People think that fangirls are bubbly, silly, and overly happy and hysterical teenagers when in reality were the complete opposites. It’s not all rainbows and unicorns, we deal with depression and suicide and eating disorders. We deal with rejection and loss and pain. We deal with hours of hell in school with people we didn’t wish to be with. Fangirls aren’t fangirls just because they’re naturally happy people, they’re fangirls because it’s actually one of the only sources of happiness they have left.
Prompt: You are in desperate need of a computer, and your good friend, Jack Maynard, lends you his. What you find, is a dirty little secret of his most recent open tab.
A/N: Ok, because this is a multi fandom account, and Jack Maynard is the love of my life, I felt like a needed to write a little smutty drabble on my favorite Youtuber. I really like this prompt that I came up with, and Jack is too hot to not through smut into the imagines I write about him. And, the world needs a bit more of rough Jack Maynard smut anyways. I hope you enjoy me finally updating!
You bursted through the door of your close friends Jack, Josh, and Conor’s flat, tossing your purse to the floor and waltzed through your almost ‘second home’. You padded into the living space, seeing a single boy sprawled along the couch with his eyes glued to his phone screen.
“Ello Jack!” You greeted the blond haired boy, leaning over the cushions to tousle his hair teasingly.
You treated the three that occupied this flat as though they were your brothers, goofing off and irritating them beyond belief. Though, they always enjoyed having your company and rarely complained about your aggravating attitude towards them. If anything, it was a good balance to have you around and liven up their lives just slightly. And since you lived alone, the silence causes you to slink away to their flat on a regular day basis to find some comfort in having other bodies around. Jack shot you a glare as he ran his fingers through his now mussed locks.
“Hi Y/N.” He muttered in return, having some decency to acknowledge your presence after your obnoxious actions.
“Are Josh or Conor around?” You cocked your head to the side, wondering why the flat was overtaken with silence when it was usually bustling about with rowdy boys.
“They’re out. Dunno where, but won’t be home until late.” He responded, gaze still latched onto his screen.
“May I use your computer? Mine is a wreck and I need to do a couple tasks for work.” You questioned him, but already rushed off to his room before he could respond with allowing you to or not, only hearing a muffled grumble from the lazy boy.
You padded into his room, perching yourself on the stool near his desk to continue your work that was rudely interrupted by your useless computer. Your fingers flipped open the laptop belonging to Jack, only for obscene noises to emit from the speakers. With a squeak, you slammed the computer shut, a rosy pink dusting your cheeks at the sexual moans that spilled from the device. For a moment, you were stricken with embarrassment, wanting to slink out of the flat as soon as you could with the filthy noises you heard and the thought of why that would be the open tab on the blond’s computer. But, that feeling faded when curiosity snatched you up in its’ ensnaring claws. It irked you to reopen the computer and investigate the lewd sounds further.
So, with a rapid pace, you opened the computer once more, muting the noises so that Jack wouldn’t come investigating into his room and catch you red-handed doing this dirty deed of searching through this open tab. Your gaze landed upon a screen of a man, his locks coated with sweat and pinned to his forehead, having his tongue planted along a woman’s clit. With widened lids, you watched intently as his tongue spun circles around her core, the camera panning to the blond woman’s face to gage her reaction to the ministrations happening on her pussy. Blunt ivories caught your bottom lip at the sight, as your eyes flicked up to the search bar that caught your rapt attention. The words ‘Daddy Kink’ were typed into the pornography site’s search bar, and that caused a hysterical laugh to escape your throat. Jack Maynard has a daddy kink? Oh, this is golden material to get under his skin once more. You quickly paused the video and skipped back into the living room where Jack was still laying down, unmoving as he scrolled through Instagram. You flopped down on the chair adjacent to him, placing your chin onto your fist as you grinned over at him, the dirty information itching to spill out of you mouth at any second.
“What?” He eyed you curiously, wondering why you are acting like such a dork and gazing at him oddly.
“Oh nothing, just saw something quite interesting.” Your grin stretched even wider, if that was possible, and Jack rested his phone on his chest to look at you, brow arched as he waited you to spill what you were on about.
“I was on your computer, and noticed a fascinating video was open.” You rambled on, not exactly touching on what you were so giddy about.
You noted that Jack shifted his position so he was sitting up more, a look of horror flashing across his features as he slowly caught on to your story.
“You did not…” His eyes were wide with fear at the thought of you searching through his stash of porn that he accidentally still had up on his dash.
“I can’t believe you have a daddy kink!” You finally hollered, delving into a fit of uncontrollable giggles.
Jack just groaned, shoving his face into his hands out shame. He didn’t even want to look at you now that you knew his dirty little secret.
“Y/N, why’d you have to look through my stuff!?” He yelled with exasperation, a deep crimson flush crawling up his neck and face.
