@face your fears

BTS Reactions- You get in an argument and you start to feel scared or upset

*Thank you for the request, i’m always up for doing some lovely angst*

Kim Namjoon:

“You were all over him.” You and Namjoon were currently fighting because he apparently saw you “flirting” with Jimin. “Am i not good enough for you? Do i not give you enough attention that you feel the need to go and fool around with one of my group members?” Namjoon said now raising his voice, “No Namjoon it’‘s not like that he just-” Namjoon slammed his hand down on the table and you flinched. You hated seeing him like this. ”Like what? Y/N he was hitting on you and you just sat and let it happen! Explain that to me huh?” He walked near you and slightly raised his hand and you put your hands in front of your face in fear that he was going to hit you. Namjoon’s eyes immediatly soften as he saw your fear-stricken face, he went on his knees and hugged your waist, crying into your hip. “Baby, i’m so sorry, i would never hit you, i’m so sorry you were scared,” He looked up now tears pouring down his face, “If you say there’s nothing between you and Jimin, i believe you, i just, i still feel like i don’t deserve you.” You crouched down and hugged him back tightly.

Kim Seokjin:

You were sat in the practice room next to Yoongi, watching Jin talk to some of the female staff. Yoongi nudged you noticing your expression, “Are you okay? You look mad?” You nodded in Jin’s direction and Yoongi’s expression softened. “He loves you too much to be flirting with others, Y/N i’m sure it’s nothing.” Yoongi tried to reassure you, but you couldn’t keep your attention off of Jin who was now surrounded by girls and was making the laugh. That’s it. “Jin i’m going, i’ll see you at home.” You grabbed your coat and left the room before you heard Jin’s response. 

Jin came back about 3 hours later and you had been sat in bed over-thinking the situation. “Jagi?” He knocked on your door as he heard your muffled cries. Am i not pretty enough? Has he already moved on? Do i bore him? Jin slowly opened the door and sat down next to you. “Do you still love me Jin?” You asked still not making eye contact. “Yes! Of course i do! What makes you say that?” He asked now concerned. “I just saw how you were talking and laughing with those girls at BigHit and-” Jin stood up. “You’re seriously upset over that? Oh come on grow up, you know i love you!” He shouted. You buried your face more into the pillow and he realized what he did and start apologizing, “I’m sorry Jagiya for making you feel like that, you have my complete attention now.” 

Min Yoongi:

You were with Yoongi in his studio and you were watching him work. Although you were starting to get a little bit bored, Yoongi doesn’t like to be disturbed whilst working, hence the passcode on his door, but you wanted him to pay a little bit of attention to you. “How’s it going?” You said breaking the silence. Yoongi nodded and grumbled “Good.” You pouted, not the reaction you were hoping for. You walked around his studio and peered over his shoulder, he looked up at you confused and slightly annoyed, “What are you doing? What do you want?” He asked taking off his headphones. “Oh i just wanted to see what you were doing.” You trailed off quietly, now sensing he wasn’t happy. “I’m working you know that now please shut up i need to write this, you can be so annoying sometimes.” He sat down and huffed out of annoyance. You slowly sank down in your seat. Annoying. You bit your lip and started to nervously fiddle with your fingers. “I’m going home.” You stated and put your coat on. Yoongi turned around, “Why?” You turned to him both mad and upset, “I’m too annoying to stay aren’t I?” Yoongi’s heart shattered and he raced out of his seat to hug you, “I’m so sorry baby, i’m just so stressed I shouldn’t have taken it out on you.” You weren’t having it, “No you shouldn’t, i’ll see you at home.” You hiccuped back a sob.

Jung Hoseok:

“Look you said you wanted to learn the dance and i’m helping you, this dance isn’t hard, stop getting it wrong.” Hoseok said annoyed as he dabbed his sweat away with a towel. “Well maybe you’re a bad teacher.” You said standing your ground. “Me? A bad teacher? No you’re just a bad dancer, i’m helping you out of pity.” He admitted but regret flashed upon his face as he saw your expression drop. “I have to go.” You hurriedly put your bag on and Hoseok grabbed onto your wrist. “Please, i’m sorry i didn’t mean it.” You shrugged his hand off and tears started falling from your eyes, “Then why did you say it?” You spat back at him. Hoseok hesitated, you shook your head and ran out of the room. 


