Because I’m sick and feeling sentimental and it’s Valentine’s Day so sue me.
Cas gives away love like it costs him nothing.
Dean watches him, watches the gentleness of his touch toward the baby bird they find injured on the side of the road, watches the calming softness of his voice when he speaks to the little girl whose parents were turned into vampires. Love pours out of him easily, naturally. Dean tries to tell himself that he is an angel and that is what angels do, but no, angels are warriors. Cas is different.
Sometimes, after one of these moments, Cas will look toward Dean and Dean will have to catch his breath, caught in the full force of Cas’ easy love. He’ll blush and look away, maybe stammer something about helping Sam clean up from the hunt, and escape from Cas’ gaze.
Because Dean, well, Dean holds his love close. He has built something up around his heart, trying to protect himself, and now the thought of taking it down and letting all the love he has inside spill out terrifies him. What if it is not enough to save the people he cares about?
But under Cas’ loving eyes, something inside him cracks. This angel, this immortal all-powerful being, can look at him, a broken scarred man, and not turn away in disgust. In fact, Cas smiles and reaches out, taking Dean’s hand.
“You okay?” he murmurs.
“Yeah,” Dean says gruffly. “I just, uh… You mean a lot to me, man.”
The smile on Cas’ face softens, understanding, and Dean feels his throat tighten inexplicably. He doesn’t deserve this unconditional love that shines from Cas’ eyes. He tries to pull away and put his walls back up, as usual, but Cas tugs him back in with a squeeze of his hand.
i’m back on the set and i met misha again and talked to him
mishas voice is so cute
its almost 2 am i cant believe ik fucking doing this
I MET MY SUNSHJNE 3 TIMES IN ONE DAY???? THE FUCK???? IMCRHJNG SI HARD?
HE CAME OUT AND HE WAS LIKE “YOU’RE STILL OUT HERE?” AND EVERYONE WAS
LIKE “YEAH” AND HE SAID “GO HOME! GO TO BED” AND WE ALL LAUGHED AND I WAS LIKE “IM STILL KIND OF IN SHOCK BECAUSE YOU’RE….HERE” AND I LIKE
GESTURED AT HIM AND HE WAS LIKE “I AM HERE” AND THEN I SAID “I MEAN YOU’RE LJKE MY FAVOURITE PERSON EVER SO” AND HE WAS LIKE “WHAT”
AND HIS VOICE WENT A LITTLE HIGHER AND CAME OVER AND HUGGED ME. HE WAS SO WARM AND HE SMELT SO GOOD AND I’M FUCKING CRYING I CANT BELIEVE THAT JUST HAPPENED. THEN HE HAD TO ACTUALLY GO OFF THE SET BECAUSE THEY WERE FINISHED FILMING AND I’M SO SAD I MISS THEM ALREADY
6:00 pm vs 2:00 am
I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO HUGGED MISHA CAUSE HE HAD TO GO QUICKLY BFNXND OH MY GOD
okay goodnight i’ll leave you with this picture of misha and his soup
Hey guys! I just really want to say how sorry I am for being gone for so long. School has really been kicking my butt and dance has been crazy busy and I start Drivers Ed this coming week and I’m freaking out a lot. So I really hope you’ll forgive me and wait a little while longer for me. I love you all so much! Hope you have a beautiful day!