“I’m sorry, but it was just too good Jack!” You got out through your snickering, clutching onto your stomach as it started to ache in pain at the amount of laughing.
“Not fucking cool bro.” He huffed, crossing his arms over his chest as he fumed silently, still locking eyes with you as he focused on the window to the outside world, too humiliated to look at you.
“Aw, don’t pout daddy.” You poked at him, throwing in the silly word just to irk him once again.
His eyes darted towards you in response to that name you gave him, nostrils flaring as he blinked a couple of times.
“Y/N.” His tone was laced with warning, as though he didn’t want you to call him that.
“Oh, sorry daddy.” You were tossed into another fit of laughter at his reaction.
“I’m serious Y/N, don’t call me that.” He ground out, jaw clenched harshly as he eyed you carefully.
“Ok, ok, I won’t… daddy.” And that was all it took for him to jump out of his seat and pin you again the chair, his arms placed on either side of you so you couldn’t escape, gaze latched onto yours as he heaved through his nose.
“I said don’t call me that. Unless you want to get me hard, which I expect you to fix.” His eyes flickered between both of yours, looking to you expectantly.
It was as though he so desperately wanted that word to tumble past your lips once more. Your breaths intermingled in this oddly intimate moment, your eyes searching his clouded ocean irises. You could feel the heat radiating off of him as her towered over your enraptured body, your tongue darting out and flicking over your bottom lip as the two of you relished in the sexual tension resonating between you both. You were in a pit of astonishment at his words, never expecting such explicit things to be directed your way, but it made your legs clench together and your heart to stumble over itself. You only viewed Jack in a light of a close friend and a brother, seeing him at his strangest and goofiest times to never eye him with attraction, but this was different. It wasn’t like you were inches away from your best friend, but from a gorgeous boy that had the urge to take you right then and there. You were too caught up in this pool of lust and yearning to even understand the next few words you uttered.
“But I like calling you that, daddy.” Your tone dropped an octave, the word not being uttered to tease and mock your best friend, but to have this incredibly attractive man pin you to this chair and fuck you into oblivion.
That seemed to cause something to snap within the blond boy, face rushing towards you as he captured your lips with his in a heated kiss. One of his hands found a resting spot along your collarbone, thumb gently pressing into your windpipe while his lips stole the air directly from your lungs. It was a hungry kiss, teeth clashing and tongues intertwining rapidly. He yanked you from your sitting position to now shove you aggressively against the nearby wall. Your head smacked against the wall, causing you to wince, but you were so caught up in the sweet taste of Jack’s mouth and his hands touching your bare skin to care about your throbbing head. As the boy sucked harshly on your tongue, his fingers tugged at your jeans, hastily trying to get them down your legs. With a little assistance from you, your jeans were now discarded on the floor and his lips found a new destination along the hollow of your throat, suckling on the exposed skin there, leaving spindling marks in his wake.
“Jack.” You sighed, fingers intertwining with his thick blonde locks, tugging on them gently as he laved at your skin.
“Not my name, princess.” He hummed, pulling away from his attack on your skin to gaze you with droopy eyes and swollen lips.
“Sorry daddy.” You almost cringed at the lewd sounding sentence in this context, the blush once more returning to your face when the full realization of what you two were partaking in crashed over you like a wave.
“Wait, wait Jack.” Your hands that were fiddling with his blond tendrils were now gently shoving against his chest so he would halt his attacks on your neck.
“Hm? What? Are you ok?” Worry pooled in his eyes as he gazed at you in concern, hoping he didn’t bother or hurt you in anyway.
“Yeah, yes, it’s just… Jack, this is weird. We are best friends. Best friends don’t do this.” Your bottom lip was ensnared between your teeth once more, chewing on it out of nervousness for his response.
“Screw being best friends, Y/N. I want you so bad, and I know you want me too.” Honesty dripped from his admittance and damn, if that didn’t soak your panties.
You leapt on him, gathering the dominance reigns into your clutches as you battled his lips. It was more bite, than kiss, the burning urgency causing your head to swirl and heart to throb at the intensity of it all. Your hands curl around his neck, tugging him closer, if that was even possible, your teeth scraping at his lower lip. He snapping back, bruising, grinding your lips against your teeth as he forces his tongue to dip into your mouth. There is a coppery taste that intermingles with the flavor of his saliva, and you couldn’t tell if it was his or yours, but you didn’t let it faze you. By this point, you threw all common sense to the wind, and let this intoxicating boy have his way with you. His fingers tugged at the hem of your shirt, an exasperated sound emitting from him as he tried so desperately to rid you of it. You broke the ravaging kiss to toss your shirt aside, his clothes soon following in return.
“Let me taste you.” Those few words caused chills to race their way down your spine and a warmth pool heavily between your thighs.
