Author’s Note: This is A Juan Carlos “Juice” Ortiz imagine based on Wicked Games by The Weeknd as requested by a lovely Nonny, and imagine #5 for MM5. I hope you all enjoy. Let me know! This imagine is rated M for some smut!
This is my work–originally posted to my old blog @callmemrskozik which is no longer in use. Just wanted to put it out there so people don’t fill up my inbox accusing me of plagiarism.
Just For Tonight
I left my girl back home I don’t love her no more And she’ll never fucking know that These fucking eyes that I’m staring at Let me see that ass Look at all this cash And I emptied out my cards too Now I’m fucking leaning on that
Bring your love baby I could bring my shame Bring the drugs baby I could bring my pain I got my heart right here I got my scars right here Bring the cups baby I could bring the drink Bring your body baby I could bring you fame And that’s my motherfucking words too Just let me motherfucking love you
Listen ma I’ll give you all I got Get me off of this I need confidence in myself Listen ma I’ll give you all of me Give me all of it I need all of it to myself So tell me you love me Only for tonight Only for the night Even though you don’t love me Just tell me you love me I’ll give you what I need I’ll give you all of me Even though you don’t love me
His head is a mess as he pounds on the door, praying she answers. She has to answer. He rests his face against the cool wood, chest heaving.
“Harper,” Juice’s voice breaks as he slaps an open palm against the door. “Harper, please…”
The door swings open revealing a sleepy Harper, a baggy TM shirt hanging to her thighs, black hair falling in waves over her shoulders. She blinks owlishly at him. They’d been best friends once, so close that he would have just walked right in, but then everything changed.
“Juan, what are you doing in Colorado?” she asks, “shouldn’t you be with Claire?”
“I don’t love Claire, and she doesn’t fucking love me,” he spits, “you knew that, you tried telling me…I wouldn’t, I wouldn’t listen…”
“You need to go Juan,” she says but he shakes his head bracing his hand against the door before she can shut it in his face.
“Don’t send me away Harper, please, I don’t have anywhere else to go…”
She’d known him half of her life, loved him just as long, though that love had changed over time. She had fallen for him, a head long slide that had left her broken when he gave his heart away to Claire, the blonde bombshell who blew into town and half of SAMCRO while she was at it.
Of course she never told Juan she was in love with him, to do so would have been cruel as he had convinced himself that he was in love. So as the best friend she bit her tongue, until she caught Karen in the sack with a prospect, and when she tried telling him about it he didn’t believe her. She let loose after that telling him what a mistake it was that he was with Karen; that she didn’t love him. He’d cursed her out, telling her that jealousy was getting the best of her, it wasn’t his fault after all that no one loved her the way Claire loved him.
She remembers the sting of his words. The way they cut into her, bruising heart and ego.
It’s been six months, six months of separation from not just him but the rest of the Sons, and seeing him standing in front of her it brings everything back.
The pain. The anger.
“Harp, please, I have nowhere else to go,” Juan’s voice fills her head and the brokenness on his face makes her chest ache. Holding a hand out to him she waits for him to take it and when he does he collapses against her.
She pours another drink as she keeps an eye on Juan. He’s slumped on her couch, eyes glassy, a faraway look on his face.
Settling onto the table across from him she holds out a cup which he takes and quickly drains.
“You want to tell me why you’re here Juan? You’re an awful long way from home,” she says and all he does is shake his head, a tear rolling down his cheek, and as she opens her mouth to say something he’s kissing her. She pulls away, fingers pressing to her lips. “Wh-why’d you do that?”
“I wanted to,” his hands sink into her hair, forehead resting against hers. “Tell me you love me, Harp, please…just tell me you love me.”
“Juan,” her voice breaks fingers wrapping around his wrists.
“Please Harper…just for tonight…” his voice rings with desperation as his lips brush against hers again.
“I love you Juan…”
He drives into her relentlessly, Harper’s body burning hot like a furnace beneath him. She is everything and everywhere, and he can’t get enough. Her fingers dig into him, nails biting flesh and he craves the pain.
