All I Want

Summary: If you were to ask most people Phil Lester wouldn’t be the definition of normal. Asperger’s syndrome forms a clear divide between he and his classmates–and one that’s not going to close anytime soon. Dan is the only one who doesn’t seem to mind, but sometimes he can’t help but wonder if anything he did made a difference. Because by the end of the year Phil is gone and nothing’s the same again.

A/N: There are a few orientation things I have to go to in a couple of days and then school starts next week. I’m going to try and stick with updating Sundays, but this might go on an unofficial hiatus for a little because of PBB and the general back to school season. Also look at this cool thing someone made it’s beautiful and you’re amazingly talented thank you so much.

*I myself do not have Asperger’s, and while Phil’s character is inspired by/dedicated to someone close to me who does if there are traits Phil has that come across as being vastly inappropriate/offensive I apologize and please don’t hesitate to let me know


Chapter Two

    People are composed of an infinite number of things. You take a skeleton and add a brain, muscles, skin, eyes, a heart, and pretty soon you have yourself a human. At least that’s what the scientific definition would be, although Dan had never been very good at science.

   What makes someone who they are, well, that’s another story entirely and one that’s not quite as simple or literal as the anatomy of a human.

     Like anyone else Phil was composed of the same basic elements: bones, muscle, skin, fat, but when it came to what made him who he was the answer became a little more complicated.

     The second time Dan noticed Philip Lester was in the middle of gym. He’d managed to avoid participating thus far by claiming to have forgotten his P.E. kit each class, but eventually the teacher had called him and Dan was forced to abandon the charade and join in.

     Dodgeball was the current game of the week, and after being split into two teams Dan found himself standing against the wall and parallel to Phil, who was on the opposing team. Shoes squeaked across the floor as anticipation filled the air.

    The screaming of the whistle sent everyone sprinting to grab a ball, yelling and laughter breaking out as the two teams aimed them at each other. In contrast, Dan pressed back further into the wall and tried to blend in.

    Chris almost barreled into him as he ducked, the ball sailing over his head and hitting Dan squarely on the chest.

    Chris rolled to his and straightened, giving Dan an irritated look. “The hell was that?” Dan shrugged. He probably could’ve caught the ball if he’d been paying attention, but frankly he didn’t care enough about the game to devote the effort that would’ve taken.

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“You’re all I want!
You’re all I have!”

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Ed Sheeran & Kodaline - All I Want, Croke Park, 24/07/2015