- Sometimes Keith gets so overwhelmed by the thought that he has a boyfriend who loves and respects him that he just needs to go, often in the middle of the night, because everything gets to be too much the feelings just fill him up and he needs to get out and run just to force himself to breathe again.
- (somewhere around the time period in Hematoma) Lance always wanted to wear pretty jewelry like necklaces and bracelets and ear cuffs but he’d always felt self conscious about it and was worried growing up that people would make fun of him for it. He tells Keith about it once and Keith starts getting him things like simple necklaces and shit, small stuff and Lance is totally embarrassed but he starts wearing them because his boyfriend got it for him and it’s just so nice and he enjoys it and Keith is always so encouraging to him that he begins to forget he ever worried about it at all.
- Sometimes Lance just wants to give up because he’s done nothing with his life, he works a shifty job and has a shifty life and everything is so wrong and not what he wanted but then Keith does something like get dinner as a surprise or sends him cat pictures for no reason or just is there and Lance just thinks that at least one good thing came out of it.
so my tax refund came in and I am using a lot of it to catch up on Big-Ticket Items I Couldn’t Afford To Buy Or Replace For Years (on Monday I buy new glasses frames to replace the two-year-old ones now missing a stem and also a six month supply of contacts! gonna get a real haircut for the first time in two years! maybe a piercing!)
(last year I was supposed to replace my laptop and phone with my tax refund and have some left over for savings but then I got fired right before I filed my taxes and had to use all of my tax refund on rent and groceries while job hunting!!! so this year is extra giddy-making because I actually get to splurge on things)
anyway what this also means is I’ve been planning for months to buy a new pair of Doc Martens when the government cash came in because I got mine secondhand three years ago and they no longer have tread and the sole is about half the height it once was and they are honestly a bit sad looking and have always had BRASS EYELETS which has BOTHERED ME FROM AN AESTHETIC PERSPECTIVE FOR THREE YEARS, but also, Docs are the shoes of my heart and I wear them with everything all the time
(I now have three pairs of Docs, the other two being a knee-high pair that was the best birthday gift from my parents ever and a black-damask-on-white pair my mother found for fourteen dollars at a thrift store in Kentucky; if I am not wearing Docs it is probably because it is a Formal Occasion and then I am wearing high-heeled granny boots or, even more vanishingly rare, Actual Adult Heels (my actual adult heels are almost-black beetle green platform designer shoes half a size too large I got for two dollars at my old workplace) and like maybe one day I will find the multi-strap pointed black witchy flats of my dreams)
ANYWAY ANYWAY I JUST ORDERED NEW DOCS AND I AM VERY EXCITED
I also ordered this because like, own your cliches, kid