He moves fast so that his back is pressed against the headboard and she’s straddling his lap. His hands grip her hips as hers circle his neck, and dipping her head she scrapes her teeth across his jaw sending a thrill through him.
“Fuck,” he groans taking a fistful of her hair and giving a pull her head falls back. He feasts on the long column of her throat getting drunk on the taste of her, and when he gets close he looks at her, hand cupping her face so she can look nowhere else.
“Tell me you love me,” he demands and when she does his orgasm tears through him with such force it has her screaming his name.
Let me see you dance I love to watch you dance Take you down another level Get you dancing with the devil Take a shot of this But I’m warning you I’m on that shit that you can’t smell baby So put down your perfume
Bring your love baby I could bring my shame Bring the drugs baby I could bring my pain I got my heart right here I got my scars right here Bring the cups baby I could bring the drink Bring your body baby I could bring you fame And that’s my motherfucking words too So let me motherfucking love you
Listen ma I’ll give you all I got Get me off of this I need confidence in myself Listen ma I’ll give you all of me Give me all of it I need all of it to myself
She can hear Juan’s voice through the wall; he’s making plans to go back to Charming, and with her heart in her throat she knows she made a mistake. She never should have slept with him. It blurs lines that she could barely see to start with, but she’ll be the first to admit that when it comes to him, she’s never been afraid of putting her heart on the line.
This time is different though.
She told him she loved him, like she’s wanted to for years, but he doesn’t believe her, and that is almost worse than keeping it to herself.
Her chest tightens as she slips from bed and closing herself in the bathroom with her hand pressed to her mouth she slides down against the door, tears streaming down her face. She knows he’s going to leave, and the realization is almost enough to destroy her.
When she left Charming she did holding onto the hope that the next time she saw Juan they’d find a way to make things okay again, and instead things have just been made more complicated. She doesn’t know that she’s going to be able to say good bye, again.
“Harper?” Juan knocks on the door, and closing her eyes tight she takes a steadying breath.
“Be out in a minute,” she calls hating the fact that her voice shakes.
“Harp, let me in,” he calls but she just shakes her head.
“Just, leave me alone for a minute okay Juan?” she begs but he just takes to wiggling the door knob. She knows he isn’t going to go anywhere and because she’s run out of patience she pulls open the bathroom door. “When are you leaving?”
“What? Harper, why are you crying?” he asks reaching a hand out to brush a tear from her cheek but she backs away.
“I know you’re going back,” she can’t hide the misery in her voice so she doesn’t even bother trying as she motions with her hands, “the walls are thin.” She brushes past him but he catches her arm turning her to look at him.
“What’s really going on?” he demands and her slippery hold on control is lost.
“You want to know what’s going on?” she asks, hands tightening into fists at her sides. “You’re my best friend Juan, I lost you once already, and the thought of losing you again, it hurts too much. I spent the last six months trying everything in my power to forget about you and Charming, and then you just show up, no warning, nothing and you ask me to tell you that I love you, and I do; and it kills me to know that I can tell you right now that I meant those words, I can tell you that I am in love with you, that I have been for almost as long as I’ve known you, and you wouldn’t believe me. I can ask you not to go, but that would be selfish, or I can ask you to take me with you but that would mean giving up everything I’ve worked so fucking hard to build in the last six months only to go back to where we were one upon a time, but I can’t do that. I can’t go back and be that close to you again. I can’t watch you sleep your way through crow eaters and sweet butts. I can’t.”
“Harper…” Juan’s voice is soft as he stares at her, shock flickering over his face.
“You don’t have to say anything, please, don’t say anything…” she shakes her head and walks away.
“Tell me you love me,” her voice is a whisper in the darkness, “even if it’s just for tonight…”
“I love you Harper,” and no truer words have ever passed his lips.
So tell me you love me Only for tonight Only for one night Even though you don’t love me Just tell me you love me I’ll give you what I need I’ll give you all of me Even though you don’t love me
It’s almost like he knew you were just thinking about him. About the time you’d shared together, about the way his hands would make you feel. You reminisce on times you spent with him, wondering what his secrets were while he sat with you happily talking about nothing and almost everything. Everything but those secrets. You knew nothing about them until the day your whole world went dark, when you felt his hands in a way you didn’t want to, shoving you away from him in every way. He disappeared and it left you like a junkie without their drugs, wanting, needing, not sleeping, thinking of nothing but him. A sound on your window brings you back to reality and you shake the thoughts of him, your eyes widening when you turn to the glass.
