Today is my danciversary! Four years ago today I decided to start Irish Dance classes again in a new city where I knew no one and had zero friends.

I had danced briefly as a kid, but hardly practiced and thought it was dorky so I quit before I could ever make it out of Beginners.

Today, I’ve been competing for 2 years and am THIS close to making prelims - just need elusive firsts in HP and TJ. This weekend is my final feis of the year and I’m hoping my hard work will finally pay off.

From having zero friends in Houston to some of my closest being those I’ve met in dance - I thank my lucky stars for making that decision four years ago.


This means so much to me.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.