exactly it is or what's causing it, and I'll feel it very strongly in my body (often gut/chest) and it's extremely distracting. Any ideas on things I could try to make it go away/distract from it?

Stimming is usually a good way to counter strong emotions. You can try out a bunch of different stims to see if any of them help relieve the emotion you’re feeling. Aside from that, you can try engaging with a special interest to distract yourself or playing a game or watching a show.