maya’s thing was counting. she’d count the seconds until the sun went down, count the seconds until her parents stopped screaming at her, and now, as she’s growing up, she’s learning to count the seconds it takes for josh to look at her when he thinks she doesn’t see. she’s down to three.
Last one! I got tagged by @materassassino in a challenge to spell out my blog url with song titles.
I’m going to pull from my giant Spotify general-listening playlist, because it has 400 songs on it, while my actual music library has so many thousands of songs that it’s kind of hard to sort through.
Also there are no repeated artists–except for one track, which is a collaboration and thus counted differently.
Dancing Choose, TV On The Radio Africa, Toto New Killer Star, David Bowie Get Him Back, Fiona Apple Evil Angel, Rufus Wainwright Running Up That Hill, Kate Bush (or the Placebo cover) Owner Of A Lonely Heart, Yes Under Pressure, Queen and David Bowie Starships, Nicki Minaj Cornflake Girl, Tori Amos Oliver’s Army, Elvis Costello Mack The Knife, any version but especially those by Sting and Lyle Lovett Monster, Lady Gaga Icarus, Bastille Enjoy The Silence, Depeche Mode She Blinded Me With Science, Thomas Dolby Use Me, Bill Withers Birdhouse In Your Soul, They Might Be Giants V: The Stand (Man or Machine), The Protomen Elastic Heart, Sia Red Vines, Aimee Mann Sweet Water Kill (The Ocean Song), Rasputina It’s Over Isn’t It, Deedee Magno-Hall (from Steven Universe) Video Killed The Radio Star, The Buggles Everybody Wants To Rule The World, Tears For Fears (or the Ninja Sex Party cover)
also Pixie, my dear, my friend, my sweet mermaid angel, I’m going to fight you.
“You spoiled little bitch! You used every fuckin’ one of us to advance your shitty motherfucking career! You’re a fuckin’ whore!!”
There was no point arguing with Alvey this time…he was absolutely
right. On all counts. True, she’d only suggested they film her
partying, but it was still her idea. She brought this mess on herself.
On them all.
“You wasted my fuckin’ time, put my goddamned gym in jeopardy, and my fuckin’ reputation, the reputation of my fighters, at stake!”
“…I’m sorry…” Her voice cracked, she looked down.
“NO!! You fuckin’ look at me RIGHT FUCKIN’ NOW!!!”
She obeyed, saw the hate in his eyes for her, and blinked away tears.
Alvey took a breath, glared. “You come into my fucking gym again and I’ll fucking kill you myself, Princess,” he growled out, only to explode again. “Ya fuckin’ hear me?!”
Addi nodded mutely.
He straightened up, headed out. “Fuckin’ cunt!!” He punched a dent in the metal towel dispenser as he left.
Addison began to sob uncontrollably.
Not gonna lie, cringed writing this one. Alvey’s incredibly hurt and, when he calms down, I know he’s gonna regret pretty much everything he said. Just as bad, some of what he said are things Addi already thought about herself so, for her, it’s like a confirmation of her worst thoughts from someone she really cares about and looks up to. Also, seriously, it’s just a brutal scene to write. Not sure where this goes next, but I have some ideas. …Read from the beginning with the masterlist!! 😄
Humans don’t know what it means to be a monster. To them, a monster is anything that they don’t understand. They give it this horrific label and treat it as a threat, rejecting, exterminating, slaughtering it into oblivion. Monsters are simply your way of hiding your own ignorance.