Back then,if you were me, that’s what you would’ve done. That’s why you point your blade at me, right? That’s why you don’t point your sword at yourself, you point it at another you. That’s why you’re trying to cut down an enemy that hurts far more than cutting down yourself, right?
What also pains me is this pre-test scene. They’re devastated. Killian’s anxiety to finally confirm if their love is true. His look, “What the hell aren’t the doors opening? Why isn’t this working?”
They both bet for this relationship, for this love, to fight for each other, overcoming any type of obstacles and I can’t imagine how terrible it must be to feel for a single moment like none of this was enough. Because it felt big, overwhelming and strong.
It felt real. It was real and true for them.
Despite this moment, despite feeling as if the test had failed, she still chooses him.