808s&Heartbreak

I realize now that when your heart breaks you got to fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. Because you are and that pain you feel that’s life. The confusion and fear; that’s there to remind you that somewhere out there something is better. That something is worth fighting for. As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things that we think will make our lives better, we ignore what truly matters - the simple things. Like friendship, family and love. Yes, losing your heart’s desire is tragic but gaining your hearts desire is all you can hope for. This year I wished for love, to immerse myself in someone else and awake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted, and if having that is tragic than give me tragedy, because I wouldn’t give it back for the world.
I had to get over him. For months now, a stone had been sitting on my heart. I’d shed a lot of tears over him, lost a lot of sleep, eaten a lot of cake batter. Somehow, I had to move on. Life would be hell if I didn’t shake loose from the grip he had on my heart. I most definitely didn’t want to keep feeling this way, alone in a love affair meant for two. Even if he’d felt like The One. Even if I’d always thought we’d end up together. Even if he still had a choke chain on my heart.
—  Kristan Higgins, All I Ever Wanted

“How do you do it?” she asked. “How do you pretend that seeing them with someone else doesn’t take another shard of your fragile, glass heart every time?”
“Because I don’t think I can do it,” she cries. “I can’t pretend that I don’t wrap myself around my pillow at night to muffle the tears of a broken soul and I can’t silence my eyes when my heart breaks in them every time I meet his hazel gaze.”

“The trick,” they replied, “is to keep breathing. The trick is to not let your breath halt even though your heart skips a beat when you see them. The trick is to not gasp for air any time they smile and the trick is to not miss a step when they let their gentle, dangerous fingertips linger on another’s hand for a beat longer than necessary.”

“You just keep walking and breathing and walking and breathing and, one day, your heart won’t skip a beat and you won’t feel the urge to cry whenever they so much as look at someone else and you’ll just keep breathing.”

—  The trick is to keep breathing, 01/07/2015