Park Jimin:

You were walking to the dance studio to surprise Jimin and the others with some drinks when you started to overhear a conversation between Jungkook and Jimin. “How’s it going with Y/N, hyung?” Jimin nodded, “Yeah it’s going okay, to be honest she’s really needy, wherever i look she’s always there you know.” You almost dropped the drinks, but you steadily opened the doors trying to keep the tears in. “Hey boys, i brought you some drinks, but i’m not staying, i don’t want to seem too needy.” You stared at Jimin whilst saying the last sentence and he perked up realizing you had heard what he said. “No please don’t go i didn’t mean to say you were, i love your company.” You turned back to him with tears now streaming down your face. “Don’t try that shit with me Park, i know you meant what you said, so i’m going to do you a favour and leave.”

Kim Taehyung:

You and Taehyung had just arrived home from meeting up with the boys and he walked off to sit down. He seemed, upset or mad, you couldn’t tell as he wasn’t really talking. “Taehyungie, is something wrong?” You sat down next to him and went to place your hand over his, but he quickly snatched it away. “No.” He huffed and went to turn the TV on. “Please tell me what’s wrong, Tae.” He glared at you and stood up in anger. “Do you like Hoseok-hyung?” He said his voice dripping with venom. “What? That’s crazy what makes you even think that?” His eyes grew dark, “Because when you’re with him you’re a different person than who you are with me. You look as if you’re falling in love all over again.” Taehyung was now shouting and you stood up. “Are you seriously questioning my loyalty to you?” He went to speak but you cut him off, “No, let me talk. Kim Taehyung, i couldn’t even think of someone else the way i think of you, i’ve never stopped loving you and i don’t think i ever will. That fact that you just accused me of liking one of our best friends hurts me deeply, it makes me feel like complete shit because it means you don’t even realise how in love with you i am.” You stormed off to your room wiping away tears.

Jeon Jungkook:

Jungkook had come home from being out with Jimin and was acting rather, reserved. “So, what did you do today?” You asked sitting next to him, he was sat on his face and hadn’t glanced up once. “Just hung out.” He simply stated, “Were you just with Jimin or did the others join you?” You were set on atleast getting a small conversation out of him. “What’s with all the questions, you’re so clingey.” Jungkook scoffed and went back to his phone. You stood up in frustration, “I just wanted to talk to you, why are you acting so cold?” Jungkook turned off his phone and stood up. “Why are you getting in a fit with me? You don’t need to know about every aspect of my life, so just leave me alone.” He gestured his hands but you mistook it that he was going to hit you so you covered your face and waited for the impact. “Y/N, i wasn’t going to hit you..” He said as he slowly put his hand down in realization of how he just acted, “Are you scared of me?” You didn’t answer and ran off and locked the bathroom door, leaving Jungkook feeling guilty with tears now threatning to fall. 

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I hope this was okay? Thank you for the request and i’m so so sorry it took a while to write this, i guess i had writer’s block.

Originally posted by tattoo-yourenemy

ukgamer95dl  asked:

Congratulations on facing your fear and wearing in public finally. And even wearing at work 👍 Did you use your nappy?

Hey thanks honey! It really was not that fearful at all honesty, I just didn’t let it get to me and it was all smooth sailing 😊…and ummm well I may have tinkled a little bit 😳💖

anonymous asked:

hi,,, uh. I remember when I was a dragon I had a very close derg friend that died under mysterious circumstances and I never got to see him again. I want to reach out to people to see if I can find him again, but the thing is, I’m terrified of meeting new people... What should I do? I miss him..

Branch out! Meet new people. Face your fears head on, dragon.
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Casting Runes

Fehu: domestic cattle, wealth | possessions won or earned, earned income, luck / abundance, financial strength in the present or near future / sign of hope and plenty, success and happiness / social success / energy, foresight, fertility, creation/destruction | reversed or merkstave: loss of personal property, esteem, or something that you put in effort to keep / indicates some sort of failure / greed, burnout, atrophy, discord / cowardice, stupidity, dullness, poverty, slavery, bondage