“Ugh, yes please.” You groaned out in need, as though you would tumble into a pit of insanity if his tongue wasn’t on you in the next few seconds.
He dropped to his knees at your plead, eager to follow through with his request. As his fingertips danced along the waistband of your not-so-sexy panties, seeing as you weren’t fully prepared for this encounter, his lips grazed along your protruding hipbone, barely touching the skin along there. Goosebumps trailed along behind each scrape of his delicious lips as he settled between your thighs. This was not the time for him to tease you with delicate kisses placed along your thighs and hips, so close to where you were throbbing for him, but yet, so far away.
“Jack, come on.” You hissed, impatient with his dragging kisses around your pulsing centre.
“Mm, princess, wrong name.” He hummed against your stomach, fingertips gently brushing along your clothed clit.
“D-daddy, come on. I need you.” You were past the point of frustration, and that about pushed you past you breaking point as you glowered down at the boy.
With those words, Jack ripped off your panties, the shreds tumbling to the floor as he finally, thankfully, delved his tongue into your dripping pussy. Your breath was stolen from you in that moment as his lips encased your clit and gave it a harsh suck. As he nestled himself between your thighs, it was like he was meant to be placed there. Like this was eventually going to occur and he finally found his favorite location to be placed, ravaging your core. Ecstasy beyond anything you’ve ever experienced spread through your entire being while he licked, sucked, and kissed places you’ve never knew could cause such pleasure. Your steady breaths’ grew to you heaving, gulping in the chilled air surrounding you too as though you were drowning in the bliss of his mouth on you. As his lips nipped and suckled at your clit, his fingers danced along the entrance of you, a single finger entered inside of you. Miserable squeaks and cries tumbled past your lips as your eyes clenched shut out of the spiraling pleasure that this boy gave you. As his finger curled and plunged in the depths of your centre, you felt your stomach tighten and spindle itself into a multitude of knots, an orgasm fast approaching.
“Daddy, I’m, I’m about to-” Your warning was immediately cut off by Jack removing himself from between your legs, a growl of disappointment leaving you as your orgasm tampered off.
“What the fuck?” You narrowed your eyes at the blond youtuber, watching him rise to your feet, your juices smeared along his swollen lips.
“I can’t wait any longer, I need to be inside of you.” He snarled out, dropping his boxers to reveal his hardened and wanting member.
Your gaze was caught on the thick cock that he sported, tongue flickering along your lips at the sight. You decided your lost orgasm was worth him fucking you into oblivion. As he turned to search through his wallet for a well needed condom, you unclipped your bra from your chest, standing before Jack fully naked for the first time. As he spun on his heel to return to taking you as his, his jaw seemed to unhinge from his mouth, eyes drinking in your nude body. For a split second, your self-consciousness seeped back into your mind, and you moved to cover yourself before the blond’s words stopped you.
“Damn, you are so fucking gorgeous.” He groaned, rolling the condom smoothly onto his length as his eyes returned to yours.
A grin spread across your lips at the compliment, sauntering towards him, hips swinging slightly as you slung your arms around his neck.
“I need you to fuck me, right now.” You stated, fingers fiddling with the hair along the back of his neck.
He didn’t need to hear anything else escape your full and delicious lips as he gripped onto your hips, hoisting you up so your slender legs could wrap themselves around his waist. His lips attached to yours once more, though, this kiss was sweeter than the one before. Your lips waltzed along with one another, his tongue dipping between your lips, exploring your mouth as though this would be the last time he ever could be this intimate with you and he wanted to remember each part of you. As his cock plunged into you, a drawn out moan escaped your throat, and was gulped down by Jack’s mouth. The kiss grew with passion and intensity as his hard member dragged along within you, hitting each of the right spots. Your nails tenderly ran along his rippling shoulder muscles, a soft gasp emitting from him at the slight pain caused from your action. He rocked his hips at a languid rhythm, the intense and raging moment you guys were partaking in earlier changing into an emotional and sweet occurrence. This wasn’t a lust filled moment between you two, but something more. Something that meant more than just fucking.
“Jack, I’m close.” You signaled to your friend, as his thrusts picked up their pace slightly to bring you closer to tumbling over the edge.
“Me too.” He hummed, a hand tailing down the length of your body and fervently rubbed circles along your sensitive bundle of nerves.
You chased the high that was millimeters away, moans echoing through the barren apartment as you were tossed into the pit of your orgasm. As your legs trembled from the intensity of it, Jack followed closely behind as your walls clenched around him. His thrusts allowed the two of you to come off of your highly slowly, dragging out the earth shattering pleasure that caused you to see white and your eyes to roll into the back of your head. Soon, he pulled out off of him, gently placing you on the floor. You gripped onto his bicep as your quivering legs were untrustworthy in this moment.
