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okay, so here you are! For my 14,000th post I said I’d do a follow forever and here’s one. My brain went dead so I’m super sorry if I missed you out, but I just looked at my tumblr crushes and thought about the people with the blogs I remember, I’ll do another one soon, with different people.

What's your darkest secret?
  • You:I'm not dead. -SH
  • Stranger:Holy crap. - JW
  • You:...Surprise. -SH
  • Stranger:Wha- what?! - JW
  • Stranger:Is this some kind of sick joke? Because it isn't funny. - JW
  • You:It's not a joke, John. I'm alive. -SH
  • Stranger:But you- I saw you fall. I saw you hit the ground! I... - JW
  • You:Did you, John? Did you actually see me hit the ground? -SH
  • Stranger:You... You were on the ground, Sherlock, all bloody and I didn't know what to do! - JW
  • You:You did what I expected you to do. You accepted it. Now I need you to do one more thing for me. -SH
  • Stranger:What? Anything. Please. Will you come home, if I do? - JW
  • You:I need you to forget about me. I can't come home, John. I need you to move on. -SH
  • Stranger:No... No. No. I can't do that. - JW
  • You:You have to, John. Please. Think of it as my last request. -SH
  • Stranger:NO. - JW
  • You:John. I don't want you to hurt any more. I want you to carry on living your life... without me. -SH
  • Stranger:You don't understand, Sherlock. I can't NOT hurt without you. - JW
  • Stranger:Damn it, I can't live without you at all! I sit here all day, motionless, thinking. I do far too much thinking now, you'd hate it. It's all I'm able to do. I barely eat. I barely talk, or sleep. Mrs Hudson keeps trying to get me to go to my therapist but I can't. I won't. I know what's wrong with me, and talking about you won't help. It'll just hurt more. I'll never stop hurting, not until you're back in 221b. - JW
  • You:I can't come back, John. I wish I could. Moriarty's men foung out I wasn't dead. They're threatening the people I care about. Mrs Hudson, Lestrade...You. If any of you got hurt because of me I wouldn't be able to forgive myself. Especially if it was you, John. You have to trust me on this. It will get better, John. -SH
  • Stranger:You have to come back. I don't CARE if I die. If I'm with you, if I get to spend a second more with you, then it won't matter. We can defeat them, together. Drive them away. Accidentally push them out of windows. I've trusted you on everything else, Sherlock, EVERYTHING else. But not on this. It won't get better. I know it won't. - JW
  • You:It's a risk I'm not willing to take, John. Even if you don't move on, I can at least guarantee you'll be alive. That's enough for me. -SH
  • Stranger:It's a risk I am willing to take. I'd take any bloody risk for you, Sherlock. I'm barely living. Honestly. Please... - JW
  • Stranger:Stop it. Stop this. I'm going crazy without you here. - JW
  • You:Barely is enough, John. As long as you have a breath left in you, it's enough. I won't be in contact again. Please try and be happy, John. For me. -SH
  • Stranger:No. I'm- I'm depressed, Sherlock. Mrs Hudson... She's worried I'm going to end it all, soon. - JW
  • Stranger:And I was contemplating it just this morning, when I woke up. In the flat, what should be OUR flat. Now I know you're out there, it's even worse. - JW
  • You:I'm sorry. I'm sorry for making this harder for you. I just couldn't stand not having a proper goodbye. But I need you to stay alive, John. Look after Mrs Hudson, go out on your dates, fall in love, grow old. Do that for me, John. Please? -SH
  • Stranger:This ISN'T a proper goodbye! It's not face to face, I... I don't even get to hear your voice. - JW
  • Stranger:And maybe I don't want to stay alive. Not without you. Because the truth is, I won't go out on any more dates. I won't bloody fall in love. Because I already did - three years ago. - JW
  • You:John...I....I don't know.....I'm not.... I can't.... -SH
  • Stranger:You know. - JW
  • Stranger:I'll bet you've always known. If you haven't, how the hell did you not notice? - JW
  • You:Why didn't you say anything? -SH
  • Stranger:Because I know you're not... Like that. It would have been pointless. - JW
  • You:It's not pointless, John. I was trying to say before: I don't know how to express my emotions, I'm not like other people, I can't describe my feelings. I want to say it, I've wanted to since the beginning, but I don't know how. -SH
