BECAUSE HE WOULD HAVE TRUSTED MERLIN

BUT MERLIN NEVER SAW GWAINE AGAIN

Imagine if Arthur found out that Merlin has been the one making those huge, life-or-death, “the fate of Camelot is at stake” choices.

Forget being angry about Merlin keeping secrets and not trusting him. Arthur would be furious that Merlin—acting alone—took it upon himself to decide the fate of the people under Arthur’s protection, whom Arthur sees as his responsibility. Merlin wasn’t even born in Camelot, let alone raised to lead it. He doesn’t have any of the education or experience necessary to make those calls. Arthur does. 

He would be hurt not because Merlin doesn’t trust him as a friend, but because he’s seen as a king who can’t be trusted to make decisions for his own kingdom. Incompetent. Unworthy.  

He’d be frustrated because he wasn’t even given the chance to prove that he could make the right choices. All Merlin’s claims that he sees Arthur as a great king fall flat in the face of reality: He and Gaius pick and choose which kingdom-wide catastrophes Arthur even knows about, let alone which ones he gets to do anything to prevent.

And beneath all that, he’d be saddened and horrified at the burden Merlin has carried alone. He knows the toll such a weight takes on someone’s mind and heart, the terror of making the wrong choice. 

If he knew what Merlin had done, the impossible options he has been forced to weigh alone, Arthur would understand the cost to Merlin, just as well as he would understand the cost to his kingdom.

Captain Swan and Merlin/Nimue

The more I think about it the more I have a feeling that Nimue IS the Dark One we say last night. She is the original Dark One but with some differences. 

@businesscasualprincess wonderfully pointed out, the DO dagger had no name on it. Merlin went to use the dagger to kill the Dark One but he doesn’t. Instead Merlin hesitates, says he misses her, the woman he loved and the Dark One takes the dagger to collect his tear and turn him into a tree. For me this points to Nimue not because of spoilers but because of Arthurian Legend. Merlin taught Nimue his magic before she trapped him. If OUAT uses that story it is possible that Merlin taught Nimue what he knew of the darkness because she was helping him or like anyone, would share his knowledge with her because he loved and trusted her. The Dark One knew to collect the tear in order to trap Merlin. The DO could have easily killed him but they didn’t. In legend Nimue didn’t love Merlin and entrapped him in a tree, some say rock or cave but doesn’t matter. Merlin being trapped in a tree in OUAT once again points to Nimue and to the fact that there was still love for Merlin that the Dark One themselves could not kill Merlin since they loved him. One of the best clues to this possibly being Nimue is Merlin saying he to the Dark One, “You destroyed her. The only woman I ever loved and now I will destroy you.” and “I miss her.”  With pain and sorrow he is talking to the Dark One but more to the darkness. This would explain why he hesitates to kill the Dark One. Merlin knows the Nimue is NOT the Dark One but that the darkness has just taken over her. Just as Killian knows that is not Emma he is dealing with. 

So much of this reminds me of Killian. Merlin knew and said it had to be Emma’s choice to be free from the darkness. Merlin had to have know with his dealings of Nimue the Dark One that she needed to be wanted to be freed from the darkness in order to be saved. Which may explain why Merlin said you DESTROYED her. The darkness took her away so quickly that she couldn’t make the choice so Merlin feeling he had lost her figured it would be easy to kill her. Killian is working as hard as possible to keep the darkness from completely consuming Emma. Killian has told her to stop talking to one the shoulder DO Rumple and even whisked her away for a moment of peace and just the two of them. He has asked her to put his faith in him. Everything Killian has done it to help Emma from being consumed and even though we have’t seen it, I believe Merlin would have tried to do the same. Merlin loved Nimue enough to hesitate before killing the DO version because no matter how much he HATED the DO Nimue his love for her was stronger. LOVE IS SACRIFICE. Nimue sacrificed for Merlin. Merlin sacrificed for Nimue by being trapped in a tree. Emma sacrificed for the town and everyone in it, including Killian. Now we just wait for Killian to sacrifice for Emma because let’s be real IT IS COMING.