The hum of the music fills the room, the only thing in sight the silhouette of Harry. He stands by the window he just snuck in from, watching you watching him. The sound of his knock on the glass startled you, and you hesitantly nodded for him to come inside, both of you silent. You reach over to flick on the lights that line your ceiling, your eyes meeting his as soon as the room is brightened. You gulp, a scream building in your body when you see his eyes. Black. No green that reminds you of the sun on new leaves, no white around them- just pure, deep black. He sees the fear in your eyes and he wishes you could see the hurt in his. He doesn’t want to be like this, but he is. He slides down the wall, covering his eyes with his hands. You’d always known there was something dark in him, something scary and unknown. And here it was, in your room, showing itself, fighting with the other side of himself.
Bring your love baby I could bring my shame
Bring the drugs baby I could bring my pain
I got my heart right here
I got my scars right here
You crawl off your bed, slowly making your way over to his crumpled form. You hear his breathing above the soft music and you sit in front of him, reaching out to him. Before you can touch him, he throws his hands down and screams “DON’T”, his voice rough and deep, like it’s not him. You jump back, his black eyes becoming darker, his sharpened teeth glinting from his open mouth. You move closer again and he speaks now.
“Don’t come near me. I just wanted you to see.”, he says softly and you swallow your fear.
“I want to see, too.”, you reply and he looks up. He blinks and you reach out to stroke his face, wincing when his lips part and a fang peeks out. You stroke his cool, smooth skin and he closes his eyes, his lips coming together, pursed slightly. For a second he looks like the boy you thought he was. His eyes flutter open when you pull your hand away and you just watch him again, at a loss for words.
He reaches forward and grabs your hand. You tense up in his grip, trying not to cringe and softening when he plays with your fingers the way he always did, lining them up with his and comparing the sizes, kissing the tips before twining them together.
Just let me motherfucking love you
He pulls you into him and you let him, nervous but curious. His shining, black eyes blink at you once before closing and he leans forward. His gentleness makes you forget about the dark sight in front of you and you accept his lips on yours, your tongue flicking over a pointed tooth when he parts his lips against yours. You break the kiss and he pulls away slightly, his arms keeping your body close to his.
“Do I frighten you?”, he asks, his voice low.
You swallow before you speak, tracing his familiar lips with your finger.
He sighs and although his expression is hurt, his eyes hold nothing, just dark emptiness.
“But I still…”, and you trail off, meeting his eyes again, searching for the light beyond the dark. You almost do, a hint of green shining through the darkness. “I still see you.”, you say, and his shoulders pick up.
“It’s still me, love. It’s me.”, he says pleadingly and your eyes well with tears at his voice, at the hurt and the need for you to be with him, to stay.
“I know”, you whisper into his hair, running your fingers into the long curls and dragging them across his shoulder, to his face. You hold his face so his eyes are forced to look into yours. “I know.”, you repeat, leaning in for another kiss. His tongue parts your lips and you don’t feel his sharp fang this time. You lose yourself in the touch you’ve missed, in the feeling of protection he gives you. You shriek softly when you feel yourself lift off the ground, Harry effortlessly lifting you into his arms. You wrap your arms tighter around him as he holds you against him, deepening the kiss.
Listen ma, I’ll give you all I got
Get me off of this,
I need confidence in myself
He gently breaks the kiss and sits you down on your bed, sitting in front of you. He grabs your hand again and places it on his cheek, his hand above your own. You watch as he parts his lips and his incisors grow, protruding slightly from his mouth, and the blackness of his eyes grows darker.
“I’m still me.”, he repeats.
You nod, taking it all in. He leans forward and you instinctively lean back as his mouth gets closer to your exposed skin. He pauses and looks up at you.
