Mum's condition will dictate Day's plans

PGA Tour star Jason Day expects to travel to Augusta, Georgia to start practising for the Masters, but said he could pull still out depending on his mother’s prognosis following surgery for lung cancer.

“Obviously, I’m still nervous because we’re still waiting to see … if it has spread or not,” said Day.

“From there, we have to kind of come up with a game plan whether to go chemo - a form of chemo radiation - or something else.

"It’s still kind of a bit of an emotional time for me,” added Day, whose father died of cancer when he was 12.

“Obviously, I’ve been hanging out with my mum a bit and seeing her and she’s recovering well.

"She’s a tough lady, but it’s hard because I look at her and she’s on the painkillers and all that stuff, what she needs to do to recover.

"But I can’t help but think of my dad when I see her in that situation because when they go through such a traumatic surgery like that it just can be tough.”

Day revealed that his mother, Dening, has cancer after withdrawing from the World Match Play in Austin, last Wednesday.

The world No.3 has said the initial diagnosis came in Australia at the beginning of this year and that she had scheduled surgery in Columbus, Ohio, late last week.

Day said on Monday that doctors deemed the surgery successful, and now the family awaits results of tests to see if cancer is present in Dening Day’s lymph nodes.

“My mum told me not to worry about it,” Day said.

“It’s hard to do that. It’s easy to say … but it’s really, really difficult. So currently I’m scheduled to play Augusta … but if things don’t come back the way we want them, I don’t know what’s going to happen.”

Day said he “hasn’t touched a golf club at all” in the days since joining his joining his mother in Ohio last week.

“It’s very, very difficult to even think about playing golf when a loved one is going through such a traumatic experience,” he said.

“Once I get past this initial stage, hopefully I’ll find some balance and I’ll be able to kind of move on and really focus on getting my game back.

"Unfortunately, I’m human. I like to feel like I’m always on it, I’m always … ready to go and trying to compete and I want to get back to that stage but sometimes it’s very, very difficult.”

Been thinking a lot about my life, everything I’ve been through, everything that’s brought me to this point. Having a big family and being exposed to death a lot from a young age, always going to funerals, then in my adolescence and youth, choosing friends, choosing people to love aside from my family and then losing them too. Burying someone you chose to love, someone you chose to have in your life, especially at such a pivotal moment in life all while watching your mom die of cancer at the exact same time, it does something to you, something very real and harsh and scary but also beautiful in the most fucked up way. And to also deeply love someone at such a young age, to spend four years of your life with them just to find out they’ve cheated on you with everyone you know. So you cheat with the sexy bad boy from down the street thinking it will make you feel better, and it a fucked up way, it does, and end up falling even more in love. Him and I try to make it right, We try to turn our fucked up lives and feelings into something good, something respectable and “normal” just to be sabotaged by everyone around us. Everyone putting pressure and criticizing our every move, as if every couple doesn’t have their issues, why everyone felt the need to be so involved in our lives and our relationship, I only somewhat understand. That on top of all the demons my fiance faces. Addictions and bad memories, bad habits, a fucked up mentality and negative attitude but the biggest heart in the world and a love that runs so deep it makes the ocean look like a puddle, truly. That’s a difficult combination to live with, and only a bull like me can really handle it, just like only a scorpion like him can handle me. During him and my two years apart he was an absolute mess. Complete mess. I couldn’t stand to see him that way, to watch him fall apart knowing no one in his family gave a fuck, knowing they were kicking him while he was down, I couldn’t take that, my two years of peace and solitude were over, time to get back to my crazy ass love. I reached out to him and he admitted to me what I already knew so I sent a message to his mom. Regardless of the relationship her and I had, or how she felt about me, I really didn’t give a fuck I just knew I couldn’t sit back and watch him fall apart anymore. I told her my plan and she helped me put it into motion. Her and her bf made all the moves at that point and helped me get my love back, and for that I will be forever grateful, even thinking about it now makes me teary-eyed. I haven’t been desensitized by society. Life is still a mystical, magical and emotional experience for me. Emotions are not corny, they’re real and honest, and what could be more respectable than that. During those two fucked up years of drugs and homelessness he also had a relationship with a girl we both know. A girl whose child we watched grow up. We watched her give her two year old daughter alcohol and blow marijuana smoke into face several times, we watched that, and he turned around and layed up with this girl. This girl with more issues than he ever thought he had. I feel for her, as a woman knowing what that girl has been through, I can’t help but have compassion. God truly blessed me with this understanding, compassionate heart. Anyway, he had a child with this girl, a beautiful baby girl that now calls me mom. She’s 8 months and she loves me and I love her back. I also love my fiance more than ever before. Our relationship is flourishing. And by societies standards our relationship is probably a bad joke. I always say my life is an episode of Jerry Springer. It makes me laugh and I’m not ashamed because despite all that, it’s been because of the shit we’ve all been through that the three of us are able to look past the bullshit for the love of the babies involved in our big mess. We are able to sit in the same room, break bread together, smoke together, talk and lift each other up for the sake of our innocent babies. Her 7 yr old daughter and my 5 yr old son call each other brother and sister. Everything we do is for them and for Nielly. So they can growing up knowing that even a fucked up family is a good family as long as there’s LOVE, AND RESPECT AND SUPPORT FOR EACH OTHER, without that, you have NOTHING. No amount of money, photos or parties can replace those three imperative things. Because do I wanna go off on her or the condition she has the baby in 98% of the time? Fuck yes I do! But I don’t, because I can’t judge her, I can’t say how I would be if I were in her shoes, I can’t say I wouldn’t be the same way if I lived her life. I’m not God, I can’t judge her, it’s not my place, all I can do is maintain that respect so I can be in Nielly’s life. So I can give Nielly love and guidance, so I can watch her grow and see her smile. 


