And with this one life you have, make sure that you be all that you want to be. There will be times, where you are filled with doubt, and there is little to no hope left, please remember you are free. Do all that you wish, never give in to the fear of others. You are wild, don’t take that for granted.
What I remember most about that time was how sad I was. I was very unhappy and thought if I started getting involved in something else rather than Harry Potter, then I might be able to smile again, or at least find something to satisfy me. I wrote poetry, joined the writing community, and found some friends.
But my poetry was shit, and I’ve never found reading or writing it to be particularly therapeutic or cathartic. There was a lot of angst (and mason jars) which really didn’t help someone who was on the verge of depression. ( looking back it wasn’t depression, but it was a definite reaction to weather SAD, and some other factors)
Returning to fandoms has been much better for me. Despite the discourse in some of them, I’ve found some lovely friends and also had moments that make me laugh out loud at the most inappropriate moments.
Should I celebrate? Should I think ‘omg I’ve wasted five years of my life’? Because sometimes I think I should have just stopped fandom things and got on with OF, or distanced myself from social media. It’s a great place to be when you’re happy and having fun, but it can be the loneliest place in the world when you feel no one quite gets you.
Anyway, thank you for following. Thank you for reading and listening and not minding that my blog is so disorganised and an eclectic mess of things.
If you have any suggestions for things you think I might like, or any prompts for writing, or you just want to say hi, then drop me an ask. I’m busy (ish) but will see what I can do.