“I need you to trust me.”, he says softly and you nod, trying to control your fear as he gets closer. He nuzzles your neck with his nose, tickling you softly the way he always would. You bite your lips to hold back a smile that fades rather quickly as you feel his lips on you. He kisses gently, his lips leaving warm sensations on your neck. His tongue swipes at the skin and you arch back, granting him more access to your neck. He sucks the spot softly and his sharp teeth graze your skin. You’re afraid and you tense up in his grip, but you relax when you feel his continued kisses and no pain, just pleasure.
He lifts his head from your neck and rests his forehead on yours.
“Do you trust me?”, he asks, eyes glinting in the orange light of your room.
“I trust you.”, you reply and a smile plays at his lips, his eyes making the grin appear evil. He uses his body to gently push you onto the mattress, pinning you underneath him. He laces your fingers together and holds your hands above your head, his lips like a ghost, just barely touching yours.
So tell me you love me
Only for tonight
Only for the night
His lips meet yours gently at first before your tongue parts his lips and he accepts enthusiastically. You want to hold him, to push your body as close to his as possible, but his hands keep your arms restrained. You use your leg to hold him to you, dragging it along his as it bends and wraps around him. He moves one hand, using the other to keep your arms above your head, rubbing your thigh as your lips express the desperate need to feel one another. He lets go of your hands, only to pull your shirt over your head. His black eyes scan your body, barely covered now only by your bra and a pair of pajama shorts. He pecks your lips softly, trailing his lips along your jaw and to your neck, leaving a fire to spark along the trail his lips left on you. His tongue flicks across the sensitive spot on your neck, making you squirm under him, a small moan escaping you. You hear his soft chuckle muffled by your neck and you smile at the familiar sound, your smile fading slowly as his lips play at your neck, sucking and kissing, marking you as his. He lifts his head from you, admiring the red mark he’s left on you.
He straightens up so he’s kneeling in between your legs and you watch as he starts to lift his shirt over his head. You stop him and sit up so your right in front of him.
“Let me.”, you say and he nods once. You peel his black shirt over his head, tossing it behind him and curiously admire his body. It’s not different, covered by the same tattoos you’ve always loved, except for his veins. They’re more noticeable, somehow darker so you can faintly see the outlines all over his body. You trace one and he catches your hand.
“I don’t know why it happens. It just does.”, he says, referring to the new marks. You bring his hand to your mouth and kiss his fingers, then his wrist where one vein is particularly dark. You look up at him, at his soulless eyes and lean forward, pressing your lips to his, twisting your fingers into his curls. He wraps his strong arms around you, and you wrap your legs around him, straddling his lap. You pull away from his lips and kiss his neck, peppering his skin with soft kisses and working your way to his shoulder. You kiss him there and nip gently at the skin, smiling when you feel his lips on your neck again. He kisses more, and sucks a little harder and you bask in the feeling his lips give you, He holds you in his arms as you arch back, wanting his lips all over you. He gets your message and slowly changes his course of kisses to the middle of your neck. He kisses in between your collarbones and then lower, leaving a warm, wet spot in between your breasts. He slowly pulls your bra straps over your shoulders and reaches behind you to unclasp it completely. You giggle when he struggles slightly and you watch black slits peer from his eyelids, his eyes squinted in focus. He gets it undone and he smiles, pulling the black lace off of you. He kisses in between your breasts again, running his tongue across and over one nipple, then the other. You hiss in pleasure at the feeling and your fingers press into him, keeping him close as his mouth teases you, leaving warm kisses all over your body.
Let me see you dance
I love to watch you dance
Take you down another level
Get you dancing with the devil
You let Harry gently lower you onto the bed, taking his place in between your legs again. He guides you to lift your hips and you do, letting him pull off your shorts. Your underwear come down with them a little, and he admires how they sit below your hips. He tugs at the lace with his teeth and kisses you above them, pulling them down. He kisses his way up your body and whispers against your neck.
“You’re so beautiful.”, he says and you gently stroke his curls, smiling when he brings his lips to yours, his breath fanning over your lips when he speaks.