“Wow.” Was all you could let out, chest heaving from intensity of what had just occurred.
“That was…” Jack trailed off, not knowing how to follow up with that world crumbling sex.
“That was amazing.” You admitted fully, eyes catching his as you glanced up at him.
A grin tugged along his puffy lips, nodding his head in agreement. A peaceful silence settled between the two as you cleaned up your mess.
“So, what now?” You questioned, perching yourself next to the boy on the couch after a well deserved shower, his shirt draped along your naked body.
He tugged you closer, so that you were nestled up against him, fingers running along your arm as he thought for a moment.
“I don’t know.” His shoulders rose and fell in a shrug, really not knowing what would occur after this.
“I still can’t believe you have a daddy kink.” You snickered once more, looking up at him as he shot you a glare.
Summary: Joe and Reader are making a yoga video for his channel and Joe makes Reader’s knees go weak. Literally.
Joe had practically begged me to make a video with him. He told me it was yoga video, like the ones he had made with Oli.
We went shopping in the morning for matching yoga clothes.
“Ooh Joe, look at those, they’re cute!” I exclaimed while pointing at a multi-colored tank top and black leggings with the same pattern around the waist band.
“OH MY GOD! THAT’S SO FETCH!” shouted my boyfriend, referencing the film we watched the night before.
I laughed loudly at Joe and grabbed 2 sets of the leggings and shirt. Joe snatched 2 pairs of trainers that were similar to the outfit. Joe found a bandanna with the same pattern printed on it and I found a similar patterned scrunchie.
Joe payed for it all, much to my dismay and we walked back to his apartment where we will film the video.
We got changed into out new outfits.
“Oh wow, Joe, you look glamorous!” I exclaimed to the boy in front of me clad in a females yoga outfit and headband.
“Why thank you m’lady,” Joe pronounced in a posh accent, “You look absolutely marvelous!” He finished with a bow.
I giggled and pushed his shoulder, “C’mon you silly idiot.” I joked.
“Right you stay out of shot for a minute, honey.” Joe grabbed my shoulders and dragged me out of shot of the camera. Caspar was behind the camera and gave us a thumbs up to say I wasn’t in shot.
Joe did his intro, “and with me today, is…. Y/N!!” Joe grabbed my arm and hauled me over to his side. I stumbled over my feet and fell into his chest and we both tumbled to the wooden floor.
We both hysterically snickered as we rolled on the floor.
We got into the video and Caspar showed the final and most difficult pose. The stronger person is on their back with their feet up and the lighter person is sat the stronger persons feet with their legs up and they’re holding onto their own ankles.
We first tried to Joe as the one on the floor but I couldn’t keep balance on his feet so we ended up trying Joe sat on my feet.
Joe and I shared about the same weight but I was slightly shorter than him, so I didn’t know if I could carry his weight.
“Right, you ready Y/N?” Joe asked cautiously and looked over his shoulder to glance down at me, to which i gave him a thumbs up and a grin.
Joe shuffled onto my feet but with his feet still plastered onto the floor.
His feet slowly raised off the floor and he quickly attempted to grasp his ankles, but miserably failed as he lost balance and plummeted to the ground where I was. Joe landed right on top of me and we both grunted in pain.
“Sorry princess,” Joe apologized.
“It’s okay Joseph,” I softly replied while I ran my hands in his hair. My fingertips grazed his bandanna which was covering part of his hair and part of his forehead. I smiled and reached up to place to fully into his hair. “You literally make my knees go weak.”
The goofy boy smiled down at me and laid his forearms on the floor, beside my head.
“We are so goals right now Y/N,” Joe trailed off as his fingers played with the Y/H/C strands of my hair.
“Agreed,” I muttered quickly as my head raised of the floor and met his lips in a sweet, quick kiss. I pulled away from the kiss and scanned Joe’s face to see him with his eyes closed and eyebrows raised as if in pure surprise and pleasure. His eyes shot open once he realized he lost contact of my lips.
“Oh no, I don’t think so darling,” and in an instant, Joe’s head dipped down to mine and forcefully kissed my lips. The kiss was getting more heated, when suddenly a cough interrupted the moment. Joe reluctantly removed his lips from mine and looked up, his ocean blue eyes meeting Caspar’s baby blue orbs, who left the room before we kissed.
“Am I intruding?” Caspar dumbly asked, to which I laughed and rolled my eyes.
“No, of course not, Cas.” Joe sarcastically muttered.
“Oh ok, let’s carry on with the video, ladies.” Caspar mussed playfully.
Joe stared at his friend with shock and playful disgust. I turned his head towards me and gave him a quick kiss on the lips, “We’ll carry on later, I promise,” I whispered in his ear.
