I will miss our late night talks, the late night laughter and simply spending the night til morning listening to your voice until you fall asleep. I will miss it once I decide to finally threw everything away because I could no longer see you the way you wanted me to - a friend. I wanted to tell you all my feelings, my doubts, my fears, my everything starting from the moment I have come to realize that I am starting to like you more than just a friend. I tried my best to remove you from my system, to treat you the same way I treat others, I tried to talk to others because I thought that would change everything, I tried but I only felt pain because it seems that I was not being true to myself. Still, I know it wouldn’t compare to the pain I will feel once I choose to say goodbye. You don’t know how much I wanted to be with you, to be the one who makes you happy, be the one who gives you the love you deserve, be the one who will make you feel that you are the risk worth taking for. It’s probably stupid and cliché for me to say that I’d rather have you as a friend than not have you in my life at all. But I know that I will be lying to myself because I know deep in my heart that the real feelings I have for you will always remain. But right now, I’m willing to look past those feelings, to hide it just a little longer because I simply want to be with you - even if I’m only just a friend.