All walks of life are not for everybody. Do I want a cookie cutter relationship like every other couple? Do I want everything to be exactly by the book, the “right” amount of years, the “right” house, all the same milestones that every “perfect” couple has? No, I don’t. I like my mess. I like my winding road with thorny cactus and poppy plants along the way. I like my obstacles. I like my unconventional life. I like my feelings. I’m engaged. I’m in love. I’m grateful. I’m happy. 

Because @syellowtails wanted to read it

My mother’s first tattoo scarred to puckered ink
A zodiac sign by artist of heavy hand
Taut at the base of her neck in char black
And how she loved it, the irregularities

Her skin felt like pocked drywall in shape of Cancer
She took to ink and needle in celebration
The divorce

My father never knew her skin like that

Her second tattoo healed as it should have.
Color flush, a skull at her chest.

I was fifteen, an unspoken question, another irregularity

her scars healed she thought,
Her second husband, though
Was more wound than bandage
More hurt than love, again

A third time,
She put a mermaid on her thigh,
And gained another child
Sometimes it felt like family

The months she was dying
He slept in the hospital with my grandfather
They camped in a waiting room on fourth floor ICU
She didn’t wake up and even then, it felt like family
With shoulders to weep with, hearts to weep for.

I braved my own ink, flowering over my chest,
A Cancer sign hidden in waves, an irregular hibiscus

My new sister stayed anchored in my arms as our mother died.
We rocked like the ebb of ocean
the machines wheeled away by the faceless
Others crowded the small room, expecting an awful silence
My siblings stood as beacons, who beckoned the rain,
I mentioned she was a mermaid again
And she was gone,
and we hadn’t really known him.

He left scars
Far uglier than than skin side
We lost our mother many times over
We lost each other in the pain we share.


I want to believe
Cellular memory
the hand I held in the hospital was hers
With a sense of mine, and my voice.
I hope she remembered the feeling
of my fingers braiding her hair, even then

I believe in cellular memory
And my lovers remember the feel of my fingers,
Like anemone on ocean, an evolved spark.

The lovers that never were, the girls at school,
the boys who liked my smile.
they remember how their heart felt?

But the scars he left us.
I can trace them like roadways.
I wanted to feel like family
Was beyond death
or blood or the years between us all,
My siblings, as soul stitched as ever.

But he tainted us.
He poisoned the last memories I have of her,
The relationships I have, my brother and sister.
He broke me by design

Genetically the dumb one,
the savant only partially aware of praise,
I hate to think how he made her feel,
How he hurt anyone I loved.

I cheered his death like a tyrant deserves.
I smiled and smoked and fucked into oblivion

When I dream, my mother is alive
But my voice is hoarse and weak, only she can hear me
With this verse, which he revered, I invite his ghost,
I welcome his soul to witness my happiness

alone-in-madness  asked:

Si un acuario te mira todo el tiempo hace 2 años, te busca, habla con sus amigos de vos, se pone nervioso cuando estas cerca pero no te habla o actúa como si no le importaras...que significa?