  • Stranger:Say what? - JW
  • You:I- I- John Watson, I love you. -SH
  • You:But that doesn't even cover it, John. That doesn't sum up even half of what I feel. Can you understand that? -SH
  • Stranger:Oh, God Sherlock. You don't know how long... You don't know. - JW
  • Stranger:But I understand. You've said enough, I- More than I could have ever imagined. - JW
  • Stranger:I love you too, Sherlock Holmes. More than you know. - JW
  • You:So you understand why I have to do this, John? You understand why I have to keep you safe. Why I can't let anything happen to you. -SH
  • Stranger:I need you, though. Don't YOU understand that? - JW
  • You:I do. And I'll always be with you. I always have, even if you didn't know it. -SH
  • Stranger:No. I need you HERE. In the flat. With me. Physically. I need to see you again, look at you again... - JW
  • Stranger:I can't do this anymore. Not without you. I won't. - JW
  • You:I will beg you, John. If that's what it takes, I'll do it. I hate myself for what I'm doing but it has to be done. You have to understand that there's no other way. If there was, I would take it. If there was a way that I could come back to you then I would, if I could just come home and see you and be with you even for five minutes.... But that can't happen. I'm sorry, John, but this is how it has to be. -SH
  • Stranger:[STOP IT.]
  • Stranger:There's always another choice! There's ALWAYS a solution to the problem, Sherlock - you taught me that! - JW
  • You:I've been wrong before, John. Now, dry your eyes and take a deep breath. I know how you're reacting. I want you to turn your phone off and get some sleep. By the time you wake up, it will all be over. -SH
  • Stranger:No. No, no, no. You don't know how I'm feeling. You DON'T. I haven't randomly text you after three years of you being depressed, and then told you to get over it! - JW
  • Stranger:I haven't talked to you, confessed how I feel to you, then told you I'm leaving again. - JW
  • You:I'm sorry, John. But I can make you one promise; this won't happen again. -SH
  • Stranger:No. It won't. Because you're coming home. - JW
  • You:I'm not coming home, John. I can't. You know that as well as I do. -SH
  • Stranger:No, Sherlock. I swear to God. Come home or I'll... I'll do it. I'll take my gun and I'll... I'll make it so that the next time you see me will be in the next life. I swear it. - JW
  • You:John. Think about what you're saying. I'm doing this to PROTECT you, that would be a poor way to repay me, don't you think? -SH
  • Stranger:I DON'T NEED PROTECTING! - JW
  • Stranger:I need YOU! - JW
  • You:And I need YOU to be alive. I need you to keep going, for the both of us. Live for me, John. Please. -SH
  • Stranger:Where will you be? Where will you go? We're going to die eventually anyway. Why can't it be together? - JW
  • You:I'm not going to tell you where I'm going, I don't want you to be the one to find me...after. You're a survivor, John. You survived the war, you survived the past three years without me. It's not your time. -SH
  • Stranger:It will be. Soon enough. The years will pass quickly because I won't do anything. Just wait for you. - JW
  • You:Don't waste your life, John. I'm not giving mine for nothing. -SH
  • Stranger:It won't be a waste. Not to me. I have nothing else to live for. - JW
  • You:You'll find something. Or someone. I want you to be happy, John. Try to do that for me. -SH
  • Stranger:There's nothing else. There's no-one else. I can't be happy. If you understand how I feel, you'd know that. - JW
  • You:I do understand, John. Better than you know. Before I met you I'd never felt anything. Nothing at all. And now here I am, not being able to put my feelings into words. You changed me, John. You made me a better person. Thank you. -SH
  • Stranger:But I want to understand more about you. I want you explore more of you. I don't know if you mean any of this... But I know that this shouldn't be a goodbye, Sherlock. Please don't make it be. - JW
  • You:I don't want this to be goodbye. I never want to say goodbye to you. But it has to be. This has to happen. Goodbye, Doctor Watson. I love you. -SH
  • Stranger:Don't then! Please, Sherlock. Please, no. - JW
  • Stranger:Sherlock! Answer me! - JW
  • Stranger:Please... I love you. - JW