“And you’re mine.”, he says, his eyes darker than before, his voice possessive and dangerous and very, very hot. You place your hand on the back of his neck and hold him there.
“Yours.”, you breathe, and he catches your breath with his lips.
His tongue mingles with yours, your hands lost in his hair and his holding your hips, his body trapping you in between him and the mattress. He straightens up and pulls his dark jeans down, kicking them off. You watch his lean body over yours, your eyes tracing the patterns of his veins before you meet his eyes. The soulless black diamonds watch you as you watch him. You pull him down for another kiss and he hikes your legs up himself now, helping you wrap them around his waist. You tug your bottom lip back with your teeth as his muscles flex with his movement. He adjusts himself and lowers his face to yours. His necklace dangles in the space between you, the charm resting on your neck, leaving a cool spot against your warm skin. He kisses your forehead and then your lips as he pushes inside you. You arch against him as he moves slowly against you, your hips meeting as his length fills you. He moves slowly at first, pushing in and out gently until he finds his rhythm. Your hands reach out, looking for something to hold onto, twisting into the blanket below you or digging into his shoulders. His hips move against yours, pumping in and out and you moan his name, biting your lip to hold yourself back from being any louder. He slows down and pulls you into his arms, your naked bodies molding together as you straddle him. Your lips come together again, moving sloppily, desperately together. He breaks the kiss to fix himself under you and he lifts you up, easing you gently onto his length. You moan softly against his lips when you feel him inside you and his hands hold your hips firmly, helping you move up and down on him. You drape your arms over his shoulders and lean forward, kissing him as he moves with you. Your hands move to his face and you trace his lips with your thumb, whispering “I love you.”, against his lips. His eyes flutter open at the words and you see it. The bright green unlike any color you’ve ever seen before. You kiss him then, your tongue swiping at his, his hands still gripping your hips, moving you up and down a little harder than before. He gently lowers you back against the mattress, your bodies staying connected.
Just tell me you love me
I’ll give you what I need
I’ll give you all of me
“I love you.”, he says and his eyes meet yours again, the green that you missed still there. You keep him close, needing to feel him and he thrusts against you once more, harder than before. Your fingers dig into his shoulders and one hand leaves your hips, gripping the headboard. His thrusts are unyielding, filling you and making you want to scream his name. His lips catch your moans and the sound of his name leaving your lips repeatedly. He pounds into you, his own low, gravelly moans muffled by your neck. You feel yourself start to lose control, your hands clawing into his back as he pumps into you, relentless in the way his body collides with yours. Your molded perfectly with him and you bite into his shoulder again when you tense up. Your muscles clench and you hit your climax, a high moan crossing your lips as you come. Your muscles relax, but he continues to pound into you, bringing you to the border of pleasure and pain until he reaches his own climax. He does finally, your name leaving his lips just before his body tiredly falls against yours.
He rests his head on your chest, his sweaty curls leaving your already damp skin a little wetter. He looks up at you, his green eyes meeting yours once before they blink closed. You stroke his curls and his fingers trace patterns on your skin, up and down your arms and on your chest and stomach. He looks up at you again, his eyes back to their abnormal darkness. You smile sadly at the boy on top of you, at the soulless eyes.
“It’s still you.”, you whisper and he lifts his head up at the sound of your voice.
“Yeah, love.”, he says reassuringly, pressing a kiss to your damp skin. “And you’re still mine.”, he says after the kiss.
“Always.”, you reply, smiling as he rolls you over so your body rests on top of his. He covers you both with a blanket and pulls you down for a kiss. You let your body get the best of you and drift off into a light sleep, your body not leaving Harry’s. He watches you sleep, a dangerous smile darkening his features when he whispers to himself, “Always.”. One look into those deep, black eyes and that was it. You were his. You are his and you always will be.
