Because I need you to tell me if it’s real. I made a movie about what we went through, okay? And I need you to tell me if I got it right. That my memories are your memories. Did I lie about anything…? I wanna know we felt the same things. <br/>
Sorry I have been absent and took forever to update. Things just came up and I got busy. Also, I’m sorry for saying I will update and then like I never do.
I’m sure you have heard this enough on this blog, but I’m gonna work on it. I’m gonna try and update more.
I’m also doing a side project with my friend, @elvenrain (btw check out her beautiful art), where we will have partner ask blogs. Even though I will have another ask blog I will keep updating this blog. This blog is my baby and I will not ignore it. The other blog is gonna be more for relaxing or if I wanna just mess around. (I’ll probably reblog the opening post here once just so you guys know)
Now I’m just rambling, sorry about that.
The main point is-
I am gonna work on updates for this blog, and hopefully do one of the M!As sitting in my inbox.
Also, I just wanna thank you guys for sticking around so long! I figured a bunch of you would have left by now but omg you have stayed and it makes me so happy (*´꒳`*)
kat how did you loose 60 lbs. ive been trying to lose weight but struggling
i have a very strict diet and i exercise a lot. i drink tons of water. i take a probiotic every morning. i eat six meals a day. i’m gluten-free, i try not to eat anything frozen except for vegetables and things made of vegetables. (and bread, because gluten-free bread has to be frozen.) i eat six-eight times a day, and i allow myself one cheat meal a week. i box three or four times a week, and i try to walk at least four miles a day. oh! and i cut out alcohol except for special occasions.
the most important thing, i think, is to have a good support system. i go to boxing class with friends. i bring my lunch to work with a friend. i tried to lose weight a few years ago, and my friends said they were supportive but then they’d not be. they’d only want to hang out in bars or unhealthy restaurants. so finding people who support and respect your choices is really important.
40 prompts. /
“you hide it in jokes and sarcasm, but i see just how broken you are.”
they don’t like to talk about it, especially not to pbg.
alex doesn’t want him to worry about them; it’s that same, self sacrificing bullshit that you’ll find in every person who’s ever been hurt. oh, i didn’t want to be a burden, oh, i didn’t want you to worry, oh, i didn’t want you to see me being weak – it’s all the fucking same, and they know it. everyone knows it. still, they keep it in.
pbg is the same, and he knows this is how everyone is, and it makes him hypocritical to be worried, but it’s in his nature. one day, he catches alex by the arm as they’re about to leave and bares his heart, eyebrows furrowed over large, puppy dog eyes. he knows it’s cheesy, but they have to know; ‘you hide it in jokes and sarcasm, but i see just how broken you are.’
he knows it’s a bad idea when alex gives him a look so cold he feels his blood run still. ‘let go of me,’ they tell him, soft and firm, and he does so, fear rising in his throat. ‘we aren’t talking about this. i don’t want to talk about this.’
and so they don’t.
and so pbg lets alex distance themselves from him, lets a feeling wash over him – a missed opportunity, a door that was once open falling slowly and dramatically shut, only without the fanfare he had been expecting. it’s too quiet for his liking.
i just wanted everyone to know that i am still alive! i have been really busy, and in my spare time i’ve been mapping out the chaptered zelink fic that i should hopefully start soon!! although since i’ve never finished a longer fic ever i’m trying to make it as easy for myself as possible. i will get to some requests later today <3
and i just wanted to say thank you for everyone’s support. people’s tags, reblogs, replies, and asks are so sweet and really do drive me to continue ;__; i love writing and i love zelink so i won’t stop anytime soon!