Jack Kelly is not Stupid!

(An entire three page essay by me, Asper, who’s in love with Jack Kelly.)

Okay listen we all know I love Jack Kelly and I adore Jack Kelly and Jack Kelly is an incredible character, but let me talk about Jack Kelly right now. Jack Kelly is a goddamn genius, and nobody seems to think so, including himself. We’re talking right now specifically how I write Jack in modern au, but plenty of this could also apply to canon so let’s just dive right in.

When I write modern Jack, I write a very specific character across any and all aus. Jack Kelly is a foster kid from an immigrant household, he spoke Spanish at home, he has ADHD and dyslexia, struggles with anxiety and often with depression, and thinks he’s stupid. He’s not stupid, in fact, he’s pretty goddamn smart, but he doesn’t see it in himself.

Davey Jacobs and Katherine Plumber-Pulitzer are very similar in many ways. Both of them are also very smart, Davey has dyslexia and Katherine had ADHD, both of them have their own anxiety to deal with, but the difference is the environment they grew up in.

Jack moved around a lot. He moved schools, families, friends, towns, and he never did well in school. He struggled in English, both because he didn’t speak it as well as he spoke Spanish until he was in foster care, and because of his dyslexia. He didn’t recognize it as dyslexia, or ADHD, for that matter, because everyone always had a different explanation. He moved around so much, the curriculums were different, the assignments, the teachers, of course he wasn’t getting incredible grades. He couldn’t focus, so he acted out. It wasn’t malicious, he wasn’t trying to be disruptive, but after a half hour of trying to read a book he couldn’t make sense of even when he could make the letters stay put in the right order on the page, he couldn’t sit still anymore. It was easier to doodle on the worksheets, to draw little comics of funny things happening around him, to chat with the person next to him. Beyond that, he learned pretty quickly that if he made the jokes before he became the joke, people laughed with him, not at him. And one of those was decidedly better than the other. So people put his bad grades down to him never paying attention in class, and nobody ever bothered to ask if he was having trouble paying attention, or having trouble learning, they just assumed he was bad at school, at eventually, when enough people told him that? He started to believe it. It was easier to believe that he was just bad at English than to try to convince people that he wasn’t joking when he said “I can’t read” and that he wanted to pay attention but every time he tried to force himself too, it seemed like he just got distracted again. Knowing the name of every constellation in the sky didn’t mean he was smart, he learned that on his own time and it didn’t make him smart, he just liked the night sky, is all. And being able to focus on art for hours and hours and hours without noticing the time passing by, that was just because art was, well, art, and he could never get bored of that. He was stupid, but art wasn’t something he had to be smart to do. Never mind how many classical painters he could identify without names next to the painting, never mind the fully accurate map of the night sky he painted after months of careful research, never mind how much he loved math, he couldn’t ever focus and he got bad grades in school and he was stupid, he couldn’t keep up and it took him five times as long to get anything done and he was stupid.

Davey, on the other hand, grew up in a steady, stable, loving home. He loved stories, and wanted to learn to read as soon as he was old enough to understand that those marks on the page are what were telling the stories, but it was hard for him. At first, his parents and teachers assumed it was just because he was young and just learning to read, but eventually they watched him read and compared how fast he was moving in reading and writing to how fast he was moving in other subjects, and decided to test him, and realized he had dyslexia. So he had reading interventions, and was taught how to deal with it, and was able to compensate for it.

And Katherine had a similar thing. She was smart and everyone knew it, she got good grades in school, but she could never focus and they recognized it as ADHD and she was given ways to deal with it, and it didn’t affect her so much because she was given accommodations and support.

Jack didn’t get any of that. He got new school after new school after new school, and all of them and himself blamed it on the moves and Jack just not being good at school. He was just stupid.

And he met Davey and Katherine and it just cemented that idea in his mind. They were so smart, and they mentioned sometimes having trouble but they were so smart and did so well in school, he only did well in art and music, and he could barely read and barely focus and Davey and Katherine were just so smart, and he was nothing like them, so he couldn’t be smart. He was just stupid.

