EVEN IF YOU HURT ME

Hey everyone!

I’ve sorta maybe kinda made a decision (with the help of a friend, you know who you are) that I’m not going to be on my dash (aka looking through my dash) at all during this hiatus. I feel like the comments I’ve seen passed around about this season on many topics have only either upset me or angered me to the point of almost leaving altogether. And it’s the kind of person I am in which I get upset easily by seeing these things. So in light of what happened on the show tonight, and how I anticipate things are going to unfold within the fandom, I’ve decided to stay off my dash and only mainly talk through messages over this hiatus. You’ll see things run as usual, but I’m going to limit how much time I spend on here and how much stuff I reblog from my dash. So it may seem as though things are normal (you’ll probably see gifsets from the episode here, but no opinions). But!!! If you see or make a gifset you’d want me to see, please message it to me so I don’t miss it. If you have anything you wanna say, please feel free to send me a message or an ask. I feel like I’m being rude when I say this but I can assure you I’m not. I just have this way of looking at things too much (aka my dash) and the slightest piece of criticism or anger at the show will set me off. And tbh, the episode was well done tonight and I’m very proud of Jed at how amazing he did. So please take this as a way for me to save my own sanity and emotional well being. As always, love you all and if I miss your work, sorry. Enjoy hiatus! I’m doing a rewatch ;)

Shawn Mendes

I just wanna give you the loving that you’re missing -  Eu só quero te dar o amor que você está perdendo

I wanna make you mine -  Eu quero ter você pra mim 

It’d be cool if it’s the two of us -  Seria legal se fôssemos só nós dois

Baby, please no promises -  Querida, por favor, sem promessas. 

I wanna tell you how beautiful you are -  Eu quero te dizer o quão linda você é

This is typical of love -  Isso é típico do amor

Do you think about me? -  Você pensa em mim?

Sometimes it all gets a little too much -  Às vezes tudo fica um pouco demais

Take it easy on my heart even though you don’t mean to hurt me -  Pegue leve com o meu coração, mesmo que não seja sua intenção me machucar.

I know I can treat you better than he can -  Eu sei que eu posso te tratar melhor do que ele pode

Tell me why are we wasting time -  Me diga por quê estamos perdendo tempo

I’ll stop time for you the second you say you’d like me too -  Eu vou parar o tempo para você no segundo em que você disser que gosta de mim também

anonymous asked:

Can I have some DNRG angst?

Deo wrapped his fingers around Roy’s pale ones. He didn’t understand what he deserved to be saved by Roy. He couldn’t understand why. 

“Roy…?” His hand ghost over the wounds that Roy received instead of him. Deo wanted to pull the arrows out but Roy shook his head.

“It’s…ok…” Roy coughs up a mouthful of blood. “It’s….ok…”

“But….you’re hurt…”

“Even if…you try to bring….me back…” Roy swallows with difficultly. “I won’t…make it…” His shaky hand moves up slowly to wipe away unknown tears. “I….”

Deo grits his teeth. “No more….No more…”

Roy smiles faintly. “…..be…..by….your….side….”

People give me advice like I’m an idiot with no self awareness, but the truth is, I know what I need to do. But that doesn’t make it any easier.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
We throw around the word never likes its nothing but a small rose petal. The word never is a doubled edged sword. On one side it says ‘I will never leave you’ and on the other it says ‘I will never love you.’
—  The Word Never
Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.