Ok, I need to write this, because it’s only been one day of the hiatus and you guys are already giving me an anxiety cancer over this whole b.echo/b.raven debate (it’s my first hiatus in between seasons and… has it always been like this? damn…)
First of all, listen - I know this fandom has some big trust issues, but seriously - trust the writers. Think logically (and like them) for just a moment: audience loves parallels and callbacks, but do you think the watchers/readers like repetition of plots? I guess the answer would be “not so much”, because the first thing is interesting and cool, something like a nice treat to the fans, but the other? It’s just lousy writing, shows you lack imagination and no writer wants that.
Now look calmly at b.echo and b.raven.
If the first one gets together, it will be sth like this - they’re from different cultures and opposite sides, they worked together, she betreyed him, he hated her, he forgave her, they found common ground, they became lovers (and I skip the whole “you killed my sister” thing). Sounds familiar? Yes, it’s like c.lexa all over again, and that relationship was so big and important for this show, that I don’t believe the writers would want to repeat it, because it will kinda degrade the whole concept - it just won’t be as unique as they pushed for it to be.
Then let’s look at b.raven - if it actually happened (and let’s not forget I firmly believe bellarke is endgame), that would give us another love triangle with Clarke and Raven and some guy they both have feelings for and another situation when at the end he chooses Clarke. Like… would they really want to do that Finn drama again? Also let’s not forget, that Bell and Raven already tried to be together like that and it didn’t really work (but instead became this beautiful
We can say a lot of things about this show, but they never repeat the same plots - they parallel, they tweak here and there, but they never do copy-paste.
Ok, but now you can argue that “hey, so they can tweak it and make Bellamy choose Raven at the end” and that would actually made sense… if not for the golden rule of television - no couple that gets together off screen is permanent. Period. Audience loves seeing the whole road, the good and the bumps and everything, not just the destination. Showing how the characters are falling in love pulls the audience in, telling them “listen, these two love each other, you just have to take my word for it” never works. Just look at Gina’s situation - the moment she appeared, I was 100% sure she’s gonna die, or they will break up. Because there’s no way in hell they’re gonna put their Male Lead with someone random and without proper romantic build-up and expect me to care
(at the end of the day most of us probably cared about Bellamy who cared about Gina, but not about Gina herself). Imagine reading a book and then it’s as if it skips a few chapters and suddenly our Main Character is in a relationship - we just won’t care about it, it’s that simple. And if we don’t care, we don’t watch and the show dies.
Believe in the writers - with the new situation they introduced at the end of the ep, they don’t need to reheat some old dish, when they have one hundred new possibilities to explore. So let’s take a deep breath and slowly repeat - either way bellarke will be fine. Just… what will be The 100 without it’s angst?
Fun fact: the first thing I actually said to my boyfriend when I met him was “THATS THE CODE LYOKO THEME SONG! I LOVE CODE LYOKO!” because he was playing that on his laptop and his response was “SOMEBODY GETS IT!”, romance is real
By the end of last year, I have tried my best to hide the fact that my knee’s condition has worsened for the whole of 6 years. Till today, I have not shared this issue to my family or even my best friends. My personality of sharing to everyone after I have made my decision and that after all, it is my issue, has never changed since last year. I have decided and wanted to say on last year’s CDL “After this year’s CDL, I will go for the operation and go for rehabilitation and quietly go back to my new stages.” I rushed to make appointments with the hospital and went back to welcome the year of 2017 with everyone after deciding on the operation date. I was so stupid to think that I can relax after the operation. After that, the pain that I have been living with everyday is not something that I can describe in a word or two, so I do not plan to describe it in detail. After a few months, I am still passing the day by feeling my knees. However, I know that it is not the right way as if I want to say why, it is related to me leaving this stage.
Furthermore, during my tour, my ear worsened. Due to the rupture of my semicircular canal, I suddenly lost my balance. Sometimes, I can not even walk in a straight line. After that, although I managed to walk in a straight line, somehow I will stumble and fall. In general, it seems like as if I am performing in a drunken world. I have tried to vomit a few times in the studio’s restroom. But, I always say to myself “I will not lose to you” and try to face it. Due to the face that I had a sudden heart pain, I went to get a check up on my ear. “Because I have lost my hearings on my left ear, I have been relying on my right ear. And your right ear has also worsened.” Although I was still smiling like as usual after hearing the result, my mind went blank on my way back home after the check up. “Eh, both ear? Am i still considered a singer?” was all on my mind
In the middle of the Yokohama arena, someone contacted me through Line. This is what he/she wrote “Because of the existence of love, it seems that you do not lose your temper easily. Because of your genuity, let’s work hard one more time! we are the same like everybody, no matter who they are, I just want to stand in the middle of your stage that you made!” This word is like a slap to my face, made me wake up in an instant. This is not a responsibility, or a job. I want to get back to the Hamasaki Ayumi that everyone familiarize with.
to me, the stage is my everything. This stage is the place where I survived. Other than this, I cannot imagine where I can survive. This is not the time where I think what my future holds. Even if I lose my hearings, I will try to hear. Even if I can’t walk, I will try to walk. Thank you so much but I do not need your sympathy and compassions! Even till to the end of the limit, I will go forward to my goals with my heads up high!
