THIS IS IMPORTANT TO UNDERSTANDING THIS COMIC: this is part of a serious autobio series I started months back to document my gender transition. These took place months ago, during the early days, when I was very visibly trans. I’d only been on hormones for 5 months.

June 26th, 2016.  I had a hard time seeing myself as a real woman due to internalized transphobia toward myself, I was deeply uncomfortable with my body image when I wasn’t yet close to passing. It’s still something I struggle with from time to time, though not nearly as often. It can difficult to acknowledge internalized transphobia but it’s a real thing. I’m not perfect, I have hangups and baggage.

If you enjoy my work, you can directly support me and my transition via Patreon.


My professor from SVA contacted me recently to give a talk about my comics and how I get into animation to his comics class at USC (where he now teaches.) I was nervous but the students were great despite being worn out from being in the thick of finals. 

In preparing for what was essentially a mini Hilary retrospective, I unearthed a lot of things I hadn’t looked at in quite a while. It was cool to find that some pieces I still really liked and laughed at …but others …well, maybe more laughing at than with.

Anyway, here are some ghosts of Hilary past.

*note: Lucky 13 closed their 13th st location but they moved and are now bigger and badder at 644 Sackett St, Brooklyn. Check it out if you’re in the area (and of age!) Melody, the owner, is good people.