Fine Without Me (Hanbin- Alt. Ending 2)
…I didn’t know how to end it so… it sucks...
It’s already been a day since that date-gone-wrong with Hanbin. It took him an hour to finally text you and ask you where you went. Since you didn’t really have a strong enough personality to say anything, you came up with a lie. You told him you had received a call from your Mom and she needed you, as soon as possible.
Like you expected, Hanbin didn’t ask too much about it, instead going on to tell you what had happened with his friend that day and how he also had a surprise day off today.
Yesterday night you had come up with a plan. After thinking about it a lot you decided you weren’t going to let the relationship just end. So you were going to pay Hanbin a visit and get straight to the point. It wasn’t an exciting plan but it surely would result in an honest answer from him.
You began to get ready, unconsciously trying to look your best in hopes we pick you. After you were done you got in your car and drove to his house.
All throughout the ride there you were having doubts. If he had spent so much time with her, was picking her over you, wouldn’t he do the same now?
Your confidence lessened with each step towards his dorm. Your knock was quiet and you had to wipe your hands on your jeans to get rid of the sweat.
Jinhwan answered the door, giving you a surprised look. Usually they were told if you were coming, then they could clean up the dorm to make it look somewhat decent for a guest. “Please come in,” He held the door open, giving you a nervous look.
He could tell something was wrong, you could tell.
“Where’s Hanbin?” You didn’t have time to be social and greet all the boys. The suspense was killing you every second. All you got as a response was his finger pointing to Hanbin’s shared room.
You gave him a quick ‘thank you’ and headed for the room. As you passed the living room the boys looked up, their faces filled with shock like Jinhwan.
Before you got too far you heard one whisper, “Something’s wrong.” Soon your thoughts were filled to the brim with everything from the past to the present. Finally, you broke down completely.
“Hanbin?” You called through the door with a shaky voice. There was shuffling before it opened. Hanbin seen your tears and quickly brought you into a hug. “What’s wrong? What happened?”
You pulled back but his arms still stayed on your waist, “You.” His eyes widened with curiosity and mild shock. Taking a breath you let everything you’ve been feeling out, “I’m tired of being second. Letting you walk all over me. I… I love you Hanbin, but I won’t stay in a relationship where I’m not loved back. You’re always picking her over me. I’m not just being jealous, you’ll leave me for her. And… I want you to chose. Her or me. Who would you rather be with?”
His arms fell from your waist as you finished. This wasn’t what he expected. He never knew it was affecting you so much, that you felt this way.
Hanbin’s eyes grew cloudy, this was something you hadn’t seen in a while. His mouth opened and closed as he tried to find the right words. Finally, “Have you felt this way the whole time?” When he seen you nod he mumbled some words, the tears finally falling. “I’m so sorry. I-I didn’t know. I thought it wouldn’t bother you. I… I’ve been missing home and she was the closest thing since my family was unable to visit. She was always available and when I was with her it reminded me of my family, and times before being an idol. I’m so sorry.”
He stood looking down while repeatedly saying “I choose you.” All you did was stay frozen to the floor. Then, you laughed. This caused Hanbin to look even more scared and lost.
You stepped towards him and wrapped your arms tightly around him. “You’re so inexperienced, Hanbin.” He laughed slightly and hugged you even tighter then you did to him.
“If I ever do this again just take a picture of me in that beret and upload it to social media, I’ll deserve the hate.”