Es un Acuario con lunar en Libra,Virgo o Cancer un poco nervioso y le atraes Locamente.

O sólo no le interesa y le parece geniales tus amigos.

i want to be on your mouth like a cancer,
clawing at your insides like the cigarette
smoke that follows as you walk by.
i’ve never felt more addicted,
your spores spreading inside of my skin
when all i ever wanted was to
feel you underneath me.
i can’t get enough of you,
writing about the way your hair swallows
the freckles along your shoulder blades
will take up the next year of my life.
you’re the first muse that every made me ache,
a slow burn in my throat that leaves
me lingering at the top of your driveway.
i swear i’d settle for counting your
strained breaths in my sleep.
i know i’ll never have you;
i’m too smooth around the edges,
too put together for someone who
only knows how to love things
when they’re broken.

Day wants to play Masters, depending on mother's prognosis

AVONDALE, La. (AP) – PGA Tour star Jason Day expects to travel to Augusta, Georgia on Friday to start practicing for the Masters, but said he could pull still out of the season’s first major, depending on his mother’s prognosis following surgery for lung cancer last week.

“Obviously, I’m still nervous because we’re still waiting to see … if it has spread or not,” said Day, who spoke Monday by video conference set up by organizers of the PGA Tour’s Zurich Classic in late April. “From there, we have to kind of come up with a game plan whether to go chemo - a form of chemo radiation - or something else.

’‘It’s still kind of a bit of an emotional time for me,” added Day, whose father died of cancer when he was 12. “Obviously, I’ve been hanging out with my mom a bit and seeing her and she’s recovering well. She’s a tough lady, but it’s hard because I look at her and she’s on the pain killers and all that stuff, what she needs to do to recover.

’'But I can’t help but think of my dad when I see her in that situation because when they go through such a traumatic surgery like that it just can be tough.”

Day revealed that his mother, Dening, has cancer after withdrawing from the Dell Technologies Match Play in Austin, Texas, last Wednesday. Day has said the initial diagnosis came in Australia at the beginning of this year and that she had scheduled surgery in Columbus, Ohio, late last week.

Day said Monday that doctors deemed the surgery successful, and now the family awaits results of tests to see if cancer is present in Dening Day’s lymph nodes.

“My mom told me not to worry about it,” Day said. “It’s hard to do that. It’s easy to say … but it’s really, really difficult. So currently I’m scheduled to play Augusta … but if things don’t come back the way we want them, I don’t know what’s going to happen.”

Day said he “hasn’t touched a golf club at all” in the days since joining his joining his mother in Ohio last week.

“It’s very, very difficult to even think about playing golf when a loved one is going through such a traumatic experience,” Day said. “Once I get past this initial stage, hopefully I’ll find some balance and I’ll be able to kind of move on and really focus on getting my game back.

’'Unfortunately, I’m human. I like to feel like I’m always on it, I’m always … ready to go and trying to compete and I want to get back to that stage but sometimes it’s very, very difficult.”

@mxthermaggie​ liked for a starter. // inspired by this

“We had plans!!” She yells, not because she’s angry with the other. Because she is angry with herself. Warm tears runs down her cheeks as her heart beats fast in her chest. “We we’re supposed to have a life together! To marry and have children… And now I ruined it.” During the last couple of months Bella had gotten really sick, so one day they drove to the doctors and they told her she had cancer in her bones. “Now, we won’t have that.” 

Senators goalie Craig Anderson nominated for Masterton trophy

Ottawa Senators goalie Craig Anderson has been nominated for the 2016-17 Bill Masterton Memorial Trophy.

The trophy is awarded annually to the NHL player who best exemplifies the qualities of perseverance, sportsmanship and dedication to ice hockey.

The Ottawa chapter of the Professional Hockey Writers Association announced the choice Monday, saying in a statement that Anderson has had a strong season despite his wife Nicholle being diagnosed with a rare form of throat cancer in late October.

Anderson left the team briefly, but returned for an Oct. 30 match in Edmonton after backup goalie Andrew Hammond suffered a groin injury. He made 37 stops in the 2-0 shutout win.

“Since then, it’s been a difficult rollercoaster ride for Anderson and his family. He left the team in early December to be at Nicholle’s side while she underwent treatment for her cancer at a New York-based facility and came back after the all-star break,” the statement reads.

