One moment I am happy and content.
And the next I feel like I have a volcano of emotions within me.
That without warning erupt and any inches of happiness disappear.
Then I ask myself over and over again, why do I continue living this way?


Okay guys. You all really helped me out with my rifle choice. Being that I narrowed that down to two shotguns, I’ve switched my focus back to handguns.

Exclaimer: I live under governor Cuomo so this purchase is pending me relocating to a free state. I WILL NOT buy anything before I can handle/fire them. I’ve read the horror stories.

This being my first handgun, much like the rifle, it’s going to have to fill several roles. A range gun, a home defense gun, something I can take to classes, and possibly carry concealed once I get my permit. I’m leaning towards 9mm mainly for cost reasons, and I believe they’re better to carry (I’m not going to take part in a caliber debate on this post).

•The Smith & Wesson 5906/5904. I’m lumping them together because from what I’ve read they’re almost identical, except the 04 has an aluminum frame and is blued. 9x19 15+1. DA/SA. Slide mounted safety/decocker. Been carried by many police officers and are very robust, full size handguns. The only con I can see so far is weight, but I don’t mind that. Of course I haven’t run around with one on my hip all day so that is to be seen.

•The Sig Sauer P226 (Navy model pictured above). 9x19, 15+1. DA/SA with a frame mounted decocker. Also used by police, and military. Very robust also. Somewhat expensive, and also a hefty, full size handgun.

•The CZ P07. 9x19 15+1. DA/SA with the omega trigger system. Optional frame mounted Safety or decocker. A light weight, compact handgun that has really impressed me so far. The only problem with the P07 is what appears to be a lack of third party support.

•The Glock 19. The old standard. I won’t go into the details cause everyone knows them. The one thing I do like is how customizable Glocks are. Change a barrel, you’re shooting .40 or .45. Want better grip texture? Stipple it. Want a RMR? You got it? Want totally different internals? Cool. Want a completely different gun? Hello SAI or agency. I’d go agency. 2500 for a Glock 19 is too steep for my blood.

•The Sig Sauer P320. (Carry version shown above) this is a pretty cool concept. It’s 4 guns in one. A long slide model, a full size model, a carry model and a sub compact with the trigger and striker as the serial numbered part. 9x19 in a 16+1 capacity (I believe). Striker fired, but with Sig’s quality. This one interests me a lot.

I’m open to all feedback. Reblog this or send me an ask. Message me if you have kik and can help, ask me for it and I’ll give it to you.


S&W 4506

A popular but out of production .45 ACP pistol. Being a 3rd generation series from S&W, it shares a similar appearance to the 1006, 4006 and 5906, all of which have their own respective variants. Simple design and appearance, the 4506 can also handle .45 Super with a simple changing of its springs. They aren’t exactly rare but may become collectable over time; something that happened to the 10mm models. (GRH)

Weapons: Helping Descriptions Feel Natural

The biggest challenge when working with description isn’t the act of describing itself. It’s knowing the when or where. Sometimes, describing weapons can get awkward. This happens a lot for me in fiction, especially when an author plunks all the description down in a place where it doesn’t belong. It’s important to remember even when writing Third Person Omniscient that when a character thinks about their weapon or talks about their weapon, they need to do so in a manner which feels natural to how the character thinks and acts.

Think about this, which sounds more natural.

Gerald’s hand shifted back and pulled his Glock 17 9mm off his Sam Browne belt.


Gerald’s hand shifted back and he pulled his sidearm off his Sam Browne belt. His fingers locked easily around the silver grip. It was a Smith & Wesson 5906. No longer standard issue in the LA Department, they’d moved on with the times to other, newer, models. Still, Gerald thought, can’t beat a classic.

The thing about description is you need to find reasons why you’re characters are describing the object to begin with. The Glock 17 is standard issue in most police departments around the country, while the reader might not know that a cop like Gerald certainly would. If his gun isn’t important or special to him in some way, then dropping description of it randomly into a sentence feels out of place. It’s just his sidearm, standard issue, nothing special. Comparatively, in the second example Gerald uses his weapon as a stand in to tell the reader that he’s out of date. It was standard at one point but we’ve moved on with the times, Gerald has a reason to tell us about his gun and we get some character development out of it too.

This transitions into working with a sci-fi or fantasy setting, even if the weapon the character wields is like nothing we’ve ever seen on this earth they still need to treat it like it’s normal (unless it isn’t). There’s a time and a place for extensive navel gazing about what the weapon can do, but if it’s slowing down the scene then chuck it.

Sam swung her XLJ452 lasgun around and pointed it at the dreaded bug monster. She fired, reducing the beast to a smear of chunky, blue salsa.

Let’s change the scene and compare:

“And this one?” Drill Sergeant Martez’s finger dropped, pointing to a long silver cylinder with a bulky handle. The full collection of standard issue lasguns and pistols sat on the wide table.

Sam straightened. “The XLJ452! Marine issue! Fires a beam of light straight down the bug humpers gullet and reduces them to a blue smear.”

“A blue smear?” Martez lifted an eyebrow.

To be honest next to the XIL321 and the XLJ456, the XLJ452 looked a little like an oversized penis. “Chunky salsa?” Sam asked.

“Chunky salsa, Private?”

“Yes, ma'am. Chunky salsa, ma’am!”

The idea is to give your characters a reason to talk about details in your setting and not just drop them in at random. Make them a natural extension of how your character feels, thinks, and talks about their weapons. The explanations need to feel natural and support who your character is supposed to be and what they are supposed to know. If your character works with their weapon often, they may not have a reason to share exactly what it is and the story behind it unless they are pressed. Or they are nerds. Or it’s their job to know.


5906) A lot of times I feel like I'm not 'trans enough' to identify as male because I'm really feminine. I like paining my nails, I like men, and am kind of 'flamboyant'. I've been on T for over a year and still rarely pass, and I can't help but blame it on my feminine personality...

blame it on society’s messed up gender roles


One of our lead burger cohort/collaborator Travis Millard is having an art show opening this week with our friends Slow Culture.  You may recognize some of his work from our Pig Candy zine or from his chill burger dude up on our Oinkster Hollywood location.  

This will also be the first time his debuting his famous pancake series.  For a year and a half he has been saving pancakes every Sunday and casting them in resin to live on forever.  This show is not to be missed! 

Travis Millard “Kiss My Aura"

Opening Reception: Friday September 5, 2014 7-10PM

Slow Culture Gallery

5906 N. Figueroa St.

Los Angeles, CA 90042


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