The thing is, he isn’t. He loves stories, he loves telling them and hearing them and it’s frustrated him time and time again that other people can read a book in a week and he can read an hour a day for two months and only be halfway done, because the letters don’t stay still and the words don’t even look like words and it takes him ten minutes to piece together a two sentences. But he listens to audiobooks, and Davey can’t figure out how he figures out Agatha Christie mysteries before the end, and Katherine never ceases to be amazed at how much he retains from nerdy podcasts she sends him because she thinks he’ll like them. He knows more about the night sky than the people who run the planetarium, and loves to lean over and tell Davey when a fact is wrong, that star is this many light years away and that means the light we’re seeing was made when the dinosaurs were around, isn’t that incredible? And he can spend hours making a painting just right, and pick out the perfect ratio in a painting without even thinking about it, and knows more about art history and color theory and the science, chemistry and math that go into art than most art teachers did. Reading was just hard, so he didn’t get good grades and had stopped trying to a long time ago, because trying just resulted in late nights and frustration and thinking he was even stupider than he already did.

And the thing about thinking you’re stupid is that it doesn’t go away. Eventually, sure he and Davey were talking about something and Davey described dyslexia and Jack was like oh shit! That’s me! And eventually the same thing happened with Katherine, and he was like double shit! That’s also me! But it didn’t really matter because they could be so smart even with those things affecting them, and he couldn’t. Because he was stupid.

Because thoughts like that don’t go away, at least not all the way, so now maybe he could blame pieces of being bad at school on them, but most of it he was convinced still came out of him being stupid. And it’s hard to convince him otherwise, because he’d been thinking like that for so long, and because he sees Davey and Katherine and can’t help thinking that they’re so much smarter than him, even though they’re not, really, they’ve just been supported and accommodated more throughout their lives, which obviously means they’ve been able to deal with it more.

And beyond that, Jack’s anxiety plays a huge part, too, because he can be sitting in bed, doing homework, and his ADHD is making it hard to focus and his dyslexia is making it hard to read and his anxiety is telling him he’ll never get it done and he’ll get a bad grade and he’ll fail the class, and that makes it harder to focus, which means he’s reading even slower, which means he’s even more anxious, which means it’s harder to focus, et cetera, et cetera. And that just makes him feel even more dumb, because it’s something else he can’t control that other people don’t even see as a problem. Because he says he can’t read, and people tell him to stop joking and get back to work, like that’s gonna help him. Because he says he can’t focus and people tell him to focus, like that’s gonna make a difference. Because he says he gets anxious and people tell him they do do, just get over it, like that’s gonna make a difference. And because when he says he’s depressed, when all of the things he’d gone through and everything he thinks about himself and all his fears and doubts feel like they’re suffocating him, people tell him to cheer up, smile, stop being so sad, like that was enough to make him feel better.

So he always feel stupid, especially in comparison to his friends, but he’s not, he just didn’t have the opportunities his friends did to learn how to work around their problems, and he didn’t. He didn’t get taught how to work around his dyslexia, he didn’t get to learn how to deal with ADHD, he didn’t get medication for ADHD or anxiety, he just dealt with it in his own way, which didn’t get him good grades. Because his way of dealing with it was making jokes and not even trying once he realized that trying didn’t even do him any good. He’s not stupid, and maybe he technically knows that, but hearing it and believing it so long and his own cycle of anxiety and depression combined mean that he can’t quite make himself really believe it.

But Jack Kelly isn’t stupid, he only thinks he is because he hasn’t had the resources and environment that would have allowed him to grow into his own intelligence in the same way Davey and Katherine did, so he found his own ways to express it, but he doesn’t consider that intelligence, and constantly compares himself to them even though they aren’t really that comparable, but he thinks they are and therefore thinks he’s stupid thank you for coming to my TED talk titled “Jack Kelly is Not Stupid and Also I Love Him.”

king-of-new-yoirk  asked:

How are the newsies like in college? Who's the partiers, stoners, bookworms, all nighters, sleeps all the time, anything you can think of for these boys

the best way to combat late night depression is by thinking about these lovely boys

Jack:

- fine art and art education double major

- literally so fucking wired man

- i mean like,, he sleeps more than some boys (cough cough race and davey cough cough) but like,, it’s not a Sleep Schedule as it were

- sometime he sleeps at night,, sometimes in the day,, sometimes while drawing

- does party like a Motherfucker tho,, when he gets out there my man can hold his own

