I have never been more honest live than I am during this tour for ‘ARTPOP’. Some nights ‘Swine’, you know, a very personal song is as cathartic as justice and other nights I don’t want to be reminded. You can always tell. I’m always so happy to be on stage but with depression there are certain performances that I can’t get through. I don’t have the energy. I remember wanting to play ‘You and I’ since night one but after my Roseland shows I couldn’t actually do it. It was hard. This is what being a songwriter means. You can want to play some of your best songs and decide not to just because it’s too raw, too emotional, too personal. I want to give my fans everything and sometimes I have nothing. Do you know what I mean? When I sing these songs I’m singing from a place that not many of my fellow pop girls want to reach. That’s why I have the connection I do with my fans, my monsters, my friends, my babies. It’s real. I’ve sang lyrics as recently as last night with a certain look in my eyes and I look in the crowd and I know they’re on the same page. They know when it hurts and I do, too.