Uruz: auroch, a wild ox | physical strength and speed, untamed potential / time of great energy and health / freedom, energy, action, courage, strength, tenacity, understanding, wisdom / sudden or unexpected changes (usually for the better) / sexual desire, masculine potency / the shaping of power and pattern, formulation of the self | reversed or merkstave: weakness, obsession, misdirected force, domination by others / sickness, inconsistency, ignorance / lust, brutality, rashness, callousness, violence

Thurisaz: thorn or a Giant | reactive force, directed force of destruction and defense, conflict. Instinctual will, vital eroticism, regenerative catalyst / tendency toward change / catharsis, purging, cleansing fire / male sexuality, fertilization | reversed or merkstave: danger, defenselessness, compulsion, betrayal, dullness / evil, malice, hatred, torment, spite, lies / a bad man or woman

Ansuz: the As, ancestral god, i.e. Odin | a revealing message or insight, communication / signals, inspiration, enthusiasm, speech, true vision, power of words and naming / blessings, the taking of advice / good health, harmony, truth, wisdom | reversed or merkstave: misunderstanding, delusion, manipulation by others, boredom / vanity and grandiloquence

Raidho: wagon or chariot | travel, both in physical terms and those of lifestyle direction | a journey, vacation, relocation, evolution, change of place or setting / seeing a larger perspective / seeing the right move for you to make and deciding upon it / personal rhythm, world rhythm, dance of life | reversed or merkstave: crisis, rigidity, stasis, injustice, irrationality / disruption, dislocation, demotion, delusion, possibly a death

Kenaz: beacon or torch | vision, revelation, knowledge, creativity, inspiration, technical ability / vital fire of life, harnessed power, fire of transformation and regeneration / power to create your own reality, the power of light / open to new strength, energy, and power now / passion, sexual love | reversed or merkstave: disease, breakup, instability, lack of creativity / nakedness, exposure, loss of illusion and false hope

Gebo: gift | gifts, both in the sense of sacrifice and of generosity, indicating balance / all matters in relation to exchanges, including contracts, personal relationships and partnerships |  merkstave: greed, loneliness, dependence, over-sacrifice / obligation, toll, privation, bribery

Wunjo: joy | joy, comfort, pleasure / fellowship, harmony, prosperity / ecstasy, glory, spiritual reward, but also the possibility of going “over the top” / if restrained, the meaning is general success and recognition of worth | reversed or merkstave: stultification, sorrow, strife, alienation / delirium, intoxication, possession by higher forces, impractical enthusiasm / raging frenzy, berzerker

Hagalaz: hail | wrath of nature, destructive, uncontrolled forces, especially the weather, or within the unconscious / tempering, testing, trial / controlled crisis, leading to completion, inner harmony | merkstave: natural disaster, catastrophe / stagnation, loss of power / pain, loss, suffering, hardship, sickness, crisis

Nauthiz: need | delays, restriction / resistance leading to strength, innovation, need-fire (self-reliance) / distress, confusion, conflict, and the power of will to overcome them / endurance, survival, determination /  time to exercise patience / recognition of one’s fate / major self-initiated change / face your fears | reversed or merkstave: constraint of freedom, distress, toil, drudgery, laxity / necessity, extremity, want, deprivation, starvation, need, poverty, emotional hunger

Isa: ice | a challenge or frustration / psychological blocks to thought or activity, including grievances / standstill, or a time to turn inward and wait for what is to come, or to seek clarity / reinforces runes around it | merkstave: ego-mania, dullness, blindness, dissipation / treachery, illusion, deceit, betrayal, guile, stealth, ambush, plots

Jera: a year, a good harvest / the results of earlier efforts are realized /  time of peace and happiness, fruitful season / can break through stagnancy / hopes and expectations of peace and prosperity / the promise of success earned / life cycle, cyclical pattern of the universe / everything changes, in its own time | merkstave: sudden setback, reversals / a major change, repetition, bad timing, poverty, conflict

Eihwaz: yew tree | strength, reliability, dependability, trustworthiness / enlightenment, endurance / defense, protection / the driving force to acquire, providing motivation and a sense of purpose / indicates that you have set your sights on a reasonable target and can achieve your goals / an honest man who can be relied upon | reversed or merkstave: confusion, destruction, dissatisfaction, weakness