Joe gulped and smirked and shot up off me to finish the video faster. He hauled me up with him, whining,
I have been best friends with the Maynard brothers since I was born so I obviously was friends with the buttercream squad. I lived in a big flat with Conor, Jack, Josh and Casper sometimes stays the night.
My room is next to Jacks down the same hallway and we share a bathroom that connects to our rooms. Conor is in the other hallway across the living room and kitchen with Josh but their bedrooms are across from each with the bathroom on the other side of Conor’s bedroom.
I usually wake up way before the boys at around 6:30 but lately I’ve noticed Jack is up a lot more before me. I’m getting really worried about him so I go talk to Conor.
“Hey Conor” I say as I knock on the door. “It’s open” I walk in and he’s laying on his bed playing on his phone. “Hey Con I was wondering if you know what’s going on with Jack I’m worried about him. He is almost always up before I am now and his eyes are always red and getting dark circles under them. He looks like he hasn’t slept in days and he is being weirdly clingy always coming with me whenever I go out and walking very close to me not that I mind I’m just beginning to worry." "I’m sure he’s gonna be fine y/n you just need to talk to him he really likes you and will respond better if you talk to him.” “Ok thanks.”
I left Conor’s room and since it was almost midnight I changed into one of Jacks old t-shirts and went to bed around the middle of the night I heard my door open and close a few seconds later. I looked to see it was nearly four am. I crept into the hall to see Jacks door open. “Jack” I whispered. “Oh shit I’m sorry I knew that would wake you up I’m sorry I just came to check on you” he said.
I sat next to him on the bed and grabbed his hands and looked at him. “Jack I want you to tell me what’s wrong I know you aren’t getting any sleep and that you are not letting me out of your sight I need you to tell me what’s wrong so I can help you.” I looked at him expectantly and he sighed and told me what was going on. “I’ve been having really bad nightmares about you disappearing and it’s all my fault and I can’t find you while you’re screaming my name for help, when I wake up I just can’t breath.” Jack said between sobs and his voice cracked at the end.
“Oh Jack Love you should have just come in. Nightmares don’t make you weak it just goes to show your caring side darling no one is going to judge you. I’m right here for you when you have nightmares you just crawl right into my bed and we’ll cuddle. And if you feel like you’re going to have a nightmare or don’t feel like sleeping alone just come into my room and so you can hold me and keep me safe, ok?” I told him.
“How did I get so lucky to have someone like you in my life you just know how to make anyone feel better about everything.” He hesitated and shifted where he was sitting before he spoke again. “Will you stay? Please for me?” He practically begged in a quiet voice while nervously looking at me.
“Of course Jack anytime don’t worry about asking just tell me I’m sleeping I here or your sleeping with me anytime.” I turned on my side and crawled under the blankets with him as I pulled him over and held home close to me with our legs tangled together.
I never went to sleep after that I just layed there and looked at him. When he started to fidget or whimper I ran my fingers through his hair and rubbed circles on his bare back to calm him down.
Requested - “Could you do a Joe sugg/Zoe sugg imagine where joe notices how skinny his girlfriend is and how she doesn’t eat/always finds excuses not to eat so asks Zoe to speak to her. Zoe speaks to her and she admits that she might have a problem?? ❤️❤️❤️Thankyou so much”
Warnings: may be a bit sad.
You, joe and zoe grew up together and somewhere along the way you and your family left for 7 year’s and you never saw zoe or joe again.
After leaving for 7 year’s everything went horribly wrong. Your parents had got a divorce 2 year’s after you left your home town.
You decided to live with your mother and had never seen your father again after that day.
You mother then got engaged to another man 2 year’s later and he hated you.
He made you feel so useless and ashamed of your body.
when you were 20 year’s old and joe was 22 year’s old, you found each other again and you fell in love with joe as he fell in love with you.
3 years later and you although were happy to be with joe your mind never left what that horrible man had said to you
“Your so fat.” “Loose some weight” “no wonder you font have a boyfriend, your so fat”
What he said left a mark on you and you often found ways to not eat ever again after that
You and joe hadn’t been intimate for quite a while now as you felt you were still fat and didn’t want him to see that side of you.
As you got out of the shower one morning you walked into your shared room with joe and caught a glimpse of yourself in the mirrior you had in the room
Dropping the towel you stood there and looked at your pale and fragile body
Although you were way too skinny, you just couldn’t see that and in your mind you were still fat.