Edit: The update in English written by Ayu
I’d like to talk about some things Tsuriko mentioned in her report on the tour website. She had to choose her words carefully as it’s a public site, but here I can be more direct.
At the end of last year, my kneecap finally gave out after 6 years of problems. I decided to have it operated on as soon as the Countdown Live concerts were over, then undergo rehabilitation during the time off, and return to the stage later in the year without making things public until later on. I’ve always preferred to keep things like this to myself, and this was no exception. Hospital appointments were made, and a date set for the operation. I saw the New Year in happily, and the operation took place without incident.
Foolishly, I allowed myself to relax at that point.
I don’t want to go into too much detail about the last few months, but suffice it to say that I’m still learning to live with my knee, day in day out. In all honestly I should probably stop performing on stage as I do, but that isn’t something I am prepared to contemplate.
Just before this year’s tour began I received a second blow - my hearing started to deteriorate further. My semicircular canals had blown, and I was experiencing crippling dizziness. I wasn’t able to walk in a straight line, and was often reduced to vomiting in the restroom at the rehearsal studio. I tried to put a brace face on things, but was told after various hearing tests that my right ear (which had been working overtime to compensate for my deaf left ear) was weakening fast. I don’t have a clear memory of my journey home after that. I just remember wondering how I, as a singer, would cope with two useless ears. Other than that, I was in darkness.
I’ve written a lot, but let me finish with this.
A certain somebody sent me a message on LINE at Yokohama Arena. It read as follows:
“You’re the real deal, so pull yourself together! It makes us mad because we care about you. We all - every last one of us - want to be a part of your show!”
It was a slap in the face, but it brought me to my senses. Not out of any sense of responsibility or duty; but on a much deeper level, I managed to find myself. That night, I found my way back to being Ayumi Hamasaki.
The stage is where I belong. It’s the only place I really, truly exist. I don’t know anything else. There’s no point in worrying about what lies ahead. I will keep listening, even if I can’t hear. I will keep moving, evening if I can’t move. I’m not looking for sympathy or pity. I will hold my head high and keep going forward until my last breath.
Next is Yoyogi! I’m looking forward to seeing your smiles
a/n: I’ve been stressed out lately so I came up with this (: havent proofread it yet so idek what is this but this is my first attempt HA enjoy
Some people think that it would be nice to have company sometimes , especially when the day was so awful and you just wanted to rip your hair off your head.
The total opposite goes to you.
You hated , no , you despised having company when you had a bad day. All of your friends and colleagues knew that , and when they saw you curse and close the laptop with a loud ‘bang’ , they stayed away from you. You set up the walls around yourself for 6 years of working , and everyone knew it was hard to break it.
I was gonna draw myself but thought I’d draw my fav boi instead ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ and because you guys liked my first drawing of him so much o3o like I’ve never had so many notes on a drawing in my whole 6 (?) years on here and I love everyone that liked and reblogged it so much <333 I may or may not do them but if anyone wants to suggest a walking dead lil thing for me to draw in a similar style feel free to send a message :D
Please do not use this image without my permission!
WOW!!!!! it’s only been a short couple of months and we’ve already hit 300+ followers dudes! even tho we all know a majority of those follows came from my impressive charm ( ;)))) ) i obviously couldn’t have done it without u guys!!
SO, to commemorate the occasion, here are some honorable mentions!!★ ★
Okay but guys you really don’t know how big of a deal this is because we’re seeing Mickey from the side and you see his ears? WE SEE BOTH OF THEM CLEARLY FROM THE SIDE!!! LIKE IN THE CARTOONS!!!! I’m so happy about this because this technology has existed for 6 whole years now and I’ve wanted to see it in a Kingdom Hearts game! Where have I seen it before, and why is this so huge?
This is behind-the-scenes footage from Epic Mickey, recorded 6 years ago, and look!
Do you not see this?! This is a Classic Mickey rendered in 3D!!! On the Nintendo Wii!!! And all while playing the game Epic Mickey if you so much as turn Mickey to the side his ears follow the motion!!!
Sure, this is just a Disney-nerd thing but for me even little details like this are huge and I’m so glad they’re starting to do this with Kingdom Hearts!!!