Bits-and-Baubles

I’m the girl men fall in love with the idea of.
They catch glimpses of parts of me and think
 They know the rest hidden beneath the surface;

The golden girl with the flaming heart.
The playful exuberance too world weary by far.
 The nighttime temptress down on her knees.
The selfless caretaker too kind to believe.
The warrior-princess covered in scars
The simple girl who still wishes on stars.

They all choose a part of me to worship
Setting aside the rest of the puzzle pieces
Still looking for a heart to call home
Because it’s easier to put me in a box
Than to put me together until they find a whole picture.

In the end sparkling bits and baubles of me adorn their memories
Until I become the one who got away
Which is the reason I never could in the end stay.

I’d rather love the reality that is all of myself
Than be put on a pedestal so high up
There’re no odds of surviving the fall.

© Courtney Turley 2017

In these long and introspective winter months, I am slowly coming to the realization that the way to avoid artistic burnout, at least for me, is to remain as flexible as possible, and try out every idea that gives me even a brief spark of inspiration - even the bad ones.

Basically what I’m saying is, I might have a lot of weird bits and baubles to show you all fairly soon. Some others may like, and they’ll stick around - some may wind up being “just for me” type things. Either way, thank you all in advance for sticking around!

missingparentheses  asked:

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers (◠‿◠✿)

Oh gosh, I don’t have very many to choose from, but my very favorite of my own is Thanks, Brother which I actually re-read myself when I need a little comfort. I’d also love for more people to read my Rabbit Lightning series and its two prequels, because I think they’re fun and different from most fics and I put a lot of work into them all. Plus I might someday write more if people have an interest in them (I know Rabbit Lightning is loved by many but feedback helps get me excited/inspired to write more).

I’m also pretty proud of my short little fic What Is Love which explores a quasiplatonic relationship between ace!Rhett and aro!Link, and…

Well that’s it, really, those are the ones I would recommend. I know you said 5, but I’m not really much of a writer. <3 Thanks! 

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Okay, here’s an observation on the Gray-Manes.  I mean, look at the face on Fralia.  This is not a happy woman, at all.  I mean, I know she’s got the thing going on with her son missing, but just look at that face.  There are YEARS of misery etched on that.  Then, check out Fralia’s inventory at her shop.  She is married to the guy who works the Skyforge, and her entire inventory of weapons consists of 2 crappy little iron weapons.  Not even a single Skyforge Steel weapon?  Nope, apparently Eorlund is hogging all that glory to himself, he just can’t be bothered slipping a few daggers to his wife to maybe make her little market stall a bit more profitable.  Nothing but “bits and baubles”.

Ask Fralia who the best blacksmith in Skyrim is, she immediately directs you to Eorlund, praising him.  Ask Eorlund for a sword when you join the Companions and he says: “A blade?  It will be as sharp as Fralia’s tongue!”

Everything about these characters just makes me feel like Fralia has been absolutely miserable for decades, and Eorlund is completely oblivious to it.