You were too busy picking at your skin to notice that joe was leaned against the doorframe of you room with sadness and tears in his eye’s
“Y/n….” joe said softly and quietly
Quickly turning around to see him you bent down to pick the towel up and wrap around yourself
“get out. Get out” you said frantically running to push him out and close the door
Joe banged on the door asking to come in with pain in his voice as you slid down the door and cried
Joe continued to bang a few more times before he realised that you weren’t coming out
Quickly running downstairs he ran into the kitchen and quickly grabbed his phone and dialed his sister’s number
Zoe picked up on the firat ring and could hear the deep breathes of her brother and immediately asked what was wrong onky for joe to craoak and start to cry heavily
“Please come over zoe now” joe said with heavy tears falling frantically down his face as he raced back up stairs and sat at the top of them and watched the door you were behind
“What’s wrong joe?!” Zoe frantically asked and joe could hear that she was moving around and getting her shoes on
“How could i have been so stupid not to know zoe” joe whispered in the phone
“What are you on about? Whats going on joe?” Zoe asked as joe heard a car start
“You know what, just breath and ill be there i 5 minutes” zoe said as she hung up
‘How could i have been so blind to see that she had a problem and had been starving herself?’ I thought to myself as i got ip and went to our door
Gripping the door handle i turned it onky to realise she had locked me out
I sighed and knocked
“Y/n?…baby please let me in” i said as my breath got caught
I got the response of silence and that worried me
“Y/n?…..” i asked louder this time
“Go away…” i hear a faint reply and i could tell she was sitting down leaning against the door
Sliding down the door i leaned my head back and breathed as tears began to fall again
“Please baby……i want- i want to help…..” i didn’t know what to say
Silance filled the air once again untill a knock was heard on the front door
I was lucky that my sister and her husband were in town as i walked down to open the door
“What’s going on Joseph sugg.” Zoe said as she barged in with alfie following closely behind
She was about to start having ago at me When she saw my tear stained face she stopped
With a soft frown on her face she ran and wrapped me in her arm’s
“Where’s y/n? And whats going on?” She asked softly
“She’s in our room….” i could barley speak as i just cried in my sister’s arm’s
She patted my back and held me in her arm’s as she shhh’d me calming me down like she used to when we were little
Walking us over into the living room she sat me down on the couch next to her as alfie pulled a chair up and sat in front of us
“What happened joe?” Alfie asked softly as his hand held out a tissue
“She’s been starving herself…..” i started
“How could i have been so stupid zoe….ive been with her nearly 4 years and not once did i notice anything was wrong untill a few weeks ago….”
“I just saw her…..she was so- so skinny and pale…..she looked like she was about to break if she took one more step….” i just cried as i went to get up i was pulled back down
“I don’t think you should speak to her right now joe…your not in the right headspace.” Alfie said
“Please talk to her zo….” i asled as i turned to my sister with hope
“Of course” i said to joe as i got up and whipped the few stray tears that ahd fallen from my face
“She’s locked the door…” i heard my brother craoak as alfie hugged him
“I’ve got it…” i said as i pushed myself up the stairs
Standing in front of my brother’s room i knocked on the door softly
“Y/n….its zo….please open the door….” i said softly
I heard movement against the door
“Go away…” i heard a weak reply
Sliding down so i was eye level with the handle i pulled a Bobby pin out of my hair and placed it against it and did my work
After 2 minutes i felt the door unlock and high fived myself mentally
Pushing the door open slightly i slid in through the gap i ahd created and then closed it again
My brother was right…she looked like she would break immediately if she got up from her spot on the floor
“Oh y/n….” i gasped as i bent down near her and cried
“Why?…..” i asked her as she looked at me with dull eye’s and a tear stained pale face
“I was too fat….he said i was….” i stopped and got angry
“Who? Joe?” I asled as i got up and was ready to go after my brother
“No…” i ket go of the door handle and bent back down
“Who then?…” i asked softly as i pushed some hair behind her ear
“My stepdad….” she whispered so quietly that i alsmost missed it as she started crying again
“He said i was too big….that i would never get a boyfriend and no one would like me if i didn’t loose weight…..” she cried
“That’s not true y/n and you know that…..”