Aries: I know when you were little girls, You dreamt of being in my world, Don’t forget it, don’t forget it, Respect that, bow down bitches - Flawless by Beyoncé
Taurus: I said “I wish you could see the ocean”,He said “I wish you could see hope”,I said “have you ever seen the mountain?”,He said “no, but my faith could move those -Eyes Like The Sky by Frank Ocean
Gemini: They wish I would go ahead and fuck my life up, Can’t let them get to me, And even though I always fuck my life up, Only I can mention me - FML by Kanye West
Cancer: You seem to replace your brain with your heart, You take things so hard and then you fall apart - Cry Baby by Melanie Martinez
Leo: I got to do things my own way darling, Will you ever let me? Will you ever respect me? No, Do things my own way darling,You should just let me, Why you will never let me grow? Consideration by Rihanna
Virgo: Under haunted skies I see you, Where love is lost your ghost is found, I braved a hundred storms to leave you, As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down - Turning Tables by Adele
Libra:Bring your love baby I could bring my shame, Bring the drugs baby I could bring my pain, I got my heart right here, I got my scars right here - Wicked Games by The Weeknd
Scorpio: Heaven only let’s a few in,It’s too late for me to choose it, Don’t waste precious tears on me, I’m not worth the misery, I’m better off when I’m alone - Real Life by The Weeknd
Sagittarius: So we’ll piss off the neighbours, In the place that feels the tears,The place to lose your fears, Yeah, reckless behavior - Pillow Talk by Zayn
Capricorn: So lowkey, I just stay out the way, I built a lab up in the crib so I don’t leave all day - Jealous by Kehlani
Aquarius: Are you deranged like me? Are you strange like me? Lighting matches just to swallow up the flame like me? Do you call yourself a fucking hurricane like me? Pointing fingers cause you’ll never take the blame like me? -Gasoline by Halsey
Pisces: Since that day you’re all I think about, Thought you were impossible til now, You’re with me wherever I wake up, I’ll take my chances, I know that I’m falling, I’m best when I’m next to you - Rewind by Kelela
Bring your love baby I could bring my shame
Bring the drugs baby I could bring my pain
I got my heart right here
I got my scars right here
Bring the cups baby I could bring the drink
Bring your body baby I could bring you fame
And that's my motherfucking words too
Just let me motherfucking love you
What is your fav lyrics from Abel i want one as a tattoo
I listed some that I could think of, of course there’s a lot more. Sorry for how lengthy it is, but hope it helps.
What you need:
And I’mma love you girl, the way you need ain’t no one gon’ stop us
I’m the drug in your veins, just fight through the pain
Let the world listen, if a hater’s caught slippin’ then my niggas stay tight, got my back like Pippen
Ain’t no nigga that she holding man her love is too damn foreign
Let me see that ass look at all this cash
Bring your love baby I could bring my shame bring the drugs baby I could bring my pain, I got my heart right here I got my scars right here. Bring the cups baby I could bring the drink bring your body baby I could bring you fame, and that’s my motherfucking words too just let me motherfucking love you
So tell me you love me only for tonight only for the night, even though you don’t love me, just tell me you love me
Let me see you dance I love to watch you dance, take you down another level, get you dancing with the devil
The party & the after party:
She ain’t looking for that unconditional, what the fuck these bitches on, they want what I’m sittin’ on, they don’t want my love, they just want my potential Fuck it though, sippin’ on this baby livin’ off bliss got me drowning in your love got me drowning in the mist
Now we’re lying about the nights, hiding all it behind the smiles
You probably thought that you’d break my heart, you probably thought that you’d make me cry, well baby it’s okay I swear it’s okay
They just recognize I’m in a life without a home so this recognition’s not enough
I don’t care about nobody else, cause I’ve been on these streets way too long, baby I’ve been on this too long
Baby I got you, until you’re used to my face and my mystery fades, I got you. So baby love me, before they all love me, until you won’t love me, because they all left me, I’ll be different, I think I’ll be different, I hope I’m not different. And I hope you’ll still listen
And I ain’t tryna win your heart and you can’t pay to win my love
Same old song:
You never thought that I would ever go this far, you said potential could never last this long
I swear I loved you girl and you probably went and fucked the world
There comes a time in a man’s life when he must take responsibility for the choices he has made
So you’re somebody now, but what’s a somebody in a nobody town
Cause everything you’ve been through made you stronger, and every day you learn about yourself
How’d you drain all the soul from your eyes. How’d you teach yourself how to smile
And you have to do it all just to know where it gets you, living dreams we can never afford
Tears in the rain:
Embrace all that come, and die with a smile, don’t show the world how alone you’ve become
She forgot the good things about me, she let it slip away
There are certain things that I’ve come to understand, expectations can kill a simple man
You’re in love with something bigger than love. You believe in something stronger than trust
Belong to the world:
Nobody’s ever made me fall in love with this amount of touch
I’m not a fool, I just love that you’re dead inside, I’m not a fool, I’m just lifeless too
I lay my head on a thousand beds, it’s been a test to see how far a man can go without himself
“So now that she’s gone, embrace all that come and die with a smile. Don’t show the world how alone you’ve become
“Bring your love baby I could bring my shame, bring the drugs baby I could bring my pain. I got my heart right here, I got my scars right here. Bring the cups baby I could bring the drink, bring your body baby I could bring you fame, and that’s my motherfucking words too. Just let me motherfucking love you.”