- droke paintwater on accident when he was hungover so many times once

Davey:

- psychology major,, on an accelerated masters track, in the honors college

- so basically my man is Stressed

- King of All Nighters and he and race are roommates so that room is basically filled to the brim w coffee cups and redbull cans

- doesnt drink bc he takes anxiety medication so hes a designated driver

- leads study groups bc hes an angel and his notes look like studyblr hes so fucking organized

- studys outside when he can

Race:

- astrophysics major 110% rip that headcanon from my cold dead hands

- a Certified Mess™️

- forgets to eat and sleep and drink water a lot so if davey wasnt his roommate his ass would be dead in miami

- hey he smokes weed,, im sorry but it’s true

- also parties hard (second best next to jack) and has the record for number of shots wo throwing up in his group

- if often seen being carried by one of the other boys when he passes out on like a fuckin bench after going a while wo sleeping

Spot:

- secondary education major (high school,, wants to teach history or math)

- like,, he feels,, like he should be in a frat right?? But hes fuckin not Fuck That Bullshit

- works out a lot?? Like if he has an 8am class catch him in the gym at 6

- studies w davey a lot?? Bc he finds him helpful af and also it means he can force that Tired Boy to go to bed

- goes to parties but doesnt drink hard,, has like a beer or two and then just sorta chills

- has a fuckin nap schedule and just generally has his shit together??

Crutchie:

- social work major ((this kid really wants to help people yall))

- studied abroad in london for a semester bc he went to the abroad office freshman year like youre Supposed To

- naps!! So much!! So sleepy!!

- even if he sleeps twelve hours catch him napping later that same day

- like,, smokes a l i t t l e weed yall, like he takes a hit or two he doesnt go hard

- is in the LGBT student organization!! (so are more of them tbh but he has a leadership role)

- an RA tbh,, like hes the chill one but he makes sure the floor is runnin nicely

Albert:

- civil engineering major (think like building bridges and shit yall)

- in the honors college w davey and is a lot smarter than people give him credit for??

- has that good balance between studying and partying,, like manages his time well

- smokes weed with race guys w h y i s t h i s e v e n s o m e t h i n g i n e e d t o s a y

- works out w spot but also plays intramural baseball,, like not the scholarship level stuff,, just for fun on a league

- good sleep schedule,, Always Sick tho bc he never dresses for the goddamned weather

Elmer:

- Biology major ((a lot of focus on animal behavior tho))

- god he loves college sm he tries so hard and like,, is the one who makes flashcards and shit by hand, what a g

- looks perpetually Slumped tho,, hes so sleepy it’s worse than crutchie

- actually as bad at sleeping as davey and race but keeps it a secret so the boys dont worry

- usually does his hw in a coffee shop and has a job at a coffee place on campus

- goes to parties every once and a while and usually hangs w spot and davey and watches race, jack, and albert get destroyed

- Would Do Anything For Free Food

“The Most Fearful Part”

  • HALLOWEEN THEMED MODERN AU for NEWSIES!
  • Racetrack Higgins x Davey Jacobs
  • rAvEy
  • RAVEY goes to a Haunted House
  • RACE SCREAMS LIKE A LITTLE GIRL IN FRONT OF DAVEY AND USES HIM AS A HUMAN SHIELD
  • “WHAT THE HELL, RACE?”
  • “So much for my staunch and brave protector.”
  • Race screeches throughout the whole walk
  • “YEET”
  • “NOT TODAY, DRAC”
  • “HA, YA THOUGHT. I ONLY USE TURLET PAPER TO WIPE MY BUM, DUMMY MUMMY”
  • “I DON’T HAVE ANY BRAINS TO FEAST ON. TAKE DAVEY’S INSTEAD”
  • Davey apologizes to all the actors in the Haunted House for Race’s outlandish behavior as they walk through
  • “He’s usually not like this.”
  • “I think the fear is starting to set in.”
  • “I’m sorry for the disturbance.”
  • “You guys are doing a bang up job.”
  • When they finally reach the end Race is just silent. Davey is breathless with obsence laughter.
  • “ YOU AND THE ‘YEET’ ”
  • Race is all sensitive and grumpy, “They could’ve been real.”
  • “And so you used me as a human shield.”
  • Race makes Davey promise not to tell anyone.
  • Davey thought the whole thing was ridiculous, yet adorable.
  • Needless to say, Albert was one of the actors in the Haunted House and he is going to tell EVERYONE.
  • They agree not to go to anymore Haunted Houses.
  • Afterwards, Davey buys candy corn in bulk for trick or treaters, but Race eats half of the stash and passes out on the couch.
  • THE END

@suddenclarityharry Hope you like it!

