I also want to write my thoughts about SnK: Scream (ep37/chap50)
This is one of the highlights and definitely a major turning point in Eren and Mikasa’s relationship. That a lot of conversations put emphasis on Mikasa’s “confession” and to Eren’s some sort of “indirect proposal” is something that I personally enjoy but what really tugged at my heart was, although there was an element of confession as an effect on Mikasa’s end, this was definitely a goodbye more than anything else.
Mikasa has feelings for Eren alright but she’s not the type to confess to him on a normal day. At least to me, confessions are not within her priorities. She may be overprotective of Eren, that’s a given, she treasures him more than anything. But she isn’t also the type to force her feelings to him. For Mikasa, Eren’s safety is the priority. But that day was not any normal day, almost everybody around them was already being eaten, they no longer have horses, her ribs were fucking broken, and it was clear as day that no help is gonna come. But above everything, what broke her heart was seeing Eren blaming himself, saying he hasn’t changed as he is unable to do anything. This was definitely the last thing Mikasa wanted to see, an Eren who feels he is useless, because for Mikasa, he is her savior, her source of strength, and reason for living. For Mikasa, Eren being unable to do anything at that point, being unable to transform into a Titan, or being unable to fight at all won’t make his value to Mikasa any lesser, even if just to her.
Spoiler alert (refer to chap 71): The same way that Eren’s mom told Keith Shadis that Eren is already great as he is for existing and for being born into the world and that he doesn’t need to be great or better than everyone else, is exactly how Mikasa sees and values Eren too. For Mikasa, if they were about to die at that time, that was the only thing she wanted him to realize, that whether he can fight or not at the moment is not something that should define him as he is already a significant existence to her and other people. It became a confession somewhere along the way (god she almost kissed him), but what she really wanted to convey, more than her own feelings, was for him not to feel useless and recognize how he changed other people already.
And Eren clearly got that, the entirety of her message, and more importantly, that that was a goodbye from Mikasa, but he’s not taking any fucking goodbye from her. So for those disappointed that the kiss didn’t happen, that wasn’t Eren rejecting any romantic advance. It was him rejecting Mikasa’s goodbye, it was him refusing to die, refusing to let Mikasa die, and promising her he won’t leave her side forever. So if Mikasa’s message to Eren became a confession along the way, then Eren’s response to it was the real blessing. When all along what he wanted was revenge for everything he lost, this was one of the moments when he wanted to fight more for the future, a future where Mikasa should be in.
we got the most beautiful response from Eren, through words and actions. He almost literally told Mikasa he’d be with her forever, and then protected
Yes we didn’t get a kiss, but we got something way better.
Seriously, Annie fans, if you don’t know this song you should open this RIGHT NOW. It’s part of Linked Horizon’s “Shingeki no Kiseki” album, and I swear this is far better than any of the “official” character songs.
This is a truly masterpiece. Not only has beautiful, sad and amazingly well writing and accurate lyrics, which are the best Annie’s character depiction you could ever dream of. It also features GORGEOUS vocals and the music conposition is truly over the top (as expected from REVO). Even the title is a m a z i n g. It soon became one of my fave songs ever, and still get moved every time.
Also, if you didn’t, please give a listen to the whole album, there are also themes about Ilse’s Notebook and Carla, for example, and all of them are incredible. I swear it’s really a choice with no regrets.
(And thanks to @marchen-v-friedhof for all your amazing translations, as well as the YouTube user who made the video)
+ No one fucks with you because they know who you’re related to. + Being the polar opposite of Levi. You’re bubbly, carefree and fun and he’s so…him. + Levi thinks people are going to take advantage of your naive nature so he’s a very protective big brother. + You’re the only person that he would gladly give his life up for if it meant that you were safe. + As much as he’s a dick he really loves you. + You’re several years younger than him. + Most of you close friends are superiors and they’re way older than you. + Annoying the absolute fuck out of him. For example, he doesn’t like when you just barge into his office. + “I told you about coming in here unannounced.” + “Hey! Be nice to me. I brought your tea.” + “It probably tastes like shit.” + Having a really huge crush on Commander Erwin. + Levi isn’t happy about it but he’d rather it be eyebrows than one of those “shitty cadets.” + Being two inches taller than him and you tease him about it all the time. + Levi being more comfortable around you than his is with others. + During training he pushes you much harder than the other cadets. + Being the girl everyone wants but no one can have. + Guys flirting with you but they soon realize it was a mistake when they feel Levi’s eyes burning into their skull. They usually end up with stable duty for the next month. + Levi always knows when something is wrong so you can’t really hide anything from him and GOD FUCKING FORBID YOU LIE TO HIM. It’s the worse possible decision you could make. + When you get sad or upset you always go to Levi. + One time he found you in your room sobbing your eyes out and at first he was hesitant, but he soon pulled your crying figure into his arms. + “I know how it feels to feel like complete shit. But don’t think you can’t come fucking talk to me, brat.” + Unwanted hugs from you to Levi. Especially when you haven’t seen him in a while. + “Get the fuck off me!” + “No! Just accept my love!” + He actually really likes them. You seen him smile once. + “Hey, Levi?” + “What is it?” + “I love you.” + “… I love you too, kid. Now shut up and stop being stupid.”