Hey,in your post about "you've got to hide your love away" you say something about john and paul kissing, sleeping together and paul who dont take it serious. can you explain it for me? please. 🌺 (Ñ English isn't my first language sorry if something is wrong )
English is not my first language too so don’t worry i don’t care,…you mean this post right?
Talking about ‘You’ve got to hide your love away’ I wrote this:
I’m not denying that this song wasn’t written for Brian, I believe John wrote it after the ‘strong’ experience he had with him in Spain. I also believe that John tried to identify himself with Brian and his very difficult life at the time as homosexual. Said that, after John had that experience with Brian, in which he probably confessed him how hard it was to be homosexual in the 60s, he internalized those feelings and wrote this song not really as a tribute to him, but as a confession of someone who is in love with somebody and doesn’t know what to do cause he’s afraid people will condamn him forever.
John was married with Cynthia, he had no reason to hide his love away. If the song was entirely for Brian, he wouldn’t have written such an intimate song, he would have written a song in third person, or create a character as he often did.
In this song he’s struggling with HIS feelings, not somebody else’s. That’s why I firmly believe that the Spain holiday opened his eyes about his relationship with Paul. A relationship that in 1965 was still considered by both of them (but mostly Paul) as a joke, something both of them experienced during that time (sleeping in one bed, kissing during recordings..) but hadn’t the courage to admit it to each other. They were still in their own bubble, but while Paul was cleverly ignoring it, pretending it was just a friendship, it was John who started questioning it openly, worried about his feelings and what they might lead to, one day.
In the last part what I mean is that during the early 60s both John and Paul were living the excitement and the bright side of their fame and their relationship, but without questioning it.
In 1980 John compared his relationship with Paul during that time to the early stage of marriage and sex:
”In a marriage, or a love affair – when the seven-year-itch or the twelve-year or whatever these things that you have to go through – there comes a point where the marriage collapses because they can’t face that reality, and they go seeking what they thought they should be having, still, somewhere else. If I get a new girl, it’ll all be like that again; if I get a new boy… But for all marriages, all couples, it’ll all be the same again. But what you lose is what you put into that… relationship. The early stuff – the Hard Day’s Night period, I call it – the early period, was the early equi– se– what I’m – what I’m equating it to is the sexual equivalent of the beginning of a relationship. Of people in love. And the Sgt. Pepper-Abbey Road period was the period of maturity in the relationship. And maybe, had we gone on together, maybe something more interesting would have come out of it. It would not have been the same. It would have been a different thing. But maybe it wouldn’t either. Maybe it was a marriage that had to end. Some marriages don’t get through that phase. It’s hard to speculate about what would have been. “ John, September 1980 - Playboy Interview.
During that time, the A Hard Day’s night period, the Help! period, John and Paul spent countless time together, for example, when they were on tour they always slept together, like Bob Bonis said in an interview:
”Did The Beatles get on each other’s nerves a lot? They were always so closely confined in their hotel rooms?“
“No. It was surprising. They always had a suite. George and Ringo stayed together in one room, and John and Paul in the other bedroom, and a big, big room in between.
- Gary James’ Interview With The Beatles’ Road Manager Bob Bonis.
Also Paul has confessed it many many times during his interviews.(an example here)
This was the early stage of their relationship, as John also explained, there was excitement, there was fun, there was the joy of the fame, but on another hand both of them didn’t know what the hell was going on, and didn’t bother to discuss it. It wasn’t just a friendship, and they knew it, but they both were too afraid to confess it to each other, and Paul more than John.
They didn’t talk, they didn’t express the feelings they had for each other. The only time that this happened was in Florida in 1964 while they were on tour, when they got drunk and confessed how much they loved and needed each other. This is the famous story that inspired ‘Here Today’ lines “what about the night we cried, because there wasn’t any reason left to keep it all inside" .
I believe that this period was the most intense for both of them, but they didn’t acknowledge it, all the things that happened, the confession, the kiss, sleeping together, and God knows how many other things,…were never really discussed.
John and Paul were in love with each other, but they their relationship in a very different way: Paul didn’t like to express his feelings, he preferred to deny, to not give John too much for a couple of reasons: afraid of the social/historical enviroment in which they lived and afraid of their career. Also, Paul was overconfident, I believe he was 100% sure John would have always been there for him, and always loved him, no matter what, that’s why he was so shocked when Yoko took his role in John’s life. He took his relationship with John for granted, he knew that John needed him, and that’s why sometimes he was pretentious enough to reject him.
John was more open, more honest and didn’t think about the risks. That’s why the ‘Dylan period’, gave him the opportunity to write more personal stuff, like ‘You’ve got to hide your love away’.
This way of dealing with each other feelings was their major flaw, because they never really talked about their feelings and what they had for each other and it brought to such huge misunderstandings that later caused their break up.
Just a little example of how these issues they had were never discussed and brought to misunderstandings and later to a break up: Michael Lindsay Hogg (the man who directed both “Let it Be” and “Two of Us”) secretly recorded John, Paul, Yoko, Linda, and Ringo talking while they were filming “Let it Be”. One day, January 13th 1969, John and Paul have an argument, and John brought up an old discussion they had, when John asked Paul “do you like me?” and Paul never gave him and answer.
JOHN: Because you–‘cause you seem to have got it all, you see.
JOHN: I know that, because of the way I am, like when we were in Mendips, like I said— “Do you like me?” Or whatever it is. I’ve always–uh, played that one. So.
John has always played ‘that one’, who questioned their relationship, who talked freely about his feelings to Paul, and who asked for an answer, that Paul never had the courage to give him, and will regret it only after 1980.