“Hear your voice and I wonder where you are, if you all alone. If you in a good mood, if you not or you thinking about you was at my spot. What we did when we got hot? Is you dreaming you had me? Is you creaming your panties? Like a king, fed me grapes, and you fanned me on the couch, to the floor, to the bed, to the sink and we ate each other like candy, under the covers, two intimate lovers.” - Nas (Big Girl)
Right: June 2014
I just turned 19 , finished my first year of college and was working in retail for my very first time . I was extremely stressed from school/work and depressed that I tried to kill myself on March 19th , 2015 . Nobody knew I was dealing with depression because I’m the type of person who always had a smile on my face everyday . I felt like nobody in the world such as my family and friends would care if I talked to them about it that’s why I didn’t try but I was completely wrong .
Left: Present ( 2016 )
Today , I am extremely blessed to be able to have another opportunity to live and make it to see 21 this past summer . A lot has changed for me in 2 years , my self-esteem and the love I have for myself have improved so much . I had lost a few friends but I gain new ones and even a relationship . I’m just so proud of myself that I have overcome my depression and no longer afraid to ask for help . I know I am still a working progress but just know I am a beautiful black queen who can overcome anything thrown my way .
This year was all about confidence for me. I finally learned how to love myself no matter what size I am. I never thought in my life that I would ever wear and look good in a bikini. Doing this is such a huge step in my body positive journey. Thank you Yasmena for this amazing body positive/ Tess Holliday inspired shoot. #effyourbeautystandards
HAPPY BIG GIRL APPRECIATION DAY !!!
This post is not like my regular BGAD posts. I posted pictures of me in a fatkini… I was extremely hesitant to post it because I’m not even 50% comfortable with my body, but I’m trying to love it and it’s taking some time. So basically until then I’m going to try to keep it positive. Lol not making this a sap post but yeah.HAPPY BIG GIRL APPRECIATION DAY MY LOVELIES💕