Air Force wife

…a relationship is two people. Not two people and everyone who has an opinion.
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thatsumgoodbeth

God Bless this woman. It can’t be said any better then that.

People who romanticize military relationships know nothing about them. There is nothing romantic about being apart more than being together. There’s nothing romantic about missing birthdays, holidays, births and special events. There’s nothing romantic about worrying non stop through a deployment. There’s nothing romantic about crying when you miss their call. I don’t do it because “it’s romantic.” I do it because I love him.

There are nights where I lay in bed, staring at my ceiling, wondering why I do it. Why wait for someone who can’t be here with me when I need him? Why wait for someone to come back to me when he’s the one thats constantly leaving? Why wait for a brief moment with him after so many months apart? Why wait for something that might never happen? Why wait for him at all?

I’ll admit, there have been times where I’ve totally lost it. There have been times where I’ve thrown things across the room and dented my walls. There have been times where I’ve screamed into pillows so no one could hear me. And times where I’ve gone and sobbed in the shower until I couldn’t breathe. If you’ve done it, then I’ve done it too. If you’ve thought it, then I’ve thought it too. If you’ve felt it, then I’ve felt it too. Every single day I think, “What kind of relationship is this? Who has a relationship with someone they never get to spend time with? Who deals with this crap? I can’t plan a single damn thing without having to consult the the military first.”

I mean, it’s insane. right? My whole life revolves around skype, phone calls, and the promise of a future together. I don’t fall alseep next to him, I fall asleep with him on Skype. I don’t get to touch him, or hug him, or kiss him, nearly as much as I’d like to… Or nearly as much as I’m entitled to. I find that I secretly resent girls who get to see their boyfriends or fiancés or husbands all the time - the line “I miss him” doesn’t mean anything to me when they say it. I feel like they never understand what missing someone is until their someone has been taken from them. So, when our someone has been taken away by the military, it’s like we voluntarily rescind any rights to a life of normalcy for a love that is committed, first to country, and second, to us.

So, why? Why do we do this to ourselves? Is it not enough that our men are taken from us, shipped off to god-knows-where, and then returned to us only after their (and our) duty is done? Who, in their right mind, would want to deal with that?

Well, I’ll tell you who wants to deal with it:

I do. Your next door neighbor does. The cashier behind the counter does. The science teacher does. The stay-at-home mom does. The average college student does.

Any woman who loves him, wants to deal with it.

We do it because we love them. We do it because we are the strongest women on earth. We do it because one, single, solitary moment with them is worth a lifetime away from them. It doesn’t mean we have to do this with a smile plastered on our face, and (Lord knows) we certainly don’t most of the time. We do it because, for his love, we’d do anything.

Honestly, most of the time, I hate it. It takes a pretty strong person to ignore the sting of tears, threatening to spill onto the canvas we call our face… The smallest thing can bring tears to my eyes: a song, a smell, a word, a place. anything and everything can make me tear up. Pretending to be happy is like an Olympic sport for those of us who are in love with someone who serves; their duty is to their country, while our duty is to love them. Despite all the pain we endure, it is truly an honor to love a man like that.

I fall among the silent ranks of those who love someone in the military. I live, love, and suffer in silence, with thousands of others who are waiting just as patiently as I am. We cling to moments, few and far between, because they are the promise of something more. We yearn for the phone calls, the text messages, the emails, because they remind us who were waiting for. We don’t measure time in days, or weeks, or months… We measure time from when he left, to when he’s going to return. We’ve learned that long stretches of time without them is worth the minuscule amount of time we get to spend with them; “time is of the essence”, is our motto for life.

So, when you ask why we do it, remember, we also ask ourselves why we do it. We ask ourselves every single day why we deal with this loneliness, this pain, this stupid thing we call love… And every time we remind ourselves: because one day he’ll come home to me.

After all, if it was easy, it wouldn’t be worth it.

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Milso Playlist

So I have a list of songs that I listen to when I’m really missing my boyfriend and they help me feel better. Some are older because my mom showed me some songs she used to listen to when my dad was gone for the Marines. I thought I’d share because I know how hard it can be to find a good song to cry to on harder nights. Also, some are military related songs and some aren’t but they’re about long distance and work too.

1.) Traveling Soldier- The Dixie Chicks 

2.) Never Be Alone- Shawn Mendes

3.) Jet Lag- Simple Plan ft Natasha Bedingfield

4.) Just a Dream- Carrie Underwood

5.) Ours- Taylor Swift (you should really watch the music video for this one)

6.) Hey There Delilah- Plain White T’s

7.) I Can Wait Forever- Simple Plan

8.) Letters from Home- John Michael Montgomery

9.) Riding with Private Malone- David Ball

10.) Courtesy of the Red, White, and Blue- Toby Keith

I hope you like at least some of these! Please reblog and add your own songs that have helped you. I’d love to make my list longer!

When things get hard don’t give up; try your best to fight for what you love and want.
I love sleeping with my husband

I mean like actual sleep, not sex, although sex with him is really awesome. I love when he falls asleep first, and I can feel his arms tighten around me and how he starts snoring quietly.
I love when he randomly wakes up, and isn’t touching me so he grabs me tight and pulls me as close as he can.
I love how even though he insists on having his own blanket when we go to bed, he always steals mine and wants to share twenty minutes later.
And how he always sleepily whispers “I love you too” back to me.
Don’t get me started on how sweet is he when we wake up in the morning, if he’s up before me then he’ll snuggle into my neck and say I love you and kiss me until I wake up.
I love how when he’s tired, he’ll say “give us kisses” instead of asking for a kiss.
I love when he randomly wakes up, and thinks we were having a conversation and then he fell asleep, so he’ll try and act like he didn’t fall asleep, by saying something random.
I love his random sleep talk, when he tells me wild stories.
Most of all, I just love my husband, and every night I get to spend with him and in his arms, I count as a blessing. He’s my world and I’m his.