It’s 2am and the only thing I can think about is your hands and how each ones make me weak to the knees. I’m thinking about how lucky I would be if I could take one of them right now, but the only thing I can do is seeing them through a screen.
It’s 3am and I’m thinking about your room, yeah the room I saw you most of the time in. I’m thinking about your bed and how I would love to spend a night in it beside you. But the only thing I can do right now is seeing it through a screen.
It’s 4 in the morning and the only thing I can think about is your voice. Your gorgeous voice. I would give anything just to hear it, I mean really hear it, but that damn screen is the only thing I have right now.
It’s 5am and your eyes are the only things going through my mind. I think about how much I would love to see myself in those beautiful brown eyes, not your screen. But it’s the only thing I can do right now, seeing the black reflection of a simple screen in them.
It’s 6am and the only thing I can think about is how the curves of your lips make my heart beat faster and how much I want to kiss them. But the only thing I can do right now is seeing them through a screen.
It’s 7 in the morning and I miss you so fucking much. But I’m sure of one thing, I don’t miss the screen at all.
It’s early in the morning and I miss you. I don’t know what else to do, or what else to say. I just want you here in my arms.
And please my darling,
Remember exactly how beautiful you are,
ven after he stops whispering sweet nothings,
when his arms aren’t your home anymore,
when you’re lying on the bathroom floor
crying at 2am.
Remember how beautiful you were,
before you found reassurance from his words.
aaaaaaaa…… i want to do something nice for everyone, but i can’t do much. i want to spread happiness nd stuff. you’re all so lovely, even if you doubt it sometimes. and hey, i’m glad you’re still here! like, i’m not just glad that you’re following me, but i’m glad you’re here and existing and apart of the world. do you realize how strong of a person you are to endure everything you’ve endured and still live to tell the tale? some people don’t make it out alive. you did. so, some days are worse than others, but can you even imagine the happy days that have yet to happen??? you’ve been here for such a short time in comparison to the grand scheme of things, meaning you haven’t even experienced your BEST DAY EVER yet!! do you ever wonder what it’s going to be like? there are so many beautiful, happy days ahead of you and so it’s your mission to reach those days, and then tell me all about it when it happens. i love you all so much and i care about you all so much. you all make me smile! take care of yourselves and spread some love if you can. <3