lol loving my solar return chart for this year!! already sinking very deep into sadness because i feel very different from everyone in this county and i’m making myself smaller and dumbing myself down because of it :~)
i have sr sun in 11th, uranus in 7th, and sr venus falling in my natal 10th house.
i have never before had a problem with being the Different one, and now i find myself crying at home because i feel so outcasted. wtf. i hate me.
You weren’t going to tell anyone until it was certain. You
had gotten a positive result on the instant pregnancy test, but it had happened
before and just been a mistake. Of course you weren’t planning on telling
anyone. Why freak everyone out if it wasn’t even necessarily true? Somewhere
deep down, however, you knew you were lying to yourself.
You had gone to the doctor. He had given you the results.
You decided to keep it secret just a little longer. Miscarriages were most
likely in the first trimester. And really, there wasn’t any reason to make Nate
bench you if he didn’t need to.
It was Eliot who found out first. He noticed you eating more
than usual. You referred to yourself as ‘us’. As soon as you heard the word
come out of your mouth, your hand rushed to cover it, hoping Eliot hadn’t heard
you. He slowly turned around to face you.
“Us?” He questioned. Your face went white. He had heard you.
“I just meant, you know, I just – I just meant you and me?”
You weren’t confident, and because you had made such a slip up you were too
hasty to cover your tracks. Eliot’s eyes softened as he realized the gravity of
what you had said.
“You’re going to have a baby,” he said, a smile slowly
slipping onto his face.
“Um, well…maybe?” your voice was quiet and uncertain. Eliot
laughed and went around the counter to give you a tight hug.
“I thought you were walkin’ different.”
“You have a very distinctive walk,” he said in defense. You
rolled your eyes as you asked him to keep it a secret from the rest of the
Next to figure it out was Hardison. Well, Hardison and
Parker. Parker seemed to come out of nowhere, landing right in front of you.
Instinctively you covered your stomach and backed up.
“Hey Parker,” you said, still trying to catch your breath
from the scare she’d given you.
“Hey. Hey Alec can you get me the other rope?” You had been
talking with Hardison and she had plummeted right in between you two.
“Yeah…sure babe, here you go,” he answered you, looking at
you with a raised eyebrow.
“Do I have something on my face?” You asked as his look
became more and more curious.
“No, you just…” his eyes lowered to your hands, still
covering your stomach. You blushed and quickly put your hands back into your
pockets attempting to be as casual as possible.
“No way.” Hardison figured it out. His signature 100-watt
smile carefully made its way onto his face. “Were you ever gonna tell us?” He
“Tell you what?” You figured if you feigned ignorance he
would drop it. You should have known better.
“You’re pregnant?” You scrunched your eyes closed. You had
been so careful. “Ha! Boy or girl?”
“Do I look pregnant?” You were suddenly self-conscious, worried that Nate and
Sophie would figure it out and bench you.
“Nah, honey, you look great,”
“How the hell am I supposed to know the gender of my baby?
I’m still in the first trimester.” You lowered your voice, glancing around to
make sure no one was around.
“Woah, baby!” Parker said as she came down once again in
between you and Hardison.
“Alec, Parker, please don’t tell anyone,” you begged, hoping
that they actually listened to you.
“Cross my heart,” Alec said with a smile.
“Yeah, sure, Alec can you get me the nail gun?”
It wasn’t really until you started to show that Nate and
Sophie caught on. It wasn’t that you
were getting fat, but you were starting to become a little more round. Sophie,
of course, noticed first. She pointed it out to Nate and they both decided to
confront you together.
“Hey, what’s wrong?” You asked as you walked over to them.
They had asked to meet with you privately.
“I have a question, well really we have a question, and it’s very important that you answer it, and
if the answer is no, we can just forget about this whole thing –“ Sophie was
rambling. You could tell she was nervous, and you knew why.
Nate suddenly cut her off. “Are you pregnant?” You chuckled
at his bluntness, and then bit your lip nervously. You knew you were going to
have to have this conversation very soon with them, but you hoped you would
have a little more time.
“Is it really that obvious? I didn’t think I was showing
very much yet,” you said, glancing down at your slightly protruding stomach.
“Oh you aren’t, dear, we just wanted to make sure, congratulations!”
Sophie said, squeezing your hand. You smiled thankfully.
“I hate to do this, but you know I don’t want yo – either of
you to get hurt.” Nate said.
“I know, I know, but can I at least help Hardison back stage
or something? I don’t want to leave you guys in a lurch,” you said, anxious to
get back to work. Nate begrudgingly agreed and you all walked to the back of
the Brew Pub where Eliot, Hardison, and Parker awaited for your return so they
could start the con. When you walked back into the room, they were all staring
at the door.
“They know,” was all you said. They all congratulated you,
and Sophie promised to throw a baby shower for you once the con was done.