I moved so i was against the door and next to her as i pulled her into a hug
“What he said is not true….i mean look you’ve been with joe for what? Nearly 4 years now…and you have alfie and i…along with jim and tanya, jack, Connor, casper and maddie, josh and oli…youve got a lot more people than you think….we dont think your fat and we never have…” i began felling her slightly shake
Getting up i pulled her up softly with me and pulled her over to her wardrobe and pulled out a top and trackpants
Turning to her i got her to drip her towel and helped her into her clothes seeing as she already had underwhere on
“Look..” i said pulling her gently so we were standing infront of the mirrior
“I have a problem…i know zo….but i can’t stop…” she whispered as she looked down
“Your all going to leave me now arnt you…” she asked and that broke my heart
“Absolutely not. Listen just because that barstad of a stepfather of yours said all those horrible thing’s….that don’t make it true…yes it is not healthy to be this skinny and it is a slight problem but that does not mean we cant fix it…and we will love you no matter what…joe…he will love you no matter what, he’s loved your for quite some time now y/n and i doubt he will leave you…even if you were black, short, asian, skinny or fat we would still love you no matter what but this state your in. Its not healthy and i will do everything in power to help you And to show you that we are here no matyer what. Your apart of the family y/n….your a sugg and your apart of the gang and we all love you…we always have….and we always will. So dont you dare say any of that again. He’s no longer your family or apart of it. We are.” By the end of that she was on the floor with me in my arm’s as we cried
I soon felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to see alfie and joe with sad and teary eye’s as they looked at y/n and i
Feeling y/n move slightly i looked down at her as she got up and ran into joe’s open arm’s and cried with joe as joe wrapped her up in a warm embrace
Alfie helped me up and hugged me as i hugged him back and soon we felt fragile and small ars wrap around us
“Thank you zo…..” i turned out of alfies grip and hugged y/n tight but not too tight
“Please just remember that we are here now and we are not going anywhere at all. Tomorrow were going out and were going to help you get back on your feet again.” I said as i held her
Soon i felt two more pairs wrap around mine and y/n’s body
“All of us. We are family and we help each other no matter what.” Joe said as we all smiled at her
“Don’t forget about us!” We hear a voice say as we felt more arms wrap around us
Soon the whole gang was here and we were all wrapped up in a big hug.
“The love of a family is lifes greatest blessing”
Joe had forgot that the bbq he planned was today and forgot that he had given the boys a spare key incase you were wondering how the rest gor there 😂😊
Being best friends with the guys in the buttercream squad can really wear a person out especially all the parties.
Right now I’m at a night club with the them. Everyone is getting a little drunk. After years with these guys I have a high tolerance for alcohol so I order a another shot of tequila. Some random guys comes and sits beside me.
He is really attractive and I’m a little tipsy so I thought I could have some fun with him. “Hey you here alone?” I ask in a flirty voice. “Ya my girlfriend just broke up with me so I’m kinda on the rebound what about a pretty lady such as yourself?” He replies.
I’m starting to feel bad about flirting with him because I actually have a really big crush on Josh that only Casper knows about. He tries to tell me I have a chance but right now I’m just going to forget about him and have some fun. So I reply back with “I’m here with some friends. What kinda girl is dumb enough to dump a handsome man such as yourself?”
“A bitch that’s who. You wanna dance?” He queried “Sure” I giggled back. He grabs my hand and leads me to the dance floor. I we started dancing really close to each other and getting very touchy. I swear I can feel eyes burning into my soul but I can’t find who it is.
I was watching y/n with that stupid jackass with his hands all over her. I HATED it. I know she’s not mine but I want her to be and all the boys tease me about it. All I can think about right now is him touching and and I’m shaking with rage.
Casper suddenly pops up out of nowhere. “Man you got to calm down just go over there and get her she’s drank a lot more tonight then usual she’s just looking for someone cause you won’t make a move. I promise she really likes you man she’s just trying to forget cause she thinks she can’t have you. Now go get her.”
Still pissed and a little buzzed I thank Casper for the pep talk and walk over to her and Jackass.
The alcohol was really starting to get in my system when someone came up behind me a said in an angry voice “Hey dude get lost she’s drunk and you shouldn’t take advantage of her like that.” I immediately recognized that voice as Josh. The guy looked ready to tell him off until he looked up to see how tall and mad Josh was so he said bye and ran off.
I turn around to see Josh with a very angry look on his face as he scolds me and pulls me really close until the guy was on the other side of the bar. I may have been kinda drunk but I swear he looked jealous. When he finally let me go I spoke up “was Joshua jealous?” “I was not I just didn’t like him with his hands touching you and trying to pull you closer” “josh that’s jealous” i deadpanned.
“Come on I’m taking you back to my place I don’t want you driving home this drunk.” He said. I didn’t say anything back I just followed him, he told Conor we were going back to the flat and picked me up. I didn’t say anything about it Josh does this a lot especially when he’s buzzed or drunk because he gets REALLY touchy.
When we got back to the flat I had a headache forming josh gave me a t shirt and a pair of drawstring sweatpants for me to wear and went to make some tea for us to help with my headache. I got changed and took off my bra cause I didn’t want to sleep in it and figured Josh wouldn’t care. I threw my clothes in the wash and sat down on a stool at the island in their flat.
Josh handed me some tea to sober us up, and sat next to me. I leaned into his side and he put his arm around me. I got an idea and decided to go with it before I lost all my drunkenness and got to scared I leaned up and whispered in his ear “I’m so glad you got jealous and possessive and scared that guy away.” I leaned back so I could see his face and bit my lip suggestingly and added “it was really hot”
Josh turned away and blushed before he answered with “God you really must be drunk.” “ Josh I want you to look at me I’m not drunk I really have liked you for a long time and seeing you get possessive really turned me on.”
