wait let me back up a little bit. for me personally, anxiety affects my life more than depression. it’s hands down a bigger issue for me.
but i find it easier to “talk back” to my anxiety instead of my depression. my goal is to calm myself down. i guess that’s my goal for depression too, but i find myself more unmotivated and sad(obvi) and doing things like journaling/writing my feelings down seems like the equivalent to running a marathon.
i came on my laptop to open up my google docs and journaling from there but then i went on tumblr and saw asks i haven’t answered and here i am writing my feelings out on here.
what i tell myself most is that this isn’t a feeling that will last forever. yes it will come around again, possibly in a few hours, but the fact is i am able to laugh feel joy and smile and knowing i will feel that way again is important for me to realize in a sad state. and right now i am realizing that typing takes less energy than writing (i hold my pencils awkwardly so it’s easy for my hand to cramp) so pulling out my laptop to type my thoughts down is another good way to go. plus since it’s night right now, i can’t exactly go outside to refresh my mind. (i could, but nighttime freaks me out and of course bugs) so having other things to do inside helps! i usually listen to uplifting motivational songs but they weren’t really helping so i looked up relaxing instrumental music on youtube and it’s really helping me right now. :-) it’s actually relaxing piano music to help people fall asleep so it’s making me a lil sleepy……..
this shit is had but no one can say i’m not trying
Those beyond the wall really have the warmest of warmest clothes you’ll ever sed
Dany + Jon 6ever, Tyrion knows, it’s his OTP
THIS SHOW IS A FUCKING MASTERPIECE
So fucking shoooooook SHOOK
YO D&D dont plan on killing all these principal characters do they ?!?!?! … because I dont see how they can escape now
And we all know they’re capable of doing so…
Gendry better go Usain Bolt on us right now
Can you imagine how exhausting that was.. like all these ups and downs, the heavy clothes and the cold
Ser Davos is bae 😍
Jon snow is bae-er 😻😻
Dany us bae supreme 😱😱😱
Sansa is canceled. How she gon’ disrespect Brienne like that 😒
Dany’s coat just blew my wig right off
All 3 dragons ?! Maaaan
Lmao the ww look hilarious
This battle… they look like billions of ants crawling towards them
JON MOTHERFUCKING SNOW, THATS HIS NAME, YOU BETTER ACT LIKE YOU FUCKING KNOW
DAENERYS STORMBORN TARGARYEN,
Daenerys Stormborn of the House Targaryen, First of Her Name, the Unburnt, Queen of the Andals and the First Men, Khaleesi of the Great Grass Sea, Breaker of Chains, and Mother of Dragons
The Night King better fucking chill
Wait but now we know thy he can wake animals too… dont tell me the fucker just got himself some dragon
Jon wtf you doing man ?!?!
Yoooo that’s what’s a shame wit dat man… he always gotta do that… put himself in danger and shit
YO NIGHT KING ! FUCKING CHILL.
So we just gon’ forget about my boyfriend jus like that ? OHHHH FUCKKKKK
(That sword is shady as fuck)
Fucking Jon Snow… looks like he drank 2 gallons of Hennessy
Yo !!! Who the ?!?! BENJEN. FUCKING. STARK.
Dont fall Jon please
A ducking movie.
The greatest warrior that ever graced the earth. Jon Snow.
He’s the best…
Sansa you dont wanna do that ho…
Lmao “my faces”
I fucking love this girl
Yooooooo 👀… Arya
LittleFinger is a huge steming pile of scum. He just planted his Wicked seed and left it to rotten everything. 😒 can’t stand the guy since he trapped ol’ guy Neddy.
My boy Jon had Dany SHOOK like litterally shook
This was the cutest shit I’ve ever seen on that show. (Besides Arya and Ned interacting)
The Night King fucking stressed out. He needs to relax a bit.
damn… A girl is fucking shook… A girl is really fucking shook.
I would buy post-it notes and write a number on each one of them. He’ll have to arrange the pieces of paper chronollogically before reading everything (hahahaha idk why I’m putting so much thought into this omg) and then i’d put:
1. Hi Zachary, please read the pieces of paper in order. Congratulations for starting with this one!
2. I love the way you push your hair back especially when it’s wet.
3. I love the way you fiddle with your thumbs when you’re nervous or when there’s something bugging you.
4. I love how dedicated you are when it comes to Bio.
5. I love how amazing you are at basketball. You’re passionate about playing and it shows at every game since you’re always the MVP.
6. I love the way you carry yourself and how you dress. I’m guessing your clothes are made of boyfriend material.
7. I love how you eat your sister’s brussel sprouts because she hates them. You’re a great brother.
8. I love that you don’t know what DTF means. You’re too precious for this world.
9. I love your smirk while driving your car. (It kills me everytime I see it but I’d love to die that way anyway.)
10. I love how sensitive and vulnerable you actually are. It shows the true you, may you never change.
11. I love how childish you can be sometimes, it reminds me not to take every single thing too seriously.
12. I love the way you stick up for people you truly care about.
13. I love that you try to make people feel better when they’re sad. That spoon trick was still adorable even though you couldn’t actually do it.
14. I love your broad shoulders and muscular arms. I often think about how they’d feel like wrapped around my waist.
15. I love the way your eyes light up when you talk about Bio or being a marine biologist.
16. I love everything about your smile. Especially when you shyly put your head down while doing so. It makes me go weak at the knees.
17. I admire your character development. How you wanted to tell the truth along with Alex in the end.
18. I admire your love and care for your younger sister. You even play chess with her and reassure her when she feels upset.
19. I admire your sense of sentimental value. You kept the letter, although Hannah misunderstood at first. Thank you for keeping the letter.
20. I admire you, Zachary. I love everything about you.
//I could write much more but uhmmmmm this is too long and extreeeemely cheesy anon sorry oh my.
“I HAVE A REAL HARD TIME CLASSIFYING ANYTHING AS MY BIGGEST MOMENT, MY FAVORITE COLOR OR WHATEVER. I’D HAVE TO SAY, THOUGH, THAT THE SUPER BOWL WAS MY GREATEST MOMENT IN SPORTS, AND IT WAS ALSO MY MOST EMOTIONAL MOMENT.”