Mi mente y mi corazón también necesitan "un día de limpieza y orden”.
En estos días cercanos al fin de año, me detuve, cerré los ojos y vi que estaba con demasiadas cosas desordenadas y sobrantes en mi corazón. Decidí que para esta fecha tengo un plan que consiste en ordenar mi entorno privado, cerrar ciclos, como aquellas historias que están demás u olvidar rencores que no me dejan avanzar. Intentaré cosas nuevas. Reforzaré ideales y también desecharé o modificaré aquellos que son demasiado rígidos, que no tienen mucha razón de ser; sin embargo, ahí están. Miraré mis aparatos tecnológicos y con alivio aceptaré de que están ahí para facilitarme la vida, pero no para hacerla. No por ellas perderé momentos especiales e inolvidables. Seré sincera, antes de con el resto, conmigo misma. Me amaré aún más, tanto a mis talentos y bondades como a mis defectos y equivocaciones. Agradeceré porque si la vida no fuese como lo es, no estaría en donde estoy ni sería quien soy.
Por último, feliz con esto, voy a seguir mirando al mundo con orgullo porque sé que así como soy: soy especial y única y que el nuevo año me espera con los brazos abiertos y muchas oportunidades.
I believe in one secret and ineffable LORD; and in one Star in the company of Stars of whose fire we are created, and to which we shall return; and in one Father of Life, Mystery of Mystery, in His name AIWASS, the sole viceregent of the Sun upon Earth; and in one Air the nourisher of all that breaths.
And I believe in one Earth, the Mother of us all, and in one Womb wherein all men are begotten, and wherein they shall rest, Mystery of Mystery, in Her name BABALON.
And I believe in the Serpent and the Lion, Mystery of Mystery, in His name BAPHOMET.
And I believe in one Gnostic and Catholic Church of Light, Life, Love and Liberty, the Word of whose Law is ΘΕΛΗΜΑ.
And I believe in the communion of Saints.
And, forasmuch as meat and drink are transmuted in us daily into spiritual substance, I believe in the Miracle of the Mass.
And I confess one Baptism of Wisdom whereby we accomplish the Miracle of Incarnation.
And I confess my life one, individual, and eternal that was, and is, and is to come.
“Both Herodotus and Pliny noted the general resemblance in shape between the phœnix and the eagle, a point which the reader should carefully consider, for it is reasonably certain that the modern Masonic eagle was originally a phœnix.”
Stephan Michelspacher - Anfang Exaltation (Antique Alchemical Illustration showing Signs of the Zodiac, Letters of the Alphabet and a Classification of the States of Matter arranged around a depiction of the Beast of Babylon), “Cabala,Spiegel der Kunst und Natur, in Alchymia”, 1616.
Emotions are a difficult thing to understand if you do not know what they are to begin with. We are taught from a young age at what they are, but it is up to us to decipher what they are when we do feel them. What is one for one is never the same for another. Remorse for one might be weakness for another, what might be uplifting to one might be repulsive to anothers feelings. What if you do not know how to feel? What if you have suppressed them so deeply that to even remotely feel them means a shuddering of sudden unbearable pain or the loss of all control of what your mind is doing. What if to feel means that your whole being shuts down to the point of implosion upon itself? Is this wrong? Is this normal or is this something that should be chain and locked away out of fear and misunderstanding?
I this day and age we see the mindless automatons of society fill the voids of space as we go about our days. Some oblivious to the world around them, void of all emotions, thoughts and recognition of ones self. Desensitized to all that is around and the shell they call a body reflects this image grossly. Chasms can be see within their eyes, and worlds empty of all life breed in their minds. Is this a fault of their own making? No, society has breed them to become this and they walk the path they are shown, not the one they are destined to. As emotions turn, twist and entwine we become a mess in the spiral of them and sometimes we are exactly like them when we become so numb to the world around us that we are as void of meaning as a pebble within the limitless reaches of the ocean.
How can one understand what they do not know? How do you learn what you have very little of to work with, and what you do work with pains you to touch. To touch a emotion within is the testing of the wires within you. Do you play Russian roulette with a raw emotional nerve or do you simply observe at the time of feeling? Can you withstand the pain of feeling long enough to observe or do you simply let it go and follow the flow of this now free running power? To test is to learn, to learn is to gleam the knowledge and understanding from what once was occult within your own sacred temple. No longer profane, it is now a part of you so deeply you seek it out to taste it’s wisdom and grow. But as with each new emotion, each new touch, taste and lesson the new lessons of keeping them separate and individualistic soon beckons you and now you must begin again. The spiral of emotions turns yet again upon you and within you.
Stephan Michelspacher - Agla Monographs, “Cabala: Spiegel der Kunst und Natur” (The Mirror of Art and Nature), 1615.
AGLA (אגלא) is a notariqon for Atah Gibor Le-olam Adonai,“You, O Lord, are Mighty Forever.” Arbitrary interpretation of AGLA is: “A the one first, A the one last, G, the trinity in unity, L, the completion of the Great Work.” According to “The Triangular Book of the Count of St Germain”, God by the name of AGLA was responsible for the preservation of Lot and his family from the fire of Sodom and Gomorrah.
Adam McLean describes these illustrations as “two circular diagrams with the German GOTT (the name of God) around the outside, and also the Alpha and Omega and the monograph which may be the name of God, Agla. This represents the Beginning - Alpha - within the End - Omega, the first and last letters of the Greek Alphabet”.