His eyes widened and I thought he didn’t feel the same way. I was about to turn around and walk away when he pushed me up against the wall.
“Y/n I have loved you for so long and have waited for this day but I couldn’t stand his hands all over you because your mine.” Josh said in a really deep voice with his eyes almost black. He kissed me very suddenly and roughly but it was also passionate like I always dreamed it would be.
He whispered “jump” so I obeyed and wrapped my legs around his waist with him hands on my bum. He took me away from the wall and started to walk towards his bedroom while I kissed his neck and nibbled on the sweet spot behind his ear lobe as he moaned. I tried my best to move my hips to create some friction as he tried to open his door he moaned again and I felt him getting harder by the minute.
He finally opened the door and ran to the bed and dropped me while he crawled on very quickly after and attached my neck sucking and nibbling on my sweet spots as he growled in my ear “mine.”
I have never seen him so possessive I don’t know what’s gotten into him but I like it he is usually sweet and kind but he is acting very possessive and rough. I buck my hips and moan some more. Moaning his name he starts kissing down my body until he reaches the hem of my (his) shirt and rips it off of me.
He realizes I don’t have a bra on pretty quick and I blush but soon he just attacks them with kisses and swirls his tongue around one nipple and nibbles it as he massages the other one then switches. The whole time I moan his name in pain and pleasure from his roughness.
I tug his shirt over his head and he undoes his belt and takes off his pants. Leaving me in his sweatpants and him in his boxers. Without skipping a beat he pulls my (again his) pants down and slides them off my legs. He kissed in between my thighs and spreads my legs apart. He very slowly pulls off my underwear with his teeth and then his tongue finds my clit. I moan and he says “who makes you feel like this y/n who”
Barely able to think straight be cause of the pleasure he was giving me I managed to say “only you josh” “That’s right baby your mine and only mine” he growls as he eats me out.
He comes up and leans down and takes off his boxers. His large member flies up and I lowly gasp as he smirks and within seconds he plunges into me and I feel so much pain I bite shoulder and scratch his back. But it quickly turns to pleasure as he thrusts hard and deep into me each time. I starts to scream his name and he starts giving me hickeys all over my body and I scratch his back, sure to leave marks in the morning.
I can feel my orgasm coming and I say “J-josh I-I-I’m gonna” and he says “Cum with me baby and that’s sends me over the edge and he spills with me. He lays there in me and resting on me with his forearms on either side of my head to not put all his weight on me for a few moments until he pulls out and rolls over wiping the sweat off of both our faces.
I whimper at the loss of contact and he pulls me on top of him and I quit. “Y/n I love you and have loved you for a very long time so when that guy started talking to you it made me mad and I got jealous I know you probably feel like this is just a one night stand but I was wondering if you’d be my girlfriend.”
I was astonished he’d asked me “Yes of course Josh I would never just want a one night stand with you I love you and would love to be together.” That night i fell asleep on top of Josh. When i woke up I was super SUPER sore. I rolled off of Josh and groaned really loudly.
This woke up Josh and within a matter of seconds he hovered over me “are you okay” he asked worriedly. “Ya I’m just kinda sore from last night.” “I’m so sorry you should have told me to stop or go easier” he said as he looked at all the bruises and hickeys he left all over you.
He got up and grabbed a pair of boxers and slipped them on. I told him “It’s alrighty baby I had so much fun last night and I don’t regret a thing you shouldn’t either.” He smiled and replied “I don’t deserve you.” And handed me his shirt as I reassured him he does deserve me and I’m the lucky one.
I tried to get up but very quickly fell back down in pain. Josh caught me and apologized again I wish he wouldn’t do that if I was having a bad time I would have told him it was my decision too.
Josh picked me up and carried me to the kitchen and made me breakfast, when Conor and Jack came in.
“Really getting at it last night weren’t you guys.” Conor said and I blushed and hid my face with my hands. Then Jack added “OH JOSH OH JOSH OM MY GAAAAAAAAA JOSH” I’m a really high voice. Josh walked over to me and handed me toast and I thanked him and kissed him.
All the sudden Jack looked at Josh’s back and called Conor over and they gasped and touched his back and he flinched and hissed. I immediately turned him around to see what was wrong and there were deep scratches and dark red marks. “Wow y/n has hickeys and bruises all over her and can’t walk and Josh has got scratches and bite marks on him I didn’t know you guys were so rough.” Conor said
I hid my face in Josh’s neck and apologized profusely. “Baby it’s alright it’s not that bad you can’t even walk!” Josh told me. “Wait really she can’t walk!!?” Jack said surprised and Josh nodded them they highfived to which I just hid my face in Josh’s chest. He carried me to the couch and we lazier around and watched movies all day.