what do you think is the most important thing for someone aiming to be a paladin? if the most scattered, fickle, and commitmentphobic person wanted to be a paladin, what would they need to know? they just want to be inspiring and a force for good, to put their own natural radiance to good use. how do they commit to the code?
Find the right code or cause, the one that that despite their many characteristics that normally compel them to flee are quiet, silenced by you hen you’ve finally found your rock to stand on.
This is a job that needs conviction, something even the least of Paladins have. Being a force for good requires being a “force” after all. You need to find the strength to be solid. You are not Neitsche rejecting all paths, or Tolstoy accepting them all. You’re Joan of Arc, and you’ve chosen a singular path to carve through like a thunderbolt. Benevolence isn’t enough when you’re unable to stick your to guns, or press forward in a consistent direction.
How do you learn that strength? Little by little, facing challenge and after challenge and adhering to the convictions and virtues you’ve sworn to, and as time goes by, you’ll find that things get easier, as the temptation to lose focus is weakened by practice and commitment.
You want to be a paladin? Act like one, believe like one, live your life like one, and one day you’ll be so good at it that it won’t be an act.