The Apprentice stated that the darkness had to be bound to a person and Merlin as well as Nimue must have known this. This leads me to believe that while battling the darkness Nimue did what Emma did. Nimue must have sacrificed herself to not only help the man she loved but to save the realm. Emma took in the darkness to save Stroybrooke and everyone she cared for. Both selfless acts and more than likely had a greater chance of being saved from the darkness if wanted. The only difference is that, Nimue may be of magic but Emma IS light magic, she is the Savior and from what we witness last night as she freed Merlin her light magic is so strong that it is still dwelling inside her. Nimue seems to be a bit out of control with the Dark One magic and it just might be because it mixes with her magic differently or she is toying with Merlin. The zipping back and forth makes me think that this was a way of saying I will not be taken or destroyed. Well at least until you command me. Even when Merlin says “enough” you can tell he is tired of the games the Dark One is playing with him. Very similar to how Killian lets Emma know he is done with her games abroad the Jolly Roger. 

It breaks my heart knowing that poor Merlin lost the woman he loved not only to the darkness but later because someone probably killed her to be the Dark One thus creating the name on the blade tradition but that is speculation of course. The bright side is, Killian is going to do what Merlin couldn’t. Killian will be able to save Emma from the darkness when she is ready to make the choice of being free from it. He will be able to destroy the darkness that created the first Dark One but also the latest Dark One due to a women’s sacrifice. 

I reblogged a post the other day about how roxy and Merlin never said a word to each other in the movie and I just realized that’s a lie????

Merlin is the one who conducts the final test with roxy. he hands her the gun and tells her to shoot the dog.

and it’s my headcanon that part of the reason roxy passes and eggsy doesn’t (aside from the fact that roxy is BA and eggsy couldn’t hurt a fly bc it’s an innocent animal) is because roxy actually trusts Merlin? and while eggsy doesn’t *distrust* Arthur like he does later, I don’t think there is the same level of trust there that there would have been had Harry been the one to hand eggsy the gun.

**EDIT**

turns out I was wrong peeps. that’s not what the post says. sorry to anyone I may have misled and the original owner of the post!!

my headcanon still stands tho :)

“you alright, merlin?”

“no.”

IT KILLS ME BECAUSE MERLIN NEVER HAD TO HIDE FROM GWAINE. MERLIN ALWAYS TRUSTED GWAINE. WITH ANYONE ELSE MERLIN WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE, YEAH BRO I GOT THIS I CAN HANDLE MYSELF. BUT MERLIN NEVER PUT UP AIRS WITH GWAINE. HE WAS ALWAYS HONEST WITH HIM, AND VICE VERSA. HE TRUSTED GWAINE SO MUCH AND THAT’S WHY IT’S HORSESHIT THAT GWAINE NEVER KNEW ABOUT HIS MAGIC BECAUSE MERLIN SHOULD HAVE TOLD HIM BECAUSE IF THERE WAS ANYONE WHO WOULD HAVE BEEN COOL WITH IT IT’S GWAINE

Kingsman headcanons

Reasons why Merlin doesn’t go out in the field anymore-
1. His aptitude for tech far outweighs any physical skill he may have
2. He used to be really active in the field before he suffered an injury that has been permanent and hinders long term activity but would not be noticeable on screen
- possibilities include: broken back, shoulders, knees, muscle damage or nerve damage caused by kidnapping, torture, botched mission
- chronic pain or discomfort
- would not disqualify him from working with Kingsman because he can still provide support from the sidelines
3. Harry is overprotective and demands that Merlin not go in the field. Harry does love him so.
4. Merlin insists on being behind the scenes because he doesnt trust anyone else to keep Harry safe aka behind the glasses. There was another agent in Merlin’s place but he fucked up badly and almost caused Harry to die and Merlin vows that will happen again.
5. Chronic illness such a diabetes, hemophilia… Blanking on other diseases he could have but basically it isnt conducive to fieldwork.

I really hope people explore #2 because that is really what I think is the reason why he sits back and uses guns.

Unpopular opinion

I think in Merlin it would have been so awesome if Merlin and Morgana both turned against Arthur and Camelot. Because Arthur trusted Merlin so much and he would never suspect it was Merlin. I know they were trying to follow the legend but if they would have made it like that I think it could have gone on longer.