Cuddling Davey Jacobs

Originally posted by whenyourfeetdonttouchtheground

* You and Davey didn’t exactly have a perfect life

* It was difficult

* But you deal with it

* Because the both of you have a stable support system

* Whether it was each other or the other newsies

* But there were still times where selling papes were had

* And whatever business you were in was just as hard

* So there were days you had to take off

* And you had to get away from the rest of the newsies

* So you went to your place where you had a bit more room

* Since your roommates were gone for the night

* So the house was all yours

* And you loved nights where you could stay in with the boy you love

* You held a tight grip on each other and not letting go just a little bit

* It was just soothing to the both of you

* To also know that neither of you are going anywhere

* You will talk about what is going on

* Davey would talk about issues with Pulitzer or being able to support his family

* And you would just listen and soothe him

* It is just a lot of whispering and kind looks

* Calming was the only way to describe it

* You always offered to help Davey

* But he would always refuse

* Trying to be the good boyfriend who is independent

* And this just got a tired laugh from you

* Just tired looks in general

* You probably both fell asleep on the floor in his arms

* And it did work

* All that stress went away

* Cuddling is a magical thing isn’t it

Request

what’s constantly going through my head:
  • dere’s no way I’m puttin those kids back in danga 
  • tell me how quitting does Crutchie any good 
  • uuuzzzzzt- 

eXACTLY 

  •  sO HERE’s how it goes once we win and WE WILL BE WINNING make no mistake 
  • we’ll be wat 
  • we’re already winning 
  • riiiiiiight
  • and we’ll tell them STRAIGHT OUT they let CRUTChie go or they KEEP getting Pounded 
  • Dave (!!!) what the HELL did they bust up ya brains or somethin as I recall DAVE we all got our asses kicked they won 
  • won the battle 
  • o cOme On 
  • jACKIE think abt it we GOT them surROUNDED 
  • here’s what I think joe’s a joick he’s a rattle snake 
  • ya right!! And ya know why a snake starts to rattle? 
  • no why 
  • cuz he’s SCARED 
  • pft sure 

go and look it up the poor GUYS head is spinning 

  • why would he send for the GOONS an entire army dozens of goons and the cops an- 
  • yanno ya may be right 
  • THANK YA GOD 
  • if he wasn’t afraid- 
  • eXACTLY 
  • he knows we’re winning 
  • get those kids to see we’re circling victory and watch what happens 
  • we’re doing something no one’s even tried and YES we’re terrified but watch what happens 
  • ya can’t undo the past 
  • SO just move on and stay on track 
  • (stay on track) 
  • cuz humpty dumpty is abt to crACK 
  • we’ve got FAITH 
  • we’ve got the plan 
  • anD WE’VE GOT JACK!!!!! 
  • so just WATCH WHAT HAPPENS 
  • we’re BAAAAAACK 

(AND I’VE GOT A DATE)

It’s okay, I miss home too.

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“I know a place we could go
No one has been there, and no one will know
There it is quiet, forget the violence
You’ve tried so hard to ignore” 

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For my AU “ chant du cygne” 

davey, jasper, gwen, and daniel ( dani )

more infos basically:

jasper and davey were orphans when they were about 5 years old, they were adopted by campbell. cameron was only supposed to adopt davey but he refused to leave without jasper. 

gwen is miss priss’s daughter. miss priss is also campbell’s competitor. gwen’s a tomboy, she hates the frills on her dresses a lot and rips them off.

daniel is not the crazy cultist he is in the canon show, just a little religious boy that eventually tries to help jasper and davey with the power of god, faith, and hope. 

more infos the more i post! i think this will turn into either a fic or a sketchy set of comic strips…. not sure, depends on how life goes haha