“They don’t want my love, they just want my potential.”
“With this money comes problems, and with these problems come solutions, and I use ‘em but I’m fading. I forget what you mean to me. Hope you know what you mean to me.”
“I’m living for the present, and the future don’t exist.”
“You probably thought that you’d break my heart. You probably thought that you’d make me cry. Well baby it’s okay, I swear it’s okay.”
“It seems like pain and regret are your best friends, cause everything you do leads to them.”
“I’ll be making love to her through you, so let me keep my eyes closed. And I won’t see a damn thing, I can’t feel a damn thing, but I'ma touch you right.”
“If you try to play your luck, ain’t nobody gonna care enough to catch you fall.”
“They just recognize I’m in a life without a home so this recognition’s not enough. I don’t care about nobody else, cause I’ve been on these streets way too long, baby I’ve been on this too long.”
“Until you’re used to my face and my mystery fades, I got you. So baby love me, before they all love me, until you won’t love me, because they all left me. I’ll be different, I think I’ll be different, I hope I’m not different, and I hope you’ll still listen.”
“It could have went so many ways, so many ways it can go, cus ain’t nobody feels the way that I feel when I’m alone.”
“Happiness exists, when you don’t know a thing.”
“I’m a pro at letting go. I love it when they come and go.”
“You never thought that I would ever go this far. You said potential could never last this long, well baby I’ve been alone for almost all my life. What makes you think that you could ever do me right.”
“And I ain’t tryna win your heart and you can’t pay to win my love.”
“I like the thrill. Nothing’s gonna make me feel this real, so baby don’t go home, I don’t wanna spend tonight alone.”
“You’re somebody now, but what’s a somebody in a nobody town.”
“Cause everything you’ve been through made you stronger, and every day you learn about yourself. And nothing really played out how it’s supposed to, depending on somebody else’s wealth. But now you know the value of a dollar.
“How’d you drain all the soul from your eyes. How’d you teach yourself how to smile in a world where your dreams can’t be real.”
“I lay my head on a thousand beds. It’s been a test to see how far a man can go without himself. I think I lost the only piece that held it all in place, now my madness is the only love I let myself embrace.”
“How does it feel? Do you feel like you did before? Do you see the world getting small? How does it feel, are you free?”
“I’m not a fool, I just love that you’re dead inside. I’m not a fool, I’m just lifeless too.”
“But you to taught me how to feel when nobody ever would. And you taught me how to love, what nobody ever could.”
“You’re in love with something bigger than love. You believe in something stronger than trust.”
“There are certain things that I’ve come to understand, expectations can kill a simple man.”
“There comes a time in a man’s life when he must take responsibility for the choices he has made. There are certain things that he must do, things that he must say. Like "I love you” and “I need you”, "I only want you" and nobody’s going to know if it’s true.”
“Cause, girl, you’re perfect. You’re always worth it. And you deserve it, the way you work it.”
“I’m always numb to the topic of loving, I fell in love with the subject of sin.”
“And I know she’ll be the death of me, at least we’ll both be numb. And she’ll always get the best of me, the worst is yet to come.”