Perthro: lot cup, vagina | uncertain meaning, a secret matter, a mystery, hidden things and occult abilities. Initiation, knowledge of one’s destiny, knowledge of future matters, determining the future or your path / pertaining to things feminine, feminine mysteries including female fertility etc. / good lot, fellowship and joy / evolutionary change | reversed or merkstave: addiction, stagnation, loneliness, malaise

Algiz: elk, protection | protection, a shield / the protective urge to shelter oneself or others / defense, warding off of evil, shield, guardian / connection with the gods, awakening, higher life. It can be used to channel energies appropriately / follow your instincts / keep hold of success or maintain a position won or earned | reversed: or merkstave: hidden danger, consumption by divine forces, loss of divine link / taboo, warning, turning away, that which repels

Sowilo: the sun | success, goals achieved, honor / the life-force, health / a time when power will be available to you for positive changes in your life, victory, health, and success / contact between the higher self and the unconscious / holeness, power, elemental force, sword of flame, cleansing fire | merkstave: false goals, bad counsel, false success, gullibility, loss of goals / destruction, retribution, justice, casting down of vanity / wrath of god

Tiwaz: Tyr, the sky god | honour, justice, leadership and authority / analysis, rationality / knowing where one’s true strengths lie / willingness to self-sacrifice / victory and success in any competition or in legal matters | reversed or merkstave: one’s energy and creative flow are blocked/ mental paralysis, over-analysis, over-sacrifice, injustice, imbalance / strife, war, conflict, failure in competition / dwindling passion, difficulties in communication, and possibly separation

Berkano: Berchta, the birch-goddess | birth, general fertility, both mental and physical and personal growth, liberation / regenerative power and light of spring, renewal, promise of new beginnings, new growth / arousal of desire / a love affair or new birth / the prospering of an enterprise or venture | reversed or merkstave: family problems and or domestic troubles / anxiety about someone close to you / carelessness, abandon, loss of control / blurring of consciousness, deceit, sterility, stagnation

Ehwaz: horse, two horses | transportation / may represent a horse, car, plane, boat or other vehicle / movement and change for the better / gradual development and steady progress are indicated / harmony, teamwork, trust, loyalty / an ideal marriage or partnership / confirmation beyond doubt the meanings of the runes around it | reversed or merkstave: not really a negative rune / a change is perhaps craved / feeling restless or confined in a situation / reckless haste, disharmony, mistrust, betrayal

Mannaz: man, mankind | the Self; the individual or the human race / your attitude toward others and their attitudes towards you / friends and enemies, social order. Intelligence, forethought, create, skill, ability / divine structure, intelligence, awareness / expect to receive some sort of aid or cooperation now | reversed or merkstave: depression, mortality, blindness, self-delusion / cunning, slyness, manipulation, craftiness, calculation / expect no help now

Laguz: water, or a leek | flow, water, sea, a fertility source, the healing power of renewal / life energy and organic growth / imagination and psychic matters / dreams, fantasies, mysteries, the unknown, the hidden, the deep, the underworld / success in travel or acquisition, but with the possibility of loss | reversed or merkstave: an indication of a period of confusion in your life / you may be making wrong decisions and poor judgements / lack of creativity and feelings of being in a rut / fear, circular motion, avoidance, withering / madness, obsession, despair, perversity, sickness, suicide

Ingwaz: Ing, the earth god | male fertility, gestation, internal growth / common virtues, common sense, simple strengths, family love, caring, human warmth, the home / rest stage, a time of relief, of no anxiety / a time when all loose strings are tied and you are free to move in a new direction / listen to yourself | merkstave: impotence, movement without change / poduction, toil, labour, work

Dagaz: day or dawn. | breakthrough, awakening, awareness / daylight clarity as opposed to nighttime uncertainty / time to plan or embark upon an enterprise / the power of change directed by your own will, transformation / hope and happiness, the ideal / security and certainty / growth and release / balance point, the place where opposites meet | merkstave: a completion, ending, limit, coming full circle / blindness, hopelessness

Othala: ancestral property | inherited property or possessions, a house, a home / what is truly important to one / group order, group prosperity / lLand of birth, spiritual heritage, experience and fundamental values / aid in spiritual and physical journeys / source of safety, increase and abundance | reversed or merkstave: lack of customary order, totalitarianism, slavery, poverty, homelessness / bad karma, prejudice, clannishness, provincialism / what a man is bound to

Say no to bad dates, bad friends, and bad ideas. Stop going out when you’d rather stay in. Don’t do things that make you unhappy. But don’t be afraid to say yes to spontaneous nights out, new adventures, and facing your fears. Because it’s true what they say, life is short, and it’s passing you by right now while you read this. So if there’s anything you want to change in your life don’t wait. This is your moment.
—  If you’re waiting for a sign this is it.
FACE YOUR FEARS commentary post!

