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I’m suffocating with my thoughts of you
Because my biggest fear came true
The love that had once burned so bright
Became nothing more than a speck of dust extinguished one night
I was just a kid, only 17
When I made this boy my everything
A tuesday in June was when it started
By friday we were together
A few bumps along the road in August
December and I knew I’d love him forever
He was funny and smart and his smile made me weak
He was tall with broad shoulders and had an accent when he’d speak
Somehow he loved everything I hated about myself
In his eyes I was beautiful and nothing else
2 years flew by, full of hours of Skype dates
And from the surface everything seemed great
Until it wasn’t

Because it wasn’t a fairytale
From the beginning we were doomed to fail
I ignored all the signs
Heard my friends’ warnings and rolled my eyes
And even when I knew it was wrong
I couldn’t help myself, I couldn’t leave, so I let it go on
He’ll change, I’d say
He’ll treat me right one of these days
I gave him my innocence and my heart
Continued waiting for him even when we were apart
Yet he couldn’t keep his hands to himself
I was just another trophy of many on his shelf
And even though it’s shameful to admit it,
He broke me

He broke my heart and my spirit
I had no pride, no self-respect
I wanted to be with him so I settled for less
And even though I gave him all I could, I gave him all my love
Nothing I ever gave him was enough
And after all the years I wasted,
He left

One day he decided it was the end
Rw’yn di garu di meant nothing to him
And for a moment I thought my life was ruined
But I’m a fighter and I’m tough
And I will survive when things get rough
I’m actually glad it happened to me
Because now I’m not weak, I’m no longer naïve
Oh

Oh those brown eyes that told me lies,
Those brown eyes that hypnotized
Those brown eyes I’ve learned to survive

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any seams,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don’t you remember?
Don’t you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know