“On March 11, his 4-2 victory over the Colorado Avalanche allowed him to set the franchise record for wins with 147 which moved him one ahead of Patrick Lalime (146), plus Anderson played the 500th game of his NHL career on Saturday in Montreal. Through everything that’s happening away from the ice, the rink has looked like it has served as an escape for Anderson.”

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10 Facts About Me

Tagged by @radroller, yay!

1. Silly zodiac things: I was born in Year of the Dog. My sun sign is Cancer and my moon sign is Aries.

2. People call me a hard worker, but the truth is, I think I’m extremely lazy. I’m easily distracted all the time, very disorganized, and I have next to no discipline. It’s something I’m trying to work on and not bring myself down for.

3. I have an extremely eclectic music taste. What I listen to randomly depends on how I want to feel, what I want to imagine, and if I have a specific project in mind.

4. I was born 2 months premature at 1 pound, 11 ounces. It was basically a miracle that I lived and am an intact human. Woohoo!

5. I’ve never broken a bone, I suspect it’s because I’m literally made of rubber bands. My fingers are weirdly long and flexible and I’m only recently finding out that they’re not entirely normal. LOL. I’m actually insecure of my hands because I think they look creepy, but I’m tired of that, so nowadays I think they look cool.

6. I’m moving to Maryland later this year to work towards a PhD in Materials Science/Engineering. Excited!

7. I’ve mostly accepted that I’m asexual-leaning. It’s kind of nice, but sometimes I feel like an alien who’s had enough of humanity. I’m not ashamed of that aspect of myself, but it does get weird to explain, and I don’t really tell people.

8. In high school, recruiters kept trying desperately to enlist me in the Navy. I said no every time.

9. I love to come up with stories, draw, write. If I wasn’t in science, I’d probably be doing animation and film professionally.

10. I want to learn how to ride a motorcycle. I like things that go fast, as long as I can control them. [Rollercoasters and sky-diving are a NO from me!] This scares people, but I feel like I haven’t come out of my shell enough in life yet, and I need a bigger element of freedom and adventure.

Get to know me

Get to know me
Tagged my by smut queen @smutmylifeup and @chillaxe

Nickname?
Gabi, bibi, little devil, sheep, little ninja, bitch-chan and yeah many others.. 😂

Gender?
Female

Star sign?
Cancer ♋️

Height? 
1,60 something m, yeah I’m short…

Time right now?
13:45pm

Last thing I Googled?
Horseradish translation… @atinykawaii 😂

Favorite bands?
I don’t listen a lot but I can go for BTS

Favorite solo artists?
YONAS and Hendersin

Song stuck in your head?
Abstract - Neverland (ft. Ruth B) (Prod. Blulake) because in the end we’re all lost boys…

Last movie I watched?
The beauty and the beast

Last TV show I watched?
I started watching Once upon a time

When did you create your blog?
Hmm… The beginning last year maybe? Idk exactly because the blog wasn’t supposed to get in the proportion it is now, but I’m more than happy that it did 😊

What kind of stuff do you post?
Otome, my own work when I have time to write, my friends works and anything else I think it’s interesting and of course, a few Brazilians jokes.

When did your blog reach its peak?
When I started posting and writing The Cop and the Thief, I wish I could have more time to write more about the story and answer all the requests 😢

Do you have any other blogs?
Nope.

Do you get asks regularly?
Not really, but I love when I get asks even though I might take long to answer 😅

Why did you choose your URL?
It was supposed to be a humor blog (as you might have noticed) but then I started playing otome and at the time I couldn’t buy any story so I started reading fics, meeting new people, writing a little bit and now I’m here haha

Following?
With the new upgrade I can’t see how many people I follow, but it’s a lot. About 270+ people I’d say

Hogwarts house?
After the test I made it said Gryffindor

Pokemon team?
To be honest, idk…

Favorite colors?
Anything but yellow and orange…

Average hours of sleep?
5 hours, I know it’s not healthy but yeah

Lucky numbers?
7 and 13

Favorite characters?
Kbtbb guys, daenerys, tyrion and ygritte (game of thrones)

What are you wearing right now?
Ripped jeans, vans, black shirt and a coat… Very simple

How many blankets do you sleep with?
One
Dream job?
Surgeon Doctor

Dream trip?
Imagine how it would be when I meet my tumblr friends, what we would do and how much fun we’d have together… Cheesy

Are you kinky?
That will always be my little secret 😏🔥

Tagging:
@atinykawaii @chibikkoi @levisaudrey @hifftn @obiwanmcprobie @voltagelifee @voltagemarveliceprincess