I love the commentary posts that Toby has been doing, so i wanted to follow suit and give some backstory to the episode! It goes without saying that there will be spoilers, so mute #OK KO SPOILERS if you wanna keep your eyes and ears unspoilt!

This was the first episode that Haewon and I got that addressed substantial main story points! It was a very intimidating episode to tackle, but it ended up being immensely fun and satisfying to work on! Since it’s about getting trapped in a video game, i decided to lean hard into my nerdy videogamey roots and paid a lot of homage to games that left a huge impact on me! 

The Face Of Fear arcade machine:


The arcade machine was in Haewon’s part of the episode, but i couldn’t help making designs for it… and not only did she use it, she made it even better!! She designed the SUPER EXTRA HARD DIFFICULTY version that the machine turns into after Gar bites off more than he can chew!

Dendy’s explanation of how the game works:

I made a little video game overworld map segment to accompany dendy’s explanation of how the Face of Fear game works! This was a blend of three of my all time favorite games: I referenced MAGICAL DROP 3 for the general UI of the map because I love its aesthetics, I referenced the TURBO TUNNEL stage from the original BATTLETOADS N.E.S. game because that was one of the most terrifying and nightmarish stages i have ever played through as a child (a perfect fit for a game that is basically a nightmare given form imo), and i referenced EXOR from SUPER MARIO RPG, because that boss battle had such a huge impact on me when i first played it! Exor still looks really cool and badass to me, to this very day.

Enid’s Fear:

This is probably the most obvious reference, if you’ve ever played Chrono Trigger! It’s based on the climactic Magus fight, about a quarter of the way into the game! chrono trigger has been such a huge influence and helped me shape what my definitions of dramatic storytelling were, so i just HAD to give it a nod, even if its application wasn’t half as dramatic as the source material, hehe.

Rad’s Fear:

I can’t remember for the life of me if it was me or haewon that thought of having rad’s fear set in a room that was just a bunch of rad faces laughing and posturing (pretty sure it was haewon), but i DID draw this diagram of the room’s layout!

I have hit the image limit for this post, so i think i will end this here! There are more references in this episode, maybe i’ll do a part 2? maybe not? who knows! Thanks for reading, all the same! And to those who were saying that the right enid portrait in her fearscape looked a little familiar…

12th House “Symptoms” When Underdeveloped

Some things you might experience when you are still underdeveloped/haven’t faced your fears or grown from your 12th House. 

Aries/Mars Symptoms: Shy or very passive, cries from anger/frustration, and doesn’t know how to deal with authority. Feels shame from anger or assertiveness, annoyed easily, hates disorder, fast driver, and could have gambling issues. Avoids, suppresses, or ashamed of sex drive and sexual desires.

Taurus/Libra/Venus Symptoms: Insecure about looks or material wealth/status, seeks approval, and is easily jealous. Changes themselves in every new relationship and can’t take criticism. Competitive with same-sex/dating rivals, and lies to themselves about love or admiration. Denies their feminine side and others’ feminine traits.

Gemini/Virgo/Mercury Symptoms: Never raises their hand in class, can be shy, and seeks out knowledge in private/secret. Can brag about knowledge and opinions and doesn’t want to know what others think of them.

Scorpio/Pluto Symptoms: Lack of assertiveness, avoids flaws or past trauma, hates crowds, desires to control environment, and has anger problems. Has jealousy issues, refuses to admit their fascinations, and has a secret manipulative side and secret side all around. Avoids, suppresses, or ashamed of sex drive and sexual desires.

Leo/Sun Symptoms: Humble to an unhealthy extent/low self-esteem, shy in groups, almost never leads, and has a timid vibe. Has misplaced loyalty, generosity and selfishness are unbalanced, and doesn’t always follow their heart.

Cancer/Moon Symptoms: Jealousy sneaks out, hides EVERYTHING behind toughness and/or confidence. Has issues with their mother/parents or has serious blockage to their own nurturing side. Is unnaturally detached, feels uncomfortable taking care of others, and refuses to cry!

Sagittarius/Jupiter Symptoms: Always feels unlucky, blames their problems on others, lacks confidence, and fears change. Avoids challenges, impatience is always bubbling under the surface, and hates public speaking. 

Capricorn/Saturn Symptoms: Irresponsible, a show-off especially with material things, doubts their self-worth, and lacks purpose. Fears change, doesn’t do well with authority, there is a lack of inner stability, and is easily used. Fear of failure controls everything, they can lack adaptability, and acts like a slow learner (likely isn’t). 

Aquarius/Uranus Symptoms: Tries to conform, easily gives into peer pressure, is overly attached to the group or friends. Doesn’t do well with change, can’t stand rejection, and is easily lost in mind, emotions, and self. Easily gives into temptation, dreads being an outsider, and trends and gossip can consume them.

Pisces/Neptune Symptoms: Addictive behavior, always seems to make wrong choices, and doesn’t trust self. Intuition and logic are always battling, they refuse to admit vulnerability or that they love someone. Refuses help, can be unforgiving, and doesn’t bend but breaks with challenges. Tricks self or lies to self, spiritually disconnected, and can’t handle loss.

your father was an inventor. you knew better than to trust him in the center of town. he came home with scrap metal and built ships to glide on the grass. when you were young, you loved him for making. for a brief five years, you hated him, embarrassed of the town loon, embarrassed of what raised you.

but time shifts things. the man in town wants to marry you. a beautiful man by every account, and you hear many accounts. your nose in books doesn’t stop the stories of him: Gaston, bright, young, proud. Gaston, who could hunt and carve and flex his muscles. who forgot even himself what was true and what was fiction. it is a small village in paris, at the base of a kingdom. he is the bachelor you should have your heart set on. 

you try to teach yourself to love him. he grins at you over beer mugs. never reads the books you suggest to him, drops one in the mud. and one night you hear him, drunk and singing, laughing with the others about your father, the crazy.

that night your father brings you a single white rose from a garden. you kiss your father and think of Gaston’s log cabin, where you could live in comfort.

they come for your father in the night. he is the property of the prince, on account of theft. his hands should be cut off and sewn to the walls of his house, to remind him of his failures. an inventor without hands is a death sentence. they come with fire and hatred. rip you out of bed. your knees hit the mud. you’re too small to fight them. they tear your father away from you, and your heart out of your chest.

you run to gaston. tall, fast, manly. you beg him. it’s a mistake, you cry, you must help - you gulp - and then we will marry. 

gaston laughs and slams oak door against nose. you stumble back, feeling like a knife is in your throat. you take the wagon horse and ride improper, legs spread and bent forward, none of the lady your mother would have wanted. you ride for the life of your father.

at the door of the castle you stop. it is raining. you shout and rave and beg anything. take me, you scream, if you’re listening i’ll do anything. what do you promise on that doorstep, crying yourself empty? what do you promise to keep him alive, to keep him whole, to keep him healthy?

the door opens late. no one is there. you remember, suddenly, the tale of the beast who lives here, who ate the prince, who is terrifying. you think you hear your father and suddenly you are running, following his voice down dark hallways with no ending. 

he is in a cell. his head is bleeding. you feel your breath hitch. 

“will you?” a voice says, “will you trade yourself for your father, take responsibility for his sin?”

“he’s innocent,” you snarl, “you animals.”

“the rose, belle,” he whispers, and you stare at him. a white rose that is wilting beside your bedside would have been the death of him.

“take me,” you say, somehow empty and full at the same time, “if that’s what you need.”

the first night is ugly. you spend it crying. 

over time, the castle learns you, and you learn it. you think you are imagining the talking furniture for most of it. invisible hands whisk food in and out, bring you ball gowns and petticoats and delicate flowers. 

and always, the beast. at first, you were terrified of it. always in the shadows. moving like a ghost, prowling. tall, slim. menacing. never showing any skin, any proof it might be human.

but time and comfort destroy fears. you don’t run when it is in the room, you no longer shield your face in fear. it wears a mask, and this is how you know it really must be beastly. 

it is the second winter when you, playing snowball fights with the statues - you manage to hit the beast in the face. you freeze, and the panic from the day they took your father returns in a firework.

but then the beast is throwing back. and you are laughing. the next morning it is at breakfast with you, and lunch. it comes and goes, and never speaks. laughs, sometimes, you think. talks with its hands. the furniture translates. you learn, because you are good at learning. the hands that mean can i come in? the hands that mean are you hungry? the hands that mean is it okay if i read next to you, here this book is good, i found this for you.

each morning you wake up with white roses by your bedside. you learn to talk a little louder than you’re used to, to move your own hands in a way that acknowledges the beast. it is strange that you were a quiet girl and now you are comfortable shouting. the two of you have your own language, together. it teaches you swordfighting, you teach it dancing. it teaches you archery and you teach it cooking. you walk through the gardens together. there are moments where your hands touch and for some reason you blush like it was kissing. you’ve never had someone who understands you so completely. sometimes you tell it about far-away stories. sometimes you tell it about your village. and sometimes, when you are raw, you tell it about gaston and the marriage you didn’t want and your father and his insanity

one of these nights the beast brings you the mirror. you cry when you see your father. and the beast is pulling you, running, picking out a horse from the stables, gesturing. go, go. you cry when you leave.

you save your father. tell him you’ll bring him back to the beast. do you talk too loud? is gaston only mad you never belonged to him? when the raid starts, you are still taking care of your father. outside, voices, ringing. kill the beast. you think of hands, dancing in the air to speak, and you think you have never heard something so ugly. you’re ashamed to be this species.

you ride in their wake, your father safe. you ride that same panicked race as three years ago to the day. 

you fight, because the beast taught you how. the castle fights, because it is protecting its life. and the beast - you watch the flash of a blade, careful not to kill - the ability you once mistook for savagery. 

it isn’t enough. gaston, and a gun. the three of you stand on the balcony, you in between. again you are begging this man, who means nothing. “leave the beast,” you say, “take me.”

“i’ll have both,” he says, and shoots. you feel the bullet streak by you. the beast is all movement, has pushed you out of the way. they grapple, and you scream when the beast falls, skittering. gaston marches over and you move without thinking. he falls into the night silently. 

you can’t get there quick enough. you gather the beast into your lap, begging be okay. at the mask, you whisper something, and then say it again with your hands. i love you, you say. you were the best thing to happen to me.

the mask slips. a voice says, “belle,” and you are hit with the full force of something that feels like music. you can’t breathe. 

the girl beneath the mask is beautiful. her blonde hair spills across your legs. she touches your face and her hands say i’m okay, and you’re laughing. you kiss her and roses open up in you. 

“i thought you were a beast,” you say with hands and lips a hair above hers, “and here you are, the beauty.”

she smiles sheepishly. it is hard when you are like me. 

your are sobbing. you kiss her again, because you can, because she’s here and perfect and the answer to questions you didn’t know you had been asking. 

her hands, curious, worried, search for your wet cheeks. i’m okay, really, belle. you saved me.

funny, your hands dance, i was about to say the same thing.

  • Wally West: Was almost not released from Doctor Fate's helmet because Nabu knew he was worthy, uses denial as a coping mechanism because he can't handle confronting his problems because they cause him pain, chooses not to believe in magic because he can't stand accepting something he can't control and science is the only thing he can trust, was trusted enough by Dick that he revealed his and Bruce's identities, was the first one who escaped from the nightmare in Face Your Fears, is insecure because he thinks he's not good enough to be Flash's sidekick, protected Artemis in Bereft even after she said she'd probably been sent to kill him, the volcano that Red Volcano activated in Humanity would have destroyed the world had Wally not used his immense intelligence to figure out a way to save them, sacrificed his birthday to save a young queen by running a donor heart cross country, realized that the best birthday gift he could have ever gotten was seeing her smile, uses humor and bad flirting because he has a fear of rejection, FREAKING GOT HIMSELF STUCK IN THE SPEEDFORCE TO SAVE THE WORLD AND NOW EVERYONE THINKS HE'S DEAD, AND HIS LAST WORDS WERE TELLING BARRY TO MAKE SURE ARTEMIS AND HIS PARENTS KNEW HE LOVED THEM.
  • Also Wally West: I'll bet you I can eat that whole pizza in two bites