Today–July 1, 2015– is 90 days in recovery. 90 days clean. 90 days I wasn’t sure I was ever guaranteed. 90 days spent with friends and family and making new friends and family. If you asked me a year ago, I’d tell you I wasn’t an addict I didn’t have a problem, but I did. I do. And I’m working on it every day.
This is me after eating a ham and cheese omelet for breakfast, a ham and cheese sandwich for lunch with half a mango and half a Digornio’s pizza, a handful of mini kit kats, half a pint of strawberry sorbet for dinner.
It was my cheat day and let me tell you, I gained a pound and this is my food baby belly, haha. I just woke up and hadn’t gone to the bathroom yet.
30 seconds 8/10 (did two rounds of this = about 5 minutes of warm-up)
Exercise: Bike on level 10
60 seconds 8/10 (speed), then 60 seconds of 3/10 (speed) immediately after. Repeat.
I did this for 24 minutes, or 12 rounds, without a break. Then a two minute cool down.
I feel great! I had an awesome, filling dinner before I went to the gym: grilled chicken salad, veggies with a little rice, and Jell-O! This week is going much better then last, only I won’t have access to the gym on Thurs or Fri, and I’m a little worried about that. I ordered 10lb dumbbells and had them mailed home so I would have them for Thanksgiving, but they haven’t gotten there yet.
Oh, this is the first time I’ve worked out at night since I’ve started. Now I’m debating if I like working out in the day or night better. Hmm.
Today is the 90th day. I’m doing it. I feel so much stronger this time. My goals are in my sights and I’m absolutely unstoppable. Nothing is more important than my sobriety and my success. I used to get excited to drink, but now I’m just excited about the present and what my future holds. There is so much to live for, but it doesn’t materialize over night. Self-care is so fucking important and I don’t care how long it takes you, but every person on this planet needs to take the time to think about what that means to them and what they have to do to make sure they are giving themselves an outstanding level of care. My addiction is no longer an affliction it is now a source of gratitude. I’m living with my eyes wide open now and there’s so much to see with this new found clarity. I am so proud to say that I no longer want to escape my life, I’ve never been so excited to be alive.
People don’t understand my total love for Amelia Shepherd; when the truth is - her story parallels my own so damn closely at times; I find her inspiring - and I hope to god one day I can continue to grow the way she has in her sobriety. Because she made it through her dark times, it makes me believe I may make it through mine
Today marks the day I am done with the 3 Day Shakeology Cleanse and 90 Day Turbo Fire Challenge.
I am fucking excited to see my end results tomorrow. FUCK YES. I hope they’re amazing. I worked so hard these 3 months. And I am SO FUCKING EXCITED for 60 day INSANITY challenge starting on May 16th! Summer’s going to be so fucking fun :)
I think I figured out what the plan is! But first, I must tell you about my workout. Today I went to the track, again, and decided to just run. To forget about running the bleachers, and to just run around the track. I did just that, and I ran two whole miles without stopping! That’s something that has NEVER been done before. Not even in high school when I was on the dance/cheer/swim team! And my pace was 10'18"/mi. Whoo!
Numbers aren’t everything! Although I haven’t seen a huge difference in my appearance, or on the scale, I feel so much better about myself. My confidence has boosted, and I’m always in a good mood after my workouts. Just to know that I’m becoming more fit, and that I’m eating healthier makes me feel better.
So, the plan is to keep running. I’m just gonna head down to the track and run. As time goes by, I hope to see improvement in my time and distance. Oh, and my weight. Lol. I’ve always said I wanted to become more of a runner, so that’s what I’m gonna do. And hopefully I’